Thread: It keeps finding me

I thought I beat it.
I thought I finally won.
It isn't gone. It's still here. Keeping me trapped in my dreams.

It places what I assume is it's hands on my head and pulls me in.
It's grasp is tight. I'm still awake... I can see everything around me but, I can't move. If I close my eye's I'm in the dream. I close them and I'm there. No sleeping involved.
It's just a shadow, a dark presence that follows me through. It kills them...
I can hear them hit the ground with a splat, bones crack and shatter. I can see the
mangled faces and open skulls. I hear them screaming in pain if they have not died
on contact. Children run around unsure where to go. I saved them... I told them where to go, where to hide. I felt as if they where mine and I needed to save them.
I stand in the middle of the dirt road and turn around. It's behind me chasing them.
I screamed at it.. "They are mine.. You can't have them" It left. I saved them I stood up to it. It left..I won... I thought.

I closed my eye's....
The movie playing scared me. I beg to have it turned off. No-one will turn it off.
I walk to the kitchen and stop.
They are all dressed in white. Walking into my kitchen through the back door with emotionless faces... Falling into line when they think they belong folding themselves into boxes... human boxes.. they don't scream or even blink... one by one they come in all folding themselves into boxes... 19 men and women in my kitchen. I can see every face. There is a nurse I assume in the left back corner. She asked me not to step on them. I tip toed around them into the bathroom... Once I walk out the bathroom and tip toe my way around them to get back to the living room.. I turn around and all the people start screaming. Agony and pain, scared they look like they have no idea why they are in my kitchen. The screaming is killing me. I don't know what to do. I tried to run away but, I feel it again holding my head. The nurse in the corner is screaming at me. Telling me to help them.. begging me to please help them.. I can't help them they are human boxes. The bones are broken and they are a pile of mush. I don't understand how they are alive. The neck bones are sticking out, the arms are wrapped around them the legs come above and around their heads. Eyes are bleeding but they still see me. I see them. Perfect human boxes all sitting in a pole of blood.. their blood. Screaming still screaming. I know I am asleep...
I start screaming... "let me go. let me go." I'm trying so hard to wake up. I know it's a dream but, it's still holding me. I start crying and pulling away from myself. The bodies start to melt and their screams get louder filling with more pain. I'm begging for it let me go. I beg the nurse to help me but she helps the bodies melting trying to comfort them like this is normal. I'm screaming... I'm crying and all of a sudden I wake up...
I looked at the clock... that all happen in 43 minutes... 43 minutes is all i was laying down... I was crying and screaming as I awoke..

It hurts me while I sleep.. I can feel it's touch.. I awake with bruises and in pain..
I don't know what it is but, it has found me again and the dreams are getting worse and its grasp is getting tighter...



This is a journal page from a poetry site i write on.. I normally can control my dreams. I know that I am dreaming and sometimes I'm not sleeping but my body is. I can normally control my dreams, think in my dreams, make choices in my dreams, talk in my dreams. I can do anything I would do in real life. They feel real and I can remember every dream I have. The people in them, where I was, what they have said to me, any details. If I saw the people my dreams in real life I would know it was them. I have lost control and they getting bad. Something keeps me in my dreams now and follows me. I feel the touch just like if you touch me. I need help. I call it IT cause it has no gender i can feel. I'm new to this site so i could have posted this in the wrong spot. I would appercaite any help on this matter. A friend has told me I have shadow people following me but i have looked into shadow people and my experience doesn't really fall into that. I have always been into dreams and normally have control and the one teaching me about my dreams does not have an answer for me. Please help me.