 Originally Posted by Taosaur
See, I was saying what you said, but to you, like you said it, to you. See?
touché. I concede. but as far as the philosophy goes I am now completely on the fence.
 Originally Posted by Taosaur
Your position may be practiced with impressive convulsions of intellect, but it still demonstrates a failure of understanding, and brings ever greater internal and external pressures to bear upon those who pursue it. You're talking about economic and emotional cannibalism.
examples please? is it really a failure of understanding, or is it perfect understanding? how are you so sure? I still don't understand. I need examples, maybe. more input.
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
The fact of the matter is that we're not all exposed to the same shit. We may be introduced to the same concepts, but how significant is that, really? What differs is the extent to which we are made aware of the importance of these concepts. So many people don't understand how important knowledge is. The 'ride' of life is so much more enticing, because it's so much easier. If you can ride your way through life, without ever becoming aware of the joy (or importance) of driving...why would you ever want to drive?
You're speaking in retrospect, basically. You're speaking on the fulfillment you've attained from knowledge, but you're not speaking from a position that was never driven toward that fulfillment. There are so many people that don't understand the need for attaining such knowledge, so why should they be held accountable for not being on the same plane as others who see beyond their perspective, if they are simply unaware?
I see what you mean and I once thought the same thing. but now I'm seeing it both ways and it's driving me crazy. I still think everyone is perfectly capable of realizing that knowledge is important. life is rife with examples of just that. even if all you do is sit there and watch tv all day, the message is there, over and over. you know something, you avoid danger. you know this, you avoid loss. you know that, you avoid embarassment. reading is good. studying is important. college is necessary if you ever want to make something of yourself. as children, we're told over and over that books = good. read, read, read.
still...at the same time...I do see what you are saying. I can see how in a persons life, past experience, there may never be that one thing that just makes it "click" in their minds. it happened to me, whatever the reason. nature, nurture...who knows. maybe a mix of both.
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
Well, given your philosophy, how can you see yourself worthy of trust? Ever? If your philosophy is that it's excusable to take advantage of those too stupid to protect their assets, why would any cognizant person trust you? You're expressing (in no uncertain terms) that if you find someone unable to protect their own, you are likely to move in on them and take advantage. Such a person could never expect to find himself in a meaningful friendship or relationship, because you telegraph the idea that you will fuck them over, whenever most convenient for you.
you're absolutely right. thanks for explaining. I mean...it was pretty self-explanatory, I don't know why I couldn't see it.
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
I understand enough about Satan and Satanism to know that it's not really as it is portrayed. After all, Lucifer was simply an angel who was cast out because he refused to worship Adam simply on command. There are many animal instincts that I have no problem with advocating, but I'm just not the kind of person that condones stepping on the faces of other people just to get an elevated position.
the story of lucifer really, really bothers me. for one thing, it isn't even in the bible. I don't know where it came from or what the actual story even is, and trying to find it has been like trying to find a needle in a haystack. what REALLY bothers me though is that Lucifer is seen as the bad guy. it makes NO sense. if lucifer is blamed then EVERYTHING points to god being a cruel, evil, sadistic monster. I wrote an "essay" (it was poorly written for an essay, I admit, but I think the point was clear) on lucifer quite awhile back and posted it on here...do you remember it?
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
I'm not religious enough to look at Satanism any different than any other religion. I live by a person code of ethics, and it's good enough for me. I understand the types of things that I would feel would impede upon me, and I try not to impede upon others in the same respect.
satanism is not a religion but a philosophy. I'm sure any satanist would cringe at your calling it a religion. (though, of course, that does not mean that no satanist is religious about it, I know...) I still think that there is something to this philosophy. I think it is a better way of life. I think, if I would only embrace it, and live by it, I'd be a much better person. I feel strongly that if I were to put it into practice, I would:
-stop smoking, or cut way down.
-exercise more, and eat well. get myself in good, healthy shape.
-study and read more. a LOT more.
-practise things. master trades. work, and take care of myself (and the ones I love)
I feel that anyone who took the philosophy seriously and put it into practice would do the same, as these things are...not required, but highly encouraged (with the exception of mastering a trade, which is a requirement).
(I have to add here the disclaimer that I don't think it's necessary to be a satanist to improve yourself, just that I think it is an excellent means, as it is very strict on practise and improvement.)
furthermore, I don't think that satanism has a problem with helping others. if you become a master surgeon, and you choose to, say, correct cleft palates for people in third-world-countries, I don't think anything in satanism says that you cannot or should not do this instead of using your talent souly for personal gain. it says you should master a trade and enjoy your life, and if that is what makes you happy, then so be it.
the only thing is, I don't think satanism objects to using your talents to gain money and power at other peoples expense, and I'm not sure that I do either. they say basically that because there will never be a utopia, and things will never be perfect, it makes no difference which "side" you take, as long as YOU are happy. (then again...I'm pretty sure they don't believe in an afterlife, which makes sense. :\)
I don't know what to believe anymore. I used to share your viewpoint, quite passionately actually. I went through a healthy-eating phase, read Kevin Trudeau's Natural Cures "They" Don't Want You to Know About, and was absolutely outraged at all the suffering people endure at the hands of the pharmaceutical industry. I took it to the extreme in my mind, I actually wanted to open a non-profit restraunt that served only 100% organic and "pure" food (if such a thing is even possible...?). I wanted desperately to give out copies of his book, and educate people any way I could.
I don't know what happened. I think I became more outraged by the existence of stupidity, and came to the realization that we will never reach a utopia, that such an existence is antipathetical (or contradicting?) of itself, the idea is inherently flawed, impossible...and things will always be as they are. for every person I educate, another one somewhere else will be forever lost. enlightening one person essentially seals the fate for another. nothing will ever change, things will wax good and in turn wane bad. so it doesn't much matter what I or anyone else does. and looking at it this way, each of my act of taking advantage of someone, each "bad" act of mine, is a good act happening elsewhere. I caught part of a show once, I think it was law and order, the murderer said something like this: "You need me. I'm the un-you."
that really stuck in my mind, and I think I understand it now. it's true, it really is, whether you see it that way or not.
and which side you take I think really depends a lot on whether or not you believe in the afterlife. if you don't, or if there isn't, it doesn't matter at all, you really can do whatever you please with no (ultimate) consequence. personally, I believe that we all either live the same exact life over and over and over, or each have a turn being another person in the same exact world/existence, or are sent to a somewhat higher or lower level...same thing, or expounding upon the last thing I guess, except in this case it's either "here" or some other dimension. OR, everything is eventually completely destroyed (big crunch?) and starts over with something completely different (but essentially the same). I do not believe that we are sent to either an eternal perfect heaven or an eternal hell, because it doesn't make sense, and falls out of everything that existence is. there are no LINES. there is no line of salvation. there can't be, because the people right where the line divides would be so similar that it would be absolutely unfair...and I, at least, believe that everything is fair and perfectly balanced. well, I know it is. (also, think karma, I guess.)
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
That's a bit harsh. Their feelings might not be as layered, logical or substantial as yours, but that doesn't make them any less real.
I struggle with this. Cogito, ergo sum. I feel that if you do not think, you are not. (in a sense.) I'm not saying you have to think exactly as I do for me to consider you "real", necessarily, but in a way, I do, because the way I think is...I would call it "tabula rasa", which is latin for "blank slate". (I'm not talking about the philosophy of tabula rasa, just using the term.)
the way I think is this: I don't, until I'm faced with a specific situation/problem. do I think abortion is wrong? not until I know the facts about the specific situation. do I think incest is wrong? same thing. there are so many variables to everything, every problem, that I realize that what is true for one instance may be false in another. the truth is relative. in other words, I am completely open-minded. that is all I know. and I feel that only people who think like this, are worth anything at all, they are the only "real" people, the only people you can truely reach, connect with, human to human (or rather, spirit to spirit). anything else deserves death and destruction, in my eyes. or maybe, anything else IS IN ITSELF death and destruction.
 Originally Posted by Oneironaut
And Taosaur actually has a very good point. He did nothing more but turn the same principle you used back upon you. He insulted your intelligence by your inability to see the importance of compassion and cooperation, and expressed a justification in looking down his nose at you - to which, you got offended.
It displayed that you actually have a fundamental understanding of why your own, judgmental stance is so controversial, when it's used against you.
look...I am not a bad person. at least, I don't want to be. like I said, if I didn't care at all whether or not I was hurting people, I would not have made this thread. I think my initial post was not me saying "I think it's ok to step on people", but rather, "this is how things are, and I'm not outraged by it anymore. it just doesn't matter."
I see things for what they are. a bunch of little gray dots, that make up a giant gray dot, that in turn is a little gray dot within another bunch of little gray dots. nothing moves, nothing changes, nothing is. we are all "moving around" in absolute nothingness...you know why? because existence is a balance of order and chaos. a perfect split. and I'm quite sure that it will always be that way.
I don't know why I have this profound realization. it was bound to happen to someone someday to someone in evolution, and I am NOT saying I believe I'm the first. perhaps it was buddha? (I'm not trying to say I'm fully enlightened either, but maybe I am. +shrug+) you know, I just don't care. some people come to this point and kill themselves, some go on killing sprees, some land in mental institutions...well, that can't be true, oviously THOSE people weren't -quite- where I am. me, I lost all motivation. quit caring. quit my job (although that was actually in a manic phase, though I have not bothered to look for another since). do I feel this is "right"? hell no. I'm not stupid. I can see that the "right" thing for me to do would be to get a job, or go to college, and support myself. I just don't care at the moment, and I know that every day I wake up there is an equal chance that I will die, lose my mind, something great will fall in my lap, or I will suddenly feel extremely motivated...which is entirely possible, since I "suffer" (:|) from a perfectly fair case of manic depression. I say perfectly fair because it is not too extreme, not too mild. just right. I go through phases of euphoria, excitement, motivation, creativity and productivity, to phases of depression. I honestly believe I'm some kind of...special expression, a somehow "balanced" individual, some kind of higher intelligence, at the fringe of evolution, maybe. my viewpoint I've realized has provided me with a great sense of freedom, but at the same time, a feeling of imprisonment. I want desperately to meet others that think the way I do. and I think together we could probably do something good for the world, or just enrich ourselves. doesn't matter either way. yeah...I think I'm special. I have a god complex (and a devil complex?). I think I'm simultaneously god and satan. and I'm ok with that...I realize it doesn't mean anything, in the end. it sounds egotistical to say, sure. but I really don't believe I'm necessarily better than others. I just am, and they just are. I just know that nothing matters. do visit my thread about Morla, if you haven't.
(that was a long, ridiculous, probably redundant rant, sorry. I want you to know that I really appreciate your time and replies, and you've helped me organize my thoughts. I've finally come to realize, YET AGAIN, what I knew all along...nothing matters. everything is the same. I just start caring too much sometimes, and get caught up in arguments and trying to decide what is "right", forgetting that all arguments are futile, meaningless, and what is right has already been decided, long ago.)
I'm not sure that there is anything more I can say, or anything more anyone could say to me to change my mind. I think I've said it all. but, if you (or anyone else?) feels they have something to say or would like to refute anything I've said, I will read. and I'd LIKE that very much.
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