I've been having some pretty impactful dreams latley that all revolve around one thing... war.

I've never been to war or anything, (not even old enough.) I don't get it. The dreams are very emotionally straining, too.

I always end up shooting, people, too. Not in the over-the-top action scenes I make happen in some of my lucids, but more gritty, realistic skirmishes. It kind of messes with my psyche, but in the moment I know I can't care who I shoot.

I remember in one of the dreams, I had to get to a battle. The squad that I was a part of was going to be in a fight that I was left behind in. I tried as hard as I could to get back to my squad, even though I knew that they were miles away and that the col. gave me pardon not to enter the battle since I would have to go on foot and would be exhausted by the time I got there anyway.

But I tried to reach them anyway. At another time, (in the same basic dream,) I had to stand watch over this big garden thing in the yard of a country persons house. After waiting for a while, I saw a whoel squad of Japanese people enter the field. I was alone and ducked down under a plant, but one fo them saw me. I tried to shoot but my gun didn't work.

I turned to run, and they chased me. They could have shot me, but they wanted me alive or something. It doesn't have to make sense, I suppose. Anyway, I picked up this rock and threw it right at one of thier heads. It crashed down on one of thier temples and he dropped.

They caught up to me and I tried to brawl my way out but they knocked me to the ground and started kicking me and beating me and such... I vaguley recall my squad finally coming and chasing them off.

In the one that I had last night, I had been in a large battle. I remember a girl being involved. I think it started with me being in a normal life actually, but I couldn't say for sure. The only really clear vision was that of me on my knees weeping with an endless graveyard of headstones around me.

Why would I have dreams like this?I don't neccessarily want them to go away if they mean something, no matter how emotionally draining they are. But I want to comprehend. The feelings I get in them are to deep, gritty, and real to be just random dreams I think.