Originally Posted by Ailos
I have to disagree with you, and I think many others would.
I have rapid-cycling bipolar disorder, a self-diagnosis, but I'm fairly certain its correct (though I do tend to dislike labeling), and have "chosen" many a-time to "stop" being depressed, and get over it. It works for a bit, and I get back to my happy, cheery self. Invariably, however, I end up crashing back down to depression. It's not something I choose to do, it just happens.
the problem with the word depression today, is that it has become so generalized. confusing the situation
there is a reason why we have the term, bipolar disorder. because its not exactly the same as depression
a depressed person can meet a bipolar and think "woooow, what a total freak!", and the bipolar can think "looooser!" they can be that different.
bi - two - duo. it gets its name because you can expect to have happy and depressed episodes
I have bipolars in my family. I had a manic bipolar person as a boss. the worst bipolar case I have ever seen. and she, helped me see something, that was in all the bipolars in my family.
the depressed people play the blame game, mostly blaming them self. what game did I see bipolars play. . . .they contradict themselves and appear as hypocrites. in their low mood they say one thing, in their high mood they contradict it completely and say another. they contradict themselves whether they are in night or day. I had to quit my job because of my boss. Everyone who quit, quit because of her. It got to the point, she was just known as the hypocritical bitch. I tried not to have any ill emotions for her, because really she was ill - and does not realize how much she contradicts herself depending on which mood swing she was in. And if another boss made her realize how hypocritical she was being, she would go home crying.
She was an extreme case, but that made it easier to see the mental state of a bipolar. And that helped me begin to see it in my family members who were bipolar. And, that was important for me, because my moods are not like theirs. I am known for not having swings. Not unless I'm about to start my period. So all the mood swinging in the household, had me up the wall confused.
the hypocrisy in my boss helped me to see the dual nature of the bipolars in my life. not just mood swings, but in the things they do and say. and I kept this in my mind, so that I did not hate my family members when they 'lied' to me, because then I can understand how when they were having a manic episode I can expect they were going to contradict their actions. and tomorrow when the episode goes away, like magic, in their mind its like it never happened. The lie never happened.
science will give you little reasons as to why, bipolars have a night and day.
I am spiritual, I believe in the ego, and I believe in the soul.
for a normal depressed person, the ego issue they are holding onto is normally - guilt. this guilt can make them hate them self, and even add to more guilt that they hate them self, and just leads to a spiral of self destruction which for many has led to suicide.
for bipolars, I think the situation is a little more complicated. and only more complicated in that I feel the problem is even more spiritual and might have to ask you to even believe first - that you have a soul - and two - in reincarnation
there is a concept that your psyche, or soul, can be split. or fragmented. you can imagine pieces of your soul, being torn, and forgotten. people meditate sometimes to experience the wholeness of their being in real time.
but a fragmented person in a way is not whole. they are missing pieces of their soul - memories. without them they remain severely unbalanced.
the depressed person will play bad memories, over and over and over and over and over again in their mind. why, why, why, why, why. endless search for answers they might never find.
the soul fragmented person doesn't play these memories over and over again. because they don't remember them. what ever happened, was so traumatizing, the soul dropped this memory. this created a fragment, a split in the being. and overall, an unbalance that can only be resolved in one way.
by remembering
some of these traumatic memories may have occurred in a past life time. and require a more intense meditation. spiritual techniques are needed to retrieve these memories. to remember. in this way the healing process can begin.
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