I've had many small recurring nightmares in my childhood, like dreaming I forgot my to put my pants before to school (lol).
When I was very young, I dreamt I was walking behind my mom in a street, but she would start walking very fast, and I couldn,t catch her and she would not hear me. Then some sad music played, saying "You're all alone" or something.
I also had one recurring nightmare back then , comming back once or twice a year.
I would be in a familiar house (home, grandparents, etc)
There are other family members, but they are always in another room, or in the basement or something. Then all of a sudden, I spot some kind of creature outside the patio door.
The creature looked like this, but slimmer, slightly taller, less goofy looking.
(abe from oddworld: abe exodus)
I was scared and wanted to shout for help, however, as soon I saw the creature, I would be paralysed, unable to produce a sound, or anything.
As time passed, I tried different things when that nightmare occured.
I was able to tap on the ground with my foot, but no matter what I did, it never got anyone's attention and I would wake up.
One day I dreamt of this creature, however the dream was different. There were plenty of them, running through a field, and I was running with them.
After that, I still had a similar recurring nightmare, but the creature would not show up ever again.
Instead, the setting would be similar. I would be alone in a house I knew (or at least alone in the room).
It happened in any dream, but it was always triggered by something similar.
The first time, I was petting my cat on my grandparent bed, then suddently, she would get up and hiss. The closet door opened by itself, and my cat got pushed away.
As I sense something is there, and it is comming for me, I woke up in sweat.
I've had this nightmare too many times to count, but each time it is a bit longer.
Usually, I mind my own business in a room of a house, then I notice it is dark, and I become stressed (IRL, I really hate looking in the dark when I'm alone),.
I try to open the lights, but theres always a power shortage, or they light up but emit a ridiculously small amount of light.
Then I would wake up.
But as time passed the nightmares got worst.
Now I don't even bother to open lights, because they never work, but each time I get alone and something suspicious happen, or it is very dark and I notice it, I get violently grabbed, by something I can't see (most likely invisible)
I can only describe that thing as a ghost of somesort, because I cannot see nor hit it, altho IT can grasp me hard and hold me in midair.
Like in my old nightmares, I could produce no noise, and trying to break free never succeeded.
I've also had this nightmare recently (about once or twice a year).
In the first LD I recall ever having (before I even knew it was possible to control dreams)
I was grabbed in a dark street and pulled in the air by that same annoying force.
For some reason, I recall having a "powerword: light" cheat from some game to light up the surroundings.
I said it in the dream, but it had no effect the first time. Pissed, I shouted it again and it actually worked! However, the thing pulling me in the air lit up and appeared as a bunch of young pranksters.
I was pissed because it made no sense that a bunch of kid could fly and lift me up in the air, and I woke up, still amazed to know I could have some kind of dream control.
The nightmare now occurs everytime I get in a suspicious/gloomy/dark room (usually alone)
of course, it's also because everytime I see such signs, I go "Shit, not again..." ,then it starts.
In the last 3 nightmares , I tried to fight it seriously, but I only ended up swearing because the thing was too cowardly to show itself/ fight me fair and square. Woke up less scared than usual, pissed, but still kinda happy to know I resisted and actually made fun of it.
The second to last time, I tried reasonning with it, asking wtf it wanted, but got no answer and woke up disappointed. Freaked out and seriously pissed that nothing so far worked agaisnt it.
I can't really remember the last time, which was a few months ago, but It didn't last long, I woke up stressed, but no real progress made in that one. Woke up quickly and freaked out, maybe I quit because I knew there was nothign to do.
Beside that, I've only had a few minor dreams which are almost not troubling enough to be called nightmare, like having a FA, looking to the right of my bed and seeing a little imp plotting agaisnt me (it got me a bit freaked out at first because I rarely get FAs, and this one seemed real.)
I've also had a cool action dream with a girl DC which seemed like my friend/partner during a mixed up adventure (which seemed to be the result of many games fused together).
After lots of strange thing, being attacked by a huge pack of easely squashable spiders monsters to say the least, we got separated and dream went into 3rd person view.
I saw the girl get stabbed in the leg with some sort of paralysing spear. The guy holding the spear looked at the girl with a grin, and I had the weird feeling he was going to rape her or something.
Back to me(my character), I went berserk and ran very fast through swamps and forest to save her. When I finally get to them, (just in time too), we are about to fight, but something disturbed my sleep I woke up disappointed (like a movie where you could not see the ending).
A more recent one seemd like a normal dream resembling real life, but it ended with me looking at a nearby town and seeing a bomber approacher.
A nuke falls down and a huge mushroom forms. As the explosion radius gets to me, I'm like, "So that's how it ends? How lame." Which made me laugh when I woke up.
And the only zombie dream I,ve had was actually a fun one, Killing zombies, what a delightful pleasure.
That's about it.
Now after I read through all those nightmares, It would be surprising not to have my recurring nightmare again.
This time I'll try not to wake up to and find a solution to this once and for all
I feel some lucidity might be required, but so far I was unable to force myself into LD, simply acquire a certain level of lucidity during a dream.
Wish me luck! (and a lot of willpower/imagination...)
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