Hey, why dont you close your eyes and say you'l be in a sweet meadow or at your school or something. Be confident . I dunno about your " big decision" but who knows... When you say the dream 'forms' around you, you might be thinking of that scenario. Like... " OMG ITS FORMING, i hope it isnt that under water one i have every 3 months... OMG my time is due!" lol, you might be causing it. So next time try to be like " It's going to be a castle or feild or something."