There are reasons why I am so open with you guys, your words and support are just those reasons, this is one of the few places where I have found that people actually seem to care about one another, and try to help each other out. And I really do appreciate what youve said.

I do know which side I am on, that has been apparent to me for some time now, I wonder if I try to stay away from that place if the chaos will subside too, but I worry for my friends, stuff seems to get bad when I am not around either, so I really do hope that I am there to balance the chaos and not the other way around, and I would never give up on my friends, i understand their situation and I dont blame them, but once you make a friend of me, I am near impossible to get rid of =)

A friend of mine suggested that I have yet to find a dream guide is that I am my own dream guide, I do think alot of the answers to my questions do lie hidden deep inside my soul I just need to keep digging, but there is the part of me that does scare me, that monster that we all have inside us, and it scares me because that monster is a dragon as well, the kind that you dont want to meet. But I think I have enough control to keep it buried like it is.

I do know that my purpose is to protect, this fact has been driven home on many occasion in this world and the dream world. So I am pretty sure thats why I go where I do, but I worry, I get it from my mom, and there is still alot of self doubt that I need to work through, It shoudlent be there but it is, its like a frikin brick wall... I will knock it down though, and I think you guys have already helped me take a chunk out of it...

I really am glad I found this place...

Thank you, I owe you guys =)