Nef's dream journal

Bad or near to zero recall, 5 failed WILD attempts, deep sleep.
I really should RC more, so i can increase the chance of success . But then , I don't want to have an unstable DILD , dild never went good for me. I want to have a WILD , finally a lucid dream where i was lucid from the very beginning so it may be more stable , and would take more time , before I wake up.
Plus I need to find that dreamguide of mine, tried many times and failed to find it. I wonder if I have one? Or I have to create one myself?
Next week exams will be over so after I've done with them, I hope I'll have some LD's with the feel of relief.