I decided to stop lucid dreaming, I used to try and have them, then once i did, I didn't want to, because of the dreams I started having. One I remember is where I was in this very large room, NOTHING was in it, except a window, nothing was out the window, except sky. I wandered out of the room and found a church(like a catholic church i went to as a kid) and NO ONe was there and there was nothing in it, except pews. That's why i thought it was a church. Suddenly, an old lady appeared and said, "you have to make it" and disappeared. My first reaction was, oh, fun! So I went into the other room again, and made some bookshelves appear. Then there was nothing on them so I added some books. Then I made some chairs. I turned the white floor into blue carpet. I was bored, and lonely, I looked out the window and still saw nothing but sky, so I made a green grassy plain be at the bottom with some hills and mountains in the background, I didn't want to spend a lot of time on it. I do art in my waking life, so I was not interested in this, I was lonely, so i tried to make some friends. Whichc proved to be very scary. I tried to imagine a person there, and it was a faceless fleshy thing. It had no mouth...it began walking towards me. I backed away and it stopped. I added some eyes, and it started looking computer generated, so no thank you, that is not a real person. So i decided to wake up. Then there was this other one where I was talking to my dead grandpa and I was awake...well I mean lucid, in my dream...I said, "I'm dreaming! Is it really you?" and he said, "yes! I have waited so long for you to come here!"and hugged me. It was a totally cool hug because it was...well it just felt amazingly awesome. It felt colorful, if such a thing is possible, and bright. " I want to show you something!" I tried to follow him through a clear wavy hole(have you ever looked through a grill fire and above the flame the stuff behind it is wavy? like that), and then when I went through it I lost his hand and woke up. So many times when I see him or someone tries to teach me something, I say, "I'm sorry I can't stay lucid very long" I try hard and I can't stay lucid. What happens is you start feeling cloudy and watery and the dream gets less clear and then you wake up. So, I decided lucid dreaming is too hard and I disappoint too many dream people who are important, so I'd rather play and frolic in less lucid dreams. Sometimes I still have lucid dreams accidentally though. I started out like a lot of you. All I did is get a book on lucid dreaming at the library and read it. I didn't do anything, I just wrote on a piece of paper, I will have a lucid dream tonight, and I did. I don't remember my first one...one thing is for certain, the first thing I did was to say, "I'm dreaming!" also, I remember another one that was scary. There was an alien peeling off layers like an onion. I told him, "you can't hurt me, I'm dreaming!!" and he took out a knife and said, "yes I can" and slit my hand, and it hurt just like in real life. I decided there was no real advantage to lucid dreaming.
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