wow.

again, amazing dreams last night.

2 lucids, but one especially.

let me back you up on a lil history. ive used psychedelics for a while. not really interested in cocaine, ecstasy or weed. ive tried and they do nothing special for me. but psychedelics you know, they are very special to me.

anyway, 2 days or 3 days, i should say 2 SLEEPs ago, I tried DMT. great experience, mindblowing, i didn't breakthrough, but anyone whos tried, can imagine my awe at the CEVs.

ever since this experience ive had multiple lucids evvery night. not only that, but my non-lucids hae changed drastically. my dreams have become about 100x more realisitic. i think even more realistic than life...

ok, well i was unaware why my dreams felt so much difference since i tried dmt. i mean i cant explain it, i could feel this HUGE HUGE HUGE change, but not able to put my finger on it. i woke up and felt so much more impact on me from my dreams.

well the one especially lucid from last night, i was dreaming and remembered my 'waking' life. what has happened in previous lucids (pre-DMT) where i become lucid i see how much depth the dream world lacks. its like i realize how fake it is and smack myself for not realising the things that are missing.

pre-DMT in my dreamworld i dont think, i cant remember things ive done previously, strange places, blah blah. the best i can describe it is being put under a really heavy sedative and then getting thrown into a cage of lions. you would be so gone, your thought pattern so non existance, you wouldnt think anything of it. just sit there and not even realize you were in a foreign or even dangerous place. thats what it WAS like when i was dreaming.

now my dreamd have increased depth tenfold. when i am in a dream, the dream has a whole life to it. its like i am another person in a real world. i remember things about my whole life, i can remember a whole lifetime in each dream. i mean i literally become another persons life. it so strange.

well it was only last night i realised this when i had a lucid, like before 'i had one especially'. i realised i was dreaming by remembering my 'waking' life. this time, instead of realising how fake the dream world was in comparison to real life, it was the opposite. i realised how vivid it was, how much depth it had. this dream world felt more like my real life than my waking one.

ever read those RED BLACK GREEN books by Ted Dekker? have a read of the summary or if you'v eread it, it was the exact same for me.

i literally had a WHOLE life in this dream, which I could remember at the time. it was more realistic than life. and at this point i could remember my dreams since DMT and saw they were all the same. this is the drastic change in my dreams which i hadnt noticed. they have 10000000000 times more depth.

i mean how funky is that. a dream which is more realistic than the real world. clearly my DMT trip, has changed something in my brain.