why is it so hard:
she lies shes crazy shes a slut in disguise greedy selfish
shes hot i like to sex her i like her company when i get lonely
this means:

Dont think of her as your gf. she is only a friend with bens. you have no obligation to her and only hang with her when
your bored or want sex. she can sleep over but you gotta realize that shes not a good person and you dont want to
be with her. You cant break up with her because you dont want her to move on so fast. she already found someone
else and you cant stand that. Maybe you will hook up with tiff this week and then end her because you always get
the girl you want. You just want to keep her around until you find someone better and then you can dump the *****
because she deserves nothing better. I know the one love philosophy but damn... I cant with her. I despise her.

why dont I want her to move on so fast. I get jealous. Not very much though... Its more like.. how can you move on
so fast after ME. I am god I am the best she can get. She tells me she is still in love with me and she hasnt
moved on. Shes just lonely. She has a crush though. Is likeing someone not moving on? I really like tiffany. I
already hooked up with her but thats because I don't love this her anymore. I would love to break her heart. What
does that say about me? What does that say about how I feel about her? Why is it so complicated? As of now I feel
very little pain. I was angry yesterday because she lied to me about hanging out with that guy.
Why would I be so angry if I did not care.