Thread: Madman and the Helpless Dream

I've been having the madman dreams on and off for a year or so now and was wondering if anyone could help at all. I'm generally a very patient person so this is extremely out of character and even farther off from my belief system.

Not for the fainthearted... [explicit warning...]

Madman Dream
Starts out usually with me being irritated at something, nothing too big but enough for me to be irritated. Some guy came along and tripped me then turned around and yelled at me to 'watch where the *bleepity bleep bleep* I was going and proceeds to kick me. I snap, jump up and stab him I don't even know how many times, until there isn't anything left of him to possibly recognize. The police appear and chase me as I run at the next closest person and stab them repeatedly until the police catch up. Apparently they're rent-a-cops that cant carry sidearms so they tackle me and try to arrest me and as they're taking me to the squad car one of them is too close and I bite a chunk out of his ear. I black out for an unknown reason.

I reawaken at the courthouse. There isn't a hearing so much as I curse the judge and every individual in the room, telling them that I hate them and that I would kill them and their families as soon as I got the chance to and immediately try to take down the nearest individual. I end up getting tazed repeatedly and put into a straightjacket.

I recall being dimly aware of my surroundings and hearing a voice talking on the phone say, "What do you mean they're full? I... oh I see. I suppose he'll have to go to prison until there is a cell available for him."

The next thing I realize is that I'm entering a large prison hall for the first time, surrounded by inmates and being escorted by guards into the center of the room, encircled by the inmates. The guards take me out of the straitjacket and walk out. I hear jeers from the inmates and the biggest one walks up to me and orders me to bend over as several other men much larger than myself approach me. I lept up on the big guy and rip his eyes out and bite into his brow. One of his mates pulls me down and I bite his wrist until the artery breaks and spews blood all over the center ring. The next few minutes are a blur, I just remember grabbing another guy and pulverizing his throat, ripping his ears off, that kind of thing. I remembered hating them, utterly without empathy or compassion, like the only purpose to my existence was to kill them.

It's night and I'm in my cell. I've already killed my cellmate who was still whimpering in a corner holding...parts of himself that werent really attached anymore. I was litterally howling in rage and screaming at the top of my lungs while trying to body slam my way out of the cell. The cell popped open as did one of the other guys that the guards had problems with. He had heard about the instance earlier and had to listen my cellmate suffer as I had killed him and tried to muffle a small cry when I ran towards him. I dont remember how, but I remember ripping his throat open and repainting the place a lovely shade of red.

The dream generally ends in solitary confinement where I repeat the crying, howling, and body slamming the door routine until the dream ends. Sometimes I get transfered to a mental health facility where the sudden presence of shotguns and submachine guns held by the guards are enough to get me to behave outside of my cell or they kill me. After this I don't wake up, but I stop remembering the dream and generally don't remember any other dreams for the night.

(It may be noted that it is not unusual for something to die in my dreams, but usually its me that does the dying. Actually, it's rare for me NOT to die in my dreams and rarer still for no one to die. It's been nearly a decade since I had dreams that didn't revolve around someone's or my own death in a regular pattern. Apparently, its possible to be trampled to death by gerbils.)

The Helpless Baby Dream
This one was odd and happened four nights in a row with a slight variation.

It started out with me and my old best friend, this girl who I had loved, respected and trusted more than anything. The dream takes place back then when we were still close and progressing through. We talked like normal and we went places like friends usually do. Some time passes and things start to go sour. Then I'm in this smallish room with her and she starts yelling at me, cursing me, replaying every single negative event I've ever experienced with her. She starts physically beating me while insulting every ounce of my being and existence and telling me how much she wants me to die and how many different ways she'd do it she had the chance. This went on for what felt to be an hour. Just again and again and again. She was doing a pretty good job of beating me to death. At this point my character, I was somewhat distanced from myself at this point, was so utterly hurt and confused because he was still utterly loyal and devoted to her that the insults hurt worse than the punches.

Eventually she vanishes and I'm left alone, back to being apart of myself, hurt and crying. She comes back into the room. I immediately scramble for the nearest corner, terrified of her. She goes over to me and manages to pin me. I shut my eyes tight and start sobbing. I am unable to resist anything she does, I feel smaller than her (in reality I'm prolly 33% bigger) and every move I resist she pushes away like I wasnt resisting at all. She puts her hand behind my head and pulls me against her breast and starts petting me from my head to my back. I'm still sobbing beyond control. Still feeling helpless in her grip. I'm not sure how but she still managed to pin me with only one of her arms actively restraining me.

Depending on the night, the ones with other close friends, it roughly ends here and she manages to make me feel better and I wake up. With one of the girls who was my closest friend though, it continues. She pulls me back and carresses my face, strips her shirt and bra, pins me then starts nursing me. I'm completely and utterly helpless, I struggle but cant move her away and the feeling of being entirely dominated settles in. I'm still crying beneath her but I dont feel as terrified due to her feeding me. She continues on in this manner, pinning me and resisting my trying to escape, etc for a good while, eventually I stop crying and she lets me cuddle against her and she continues to nurse me... Sometime after that I wake up.

Two very odd, opposite dreams that make little sense to me. Help?