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interesting

So fucking annoyed

The annoyance hardly gets to me anymore, but it's there, strong.

My mother said 'we're' to move closer to the casino where she wants me to get a job when i can try for the next interview. Now that i've stopped selling drugs to survive, people who have relied on me ask questions as i borrow from friends

i told her i didn't want to, she said i had no choice, she's discussed it with my brother already.
i said i'm moving out, the reality is i have nowhere to go and barely anything

not suicidal. i want to move to america, at least for a little while. as long as i could. to fulfil a dream of meeting many of you in june.
i won't sell drugs again. i met a girl recently, ashley, she is so strung out on drugs that she shakes hard with difficulty when trying to roll a cigarette.

i cannot move with them again, family. my father tries to phone me, sometimes wants to talk about my run-ins with the police, how i shouldn't have to deal with this stuff, lecture, tells me to get a good job.

no options. very quiet, will not help my mother anymore, i love so much but hurts to help her.

dreamviews people such a big part of my life, more than i'll say. dv ventures have occupied suicidal spaces for years, ever since thailand when my grandfather died. i haven't moved on, it still blocked in my mind, but i feel to cry.

don't know how i'll do this.
my mother just came in and asked me to do designs for her
i said it's going to take me many hours and that i'm not even going to be paid for it, told her i'd do it tonight and to just leave me alone
frustrated beyond words. crying and angry, any plans are fucking hopeless.

I'm so sorry you have to go through that sort of undeserved pressure and carry such a big responsibility.
You're such a strong person. <3
I'm wishing as hard as I can that relief comes for you soon.

And know that you're always welcome in America.
*bear hug*

another bloodyantastical day

i wish you could hear the music i hear. to describe it seems like cheating a goodness.
i wish to be great. to have an impact of awe upon the millions of people that almost entirely line, wall to wall, this earth.

i wish to leave such a mark that people could not, even if they wished, to forget me.

i want to take from others what is not anybody's to take or have. money, goods, life.



i have an interesting set of knowledge. i possess an interesting power, an interesting determinative control.
interesting interesting interesting cloud. egoistically, though these feelings and words are far away from what i really am. they have a space, a distance from me; and i have a distance from me.



i wonder what a /killer/ feels like before his first killing. does he feel like this?
i recognise reality with an ease, simplicity and clarity. my body surprisingly relaxed, naturally, until i force a move.



do you know how easy it is to die without a crutch for the mind. at least it feels like death.
jake, are you afraid to thin into nothingness.
do you know.



i seek the comfort of normality

dv abides

Hi =].

Naki
I've missed you. =D

I feel like I've known you forever Devir. Still feels weird to say I love you.
You are a good friend.
You are nice. We should meet like this more often.

Also, sister-in-law is in labour right now. Hurr

happy birthday to your niece-esque-thing
and also to you

Fuck me.

cloud you are retarded