After reading that and other topics on this forum i feel a bit more confident and im sure i shall reclaim my mind.
I also think i was thinking i would control the whole dream but didn'tand that was what got my hopes down but i'll be more confident but more aware that it wont always go my way.
I am know on a mission to create a companion along the way to keep me in check and to tell me its your mind, its your dream and you,yes you, can contral it for its your mind and only you can control it(unless something divine up there is doing something then no).
I've got my companion all figured out and i know i'll be able to creat him.(He will be a tiger with big humming bird wings and i shall call him kyrowge. I think i will be a great contrast as a tiger can mean dominance and the wings of the humming bird can mean colour plus I've all ways felt that humming birds make me happy.)