Yes. I don’t just get sick of it. I get a little freaked out. Things seem a little intense, I feel a little over-sensitized. I don’t want that much mindfulness. And I don’t consider that a problem, it’s not something “broke” about me. After thinking about it, I just don’t see any practical need for continuous mindfulness. Of course I want to be present to my life, including my dreams, but not intensely.
Instead of stopping for a few weeks and then starting again, I’m going to just find another sort of meditation. I’m looking. Visualization, guided imagery, painting… in other words, mindfulness where I’m involved into what’s going on rather than the kind of perpetual detached observation of mind that I learned from Buddhism (I don’t know if that’s a fair characterization of Buddhist meditation, but it’s the variety that I learned).
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