to be honest, when i first saw the wild attempt stuff i thought it was very farfetched and would never work
so tonight i just decided to lie down face up and see what happened to the sensations of my feet and hands as i lay still
and OMG

about 5 minutes later, i felt numb
then i realised i could do something with this so i focused on the back of my eyelids, focusing on one spot (where my nose would be) which usually makes me dizzy
i started vibrating and my eyes were vibrating too
i wasn't scared it felt SO cool
some major problems though(which are outlined later)
but i swallowed and opened my eyes, and as soon as i closed them i went back into sp
i did this a couple of times, till it died down
this was really unbelievable for me


now for the problems
1. as i lay breathing, i can feel the sensation of my shirt against my stomach, and my quilt against it too. i've tried to remove both from my stomach, but i can still feel the sensations on my back as i breathe.
plus, at this point, i'm breathing so heavy and my heart's beating fast that it's impossible to not feel my real body

2. my eyes don't shut. especially when i let them vibrate on their own they open wide automatically and the vibration dies. i find myself struggling to keep my eyes shut, which defies relaxation.

3. it's hard to breathe, and i have to take deep breaths. probably because my heart is beating so fast

4. i can't see any hypnagogic imagery. i am not PULLED into any dreams, nor do i hear voices or see people

when my eyes opened i was hoping it was an FA, because i was prepared for this. but it's not.

the weird thing is, i wasn't fully paralysed. my face was quite sensational as was my stomach. i find myself scrunching my eyes without being aware of it, which must contribute to my facial sensations

and it is my bedtime now... i didn't actually wake up and start another rem cycle.



anyway i just wanted to say thanks to all those people who made threads about doing WILD. i would not have ever experienced this without you.
i hope with time i will get better but i at least have that confidence now