Disappearing

[Yohie]

So, I think I understand the pattern of a WILD. There is also no problem with the fine line between falling asleep and conciousness, I keep it by sensing my finger against the blanket, it hurts a bit when tense. Fast breathing or tingling do no harm to me but there is one fear I can never face - the fear of disappearing completely. It comes when I stop feeling my body slowly, and when it feels like I am changing shape or spinnig. I always see the night sky in this state - in a great depth. And the less I feel my body, the more I feel like the depth is me. I try to visualise some place I know well but I always just panic. I try to tell myself that this is not dying but I've got that terrible questions - What if I go too far? What if I'll cross the edge? What if there's no coming back? Please help me I need to understad this fear and get through it. Lucid dreaming may really help me in some way so I'll appreciate any advice.