My insomnia has gotten progressively worst over the past few days. At the same time, I wasn't remembering any dreams, and it took me a while to put two and two together. Less sleeping - less time for dreaming. Each night I was progressively sleeping less and less until it got down to only three hours of sleep.

At this time I was upset, becuase I really wanted to try to WILD again and thats really hard without those four to five hours of sleep prior and even harder if you dont fall asleep again! So I tried to go to sleep earlier. Big mistake I guess.

That night, which was the other night, I had gotten ZERO hours of sleep. I was in bed all night long, but I wasnt wide awake either. Its hard to explain. I was tired and my mind was drifting into random thoughts and images, but I never actually fell asleep. Time passed much quicker than it did when I am fully awake. Before I knew how much time had passed the sun was already rising, and I was thouroughly frustrated at that point. I told my sister that I couldnt sleep at all and she suggested that the next night I wake up extra early and go to bed earlier as well, to help knock me into a normal wake and sleeping pattern.

So I had it in my mind to wake up earlier last night, but the same thing happens, zero hours of sleep. The hours fly by and I'm just not asleep yet. Had I realized an entire night was passing I would have gotten up and read a book or something, but I like I said, im not fully awake - but neither was I asleep.

This morning my head was aching and my sister is telling me to wake up before I 'sleep' all day. I mean how could I wake up when I havent even fallen asleep yet? I didnt care about falling into a normal sleep pattern, I just wanted to be asleep, even if only for ten minutes! I wanted that satisfaction so bad I was tears

But this morning I did learn something, and that was the feeling of falling asleep. How I missed it! I knew I was finally falling asleep and any minute now I'd be in a dream. My first two dreams this morning were incoherent bits of total randomness. They each lasted for about five minutes. I wake up briefly for a minute before I get vivid HI and sounds. As a dream forms right infront of my eyes I sorta dissolve into very very passively. It was like a mini WILD, except no vibrations and I wasnt lucid from the start. But that wasnt very hard to do on my own since I had missed dreaming so much

I climb a small building infront of some teenager boys. My body has weight in the dream, so climbing took some dream muscle. From the building I walk to its edge, which led to an arena below. I can still feel my own wieght before jumping off. I'm falling fast to the arena floor and the wind is pushing me, but thats when I start flying and I am damn happy to know I really am dreaming!

I fly past the arena, through the window of a house and into a bedroom. I realized my dream would end shortly and there were so many things I've been wanting to do from all these past days! The first thing that popped up on my list was a dream pet. I looked underneath a drawer and summoned my brand new dream pet to come out! I had no idea what it would be, I thought Id let the dream decide. To my surprise, out comes sliding a baby blue dragon. . DOLL. "A doll??" It sure was cute, but I wasnt expecting...a doll. It shook its head at me and waved its fingerless hands. Alright, I guess its living? My pet dragon doll made a motion and I think it was telling me, it cant walk. So here I am carrying my pet doll dragon! Yay!

As I turn around I notice there was someone hiding in the closet. I decided it was my dream guide, since that was the next thing on my list. So I say to the person hiding in the closet "Come on out dream guide! I'd like to meet you!" The door doesnt budge so I shrug and say "Or, um I guess, when you or ready to let me see you. . .or I guess when I am really ready?" I left the room and went back to the arena, and I sat my pet down. She looked up at me curiously. I went on to the next thing that was on my list, transforming into a blue dragon myself.

Seemed sucessful I think, except my skin color kept changing from blue to peach and back to blue, and I wasnt sure if I had wings or not! My dream is almost up and I quickly grab my pet and fly off wondering what can I do before waking up. I end up back in the bedroom and my dream starts to melt away. This time the closet door is open, with the light on and very much empty inside. But near the door was a beautiful necklace that wasn't there before either. I grab the necklace which felt like a present. I wake up afterwards to hear my sister telling me not to sleep all day and claiming thats why I cant sleep at night.

Um. . . I think it was the other way around. I'm pretty sure my fifteen minutes worth of sleep today, despite how late in the morning it was, was becuase I have gone two nights without sleep =b I wonder if I should have woken up at all, but I was sorta hungry for breakfast.

My head still hurts and I feel like hell. And I hope I can fall asleep naturally tonight and not have to have such a rush in my lucid dream as if its the end of the world. I do think its rather amusing that my fifteen minutes of sleep this morning mimicked my NORMAL sleep cycle, in that it started off with incoherent abstract dreams, I wake up briefly and then I fall asleep into a more vivid stable dream.

quick question though, my sister protests against me taking a nap saying it will only complicate my sleeping habits already. I say, it cant possibly get any worse since I'm not sleeping at all. Would it be a crime to take a nap later on today or should I wait out my sleepyness until its night?