OK so I had my first lucid dream on Sunday afternoon, which I already posted about in another area of the forum (mainly b/c I wasn't sure if it was really an LD or not, but it turns out, it was).

Well, last night when I went to bed, I had a lot of trouble sleeping. All I could think about was lucid dreaming, and for some reason, I was scared of having one. I've been having this trouble lately, and I really don't know WHY. It's extremely frustrating. I was pretty much waking up every hour, and sometimes I'd do an RC, and sometimes not. Every time I did one though, I'd be afraid I'd be dreaming. lol, so stupid!

Well, finally I got to sleep (this was sometime after 2 am), and this is what I remember.

I am outside on what looks to be a really nice college campus. It's a beautiful, sunny day. I don't know what prompts me to do so, but I decide to do an RC, to see if I'm dreaming. I plug my nose and try to breathe, and to my astonishment, I can! I can't breathe SUPER well, but I *can* breathe somewhat, as opposed to when I do it in waking life and can't breathe at all. Then, I remember what someone in this forum said-- that you have to "stabilize," and so I started rubbing my hands together (I'm not sure why I did this), and just trying to stabilize myself in the dream scene.

I am walking down the sidewalk, and I remember asking, "Can I please see John Lennon?" but then I change my mind and ask for David Duchovny (again LOL). But no one ever shows up.

Then, it skips to another scene. I'm in this house, with all these random people, who I don't know. I remember seeing a really nice looking woman there, with long blondish-brown hair. She is smiling at me. Then, I'm in this den-like room, and there is a bar with stools. I remember a task from real life that the leader of this lucid dreaming Yahoo group that I'm in asked me to do yesterday. He wanted me to ask something about angels... I can't remember exactly what it was he wanted me to ask, but he wanted me to ask it of an inanimate object. This next part is kind of vague and cloudy-- I think I ask it of this red object, but I don't know what the object is. Then, I'm talking to this big black lady, who is wearing a red t-shirt, and I ask her, "How are angels created?" or something to that affect.

Her answer is REALLY weird-- it's just like, a bunch of words that don't make sense put together. I don't understand it, and I ask someone behind me for a piece of paper and pen to write it down so I'll remember it when I wake up, haha. (It didn't work though-- I can't remember what she said!)

Then, I'm back in the other part of the house where I was before, and I want to change the dream scene, so I start spinning, which I've read about-- but then I stop and say to myself that no, I'm not done with this scene yet.

Then the next thing I remember is seeing this boy up in a tree, and I ask him, "Do I want a relationship?" (A personal issue I've been dealing with for a while). I don't remember his whole answer, but I know the gist of it is "No, you don't, not right now. " He says more things but I don't remember what they are.

Then, it skips to a different scene again, and this time I am in this little store with a bunch of random DCs. I have the idea that I should continue to ask questions of inanimate objects and see what they say. I don't remember everything I ask, but I do remember asking some object if my ex-boyfriend ever cheated on me. The object says yes, and I'm really surprised. Then, I decide to ask something else, and I pick up this kind of old-looking object, that is kind of like an old-fashioned phone, but not... it's hard to explain. I put the receiver to my ear and ask the same question about my ex-boyfriend. The voice on the other end is saying yes he did, but then it explains something about how it doesn't matter if they answer yes or no, because the only person who will truly ever know is my ex-boyfriend, so their answer doesn't matter- or something like that. Then, the voice starts talking about creepy and disturbing things, like about how I could have gotten a disease from him, and the voice uses the word "black cancer" and is talking about me getting that, from my ex-boyfriend, in certain private areas, if you get my drift. (Which, I never got any disease from my ex in real life, so I don't know what that whole thing was about!) I do NOT like what this voice is turning into, so I think to myself, "That's enough of that!" and put down the receiver, because the voice was starting to freak me out.

Then, I remember I'm telling the DCs that I'm having a lucid dream, because I think they are thinking I'm a bit strange for talking to inanimate objects, LOL. The last thing I remember is telling myself to wake up, because all the DCs are leaving to go somewhere, and it's like, I felt the dream was time to be over or something like that.

Wow ok, that's probably a "too long; didn't read" for everyone!

Here's the thing-- even though in my dream I knew it was a dream, I still don't feel like I had control, or that I was lucid the ENTIRE time. I don't remember it feeling really REAL... is that normal? And especially with the way it was just skipping around to different scenes/parts in the dream... it didn't all flow together, it's not like I thought, "OK, I want to be at this house now." Is that normal for the first few/several lucid dreams that you have?

Any words of wisdom from more experienced LDers is appreciated!