New and need answers to questions that scare me

[gabriela]

ok first off let me say im not quite sure my feelings just that im scared and dont know who to talk to or what to do. i have been living in my current house for 7 years ( im 19 years old) keep that in mind. my first nightmare that scared me to death and i still remember in detail was a dream i had in my old house when i was in elementry, it started out as me and my little brother and mom in old western times. we were in a horse carraige a dark one with red curtains. something felt very wrong. then it switched to my mom leaving to find food. my brother was crying and scared, i was trying to comfort him while we looked for mom. we ended up walking down this dusty dirty road. with buzzerds flying around i knew there was something wrong but continued to walk with my brother at my side. thats when i saw the buzzerds pecking away at something, i was so scared because i knew it was my mom so i made my brother wait. i started to walk closer crying and begging my mother to come back. after that i woke up crying for my mom ( she had gone to work ) im sure i had other nightmares but none that i remember like that , years later we moved into the house im living at now. i would say 4 and a half years ago from now. i had the same dream only this time i remembered it and was watching younger self and brother beggin to wake up and trying to wake up but my body was heavy and wouldnt allow me to wake up i began to worry because it felt like i was pushing agaisnt my phsycal body but it wouldnt move and hurt. finally i was able to move and never told anyone. 2 years ago i had another dream that frighten me the way that dream did. the night i went to sleep i had left my two door closet open because i was too tired to close it i fell asleep and woke up in my dream scared i kept looking into my closet feeling as if something was wrong so tried to leave and run to my moms room feeling as if that was the only comfort but couldnt see and none of the lights worked i then knew i was dreaming freaking out i tried to wake myself up and once again was unable to move trying to reach for my black light i was throwin my body in and out of sleep finally i turned on my light but was still dreaming it felt like i was really awake i saw my brother on the top corner of my wall all blue and dead crawling his head did a full turn thats when i woke up for real. after that i would have dreams none that i could remember just stuff like trying to kill me or my family and could not wake up even when i knew i was dreaming. just the other day i had another dream i was at my great grandpa house with my great grandma and grandma and my great grandpa at first i thought he wet himself because he isnt too well. but then i got a better look and it was blood pouring out i started to freak. then it flashed to a different place and i knew instantly something was wrong some one was after me i hid and stayed quite in the room and i saw my dog and a tiger i love my dog so much and i dont know why but i had to save both my dog and tiger so i started to make a run for it and i could hear myself telling me what to do and that it was useless, i ran into a room with a cat balled up in a glass ball a vacum going back and forthe. then i started to run , i lost my dog but as the tiger ran for it they got it. and i could hear screams then i was outside and my dog was near water something told me they cant swim to i started towards the water once i started to swim i knew i was dreaming and once again tried to wake myself up. when i woke up i noticed my closet open, every time my closet door is open i dream awful and disturbing things, but i only seem to dream that stuff in my room. i have had dreams where i'm trying to wake up but cant i feel trapped in my dream and my body is limp and unable to to move in the other parts of my house but do not remember my dreams. if you can tell me whats going on and what to do or have any advice i would really apperecate it

[rkenning]

go lucid! learn to combat these dreams by triggering lucidity, read the tutorial section for lots of help