Thread: childhood beleif? start of controll?

I have this memory of when i was like 4 or something wich is my first memory and i cant remember anything farther that but i remember this sooo clearly!

i just woke up and i thought to myself "god doesint controll me anymore!" and i could like i got all the information i learned before about god and stuff pumped into me and how to talk and stuff it kinda was like the butterfly affect but withought pain or nosebleed! it seemed stracge ...realy realy strange and i still didint forget it. its one of the brightest memories that i had? anyone experience anything like this as a child? i know it sounds weird cuz it is weird but from then i couuld like remember stuff that happened was my body/mind controled by my subcontience untill I reliesed i had controll? any one ever had like the first sign of controll? in your life? becouse it seemed something was controling be before that? and also weird in that room i woke up in i could remember almost every detail of the room but not other rooms.