Dear absinthe,

In this dream you are hurting yourself. I can’t tell you exactly what you are doing to “hurt yourself” in real life. If you contemplate this, you can identify your self-injurious behavior(s). Be honest with yourself about behaviors you physically, mentally or spiritually exhibit intentionally and repeatedly that bring you personal anguish. Self destructive behaviors are not always visible behaviors like cutting, overdosing, and etc... See the final paragraph.....

The white is purity or a need for purity/healing/innocence. You were cleaning yourself or trying to remove something dirty or painful to your subconscious.

The act of someone being sucked into a hole or drain is the fear of “surrendering” or the fear of “losing”. I don’t know enough about you to apply this to your life, but you know the answer. It can be tangible or intangible, like the fear of losing oneself.

The unknown entity at the funeral podium told everyone nice things about you because you ARE a nice person (you sacrificially care for other people in some way). Sacrificial care can be invisible works. (You comfort friends/strangers frequently as opposed to you built an immense, brick, hospital for the indigent.)

The faceless person that doesn’t want you to die is either:
a spiritual entity (God/ His employee or something demonic) or
some part of yourself that has not manifested itself yet --the “future” you.

Why did you select the name absinthe? I’m asking because absinthe is a type of alcohol. Hmmm........self injuring nightmares......alcohol abuse is self injuring.......fall down tub drain nightmares.....losing yourself in alcohol?...losing your pain or losing someone else’s pain that you absorbed by getting drunk to forget it? Violent nightmares are a side effect of alcohol usage. Alcohol causes a decrease in REM sleep and when dc there is temporary REM rebound and nightmares. Are you worried about drinking too much?

Because I don’t know you, I feel the need to add this......Sometimes people absorb all the pain and suffering of their friends’ environments. These actions are usually done out of love but can be dangerous because you can overdose on suffering. If you are one of these people realize that you must take vacations from absorbing others’ pain ( a healthy vacation).

If you have personal pain, seek help from healthy people on how to recover or you will eventually “fall down the tub drain” and lose yourself. ( All of us know people that we dearly love but are unhealthy in which to receive good advice.)

Liz