Thread: It is

Today has been another of a few.

It has swept through me. As many do now.

I hang limp from lack. Words don't formulate efficiently.

I cannot, I will not.

Am I to look back upon this and see another?

Will this be another causality of war - this division. This ego. My.

The madness. The oppression. I am god and these are my hands. Feel them as they hang to my side.

I have again considered suicide. It seems a constant thought for my presence.
A cloud, the wind continuing to push.

What am I now? Just a thought, an expression. This violence. This graphic punctuation.

Hide and seek.

Today held a slow desperation - in mind telling that I should stop. Stop the motion and bask in the irrelevance.

At times it did slow to an unrecognisable pace.
Though, I was - I think I was on reflection.

At now, it is the familiar repetition. The constant change.

Anything can happen.

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I, Ego.

Delete these fucking posts.

All of them. The thousands of piles of egotistical bullshit. Fucking pervade the irrelevance.

What is she doing again?

Pah asking again.

Looking in his eyes, the eyes. Innocence?
Scared? Confused? More, the baby looks.

Crying, why is she crying? Why why why why why

Your life is fucking terrible, your baby is a burden to you, your husband is an arrogant meat head and you are sitting on a train looking like a lost fucking child. Pick yourself up and jump in front of the train as it leaves.

Feeling a hilarity of craziness, click click click click. Get her minding off of that.

You're sitting on a plateau Jake CloudD.

Trains trains, the immobility of mobility.
Look, the same speed and the same passengers, but a different again.
The walls are melting, more graphic design by the master.

HAHAHAH MASTER.

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Close your eyes, just do it. Watch them through closed lids, cookie hand in the cookie jar. Lights up as the mouth opens, glaring eyes! RAWWRRR

Close the book.

Repetition, I wouldn't rap nono. Not in transit.
Never because rap is for the parappa rappers.

You've created a monster and Eminem is no longer the one pushing it harder and stronger, he's got white teeth except just one, he's like a pirate-eating man - like a ninja chewing on gum, banned from Australia except I've never liked men geisha, eating on cum.
Fuck off Phillips, go screw yourself.

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Ugh, you're mud. Scum on her boot.

Interesting. Keep it coming.

I would sit in silence, worshipping, as existence, the place - the space, between this.

All that is - tangibility, between waterfalls. Coming, going.

The swinging of that Buddha necklace around the chest, dragging down the risen heart, tapping against.

I am laughing inside, hilariousness of the notion of understanding, that it is not understanding - that it is not to be understand, that I am talking to you, just you without expectation but laughter at it, at that notion.

What would be better?

Buddha is as sickening as this, as sickening as piss and shit and semen and death, and life.

Those words are dead the moment they leave me, vented.
No words have ever reached to what I have ever meant, what that may be.

Drop don't drop drop don't drop.
Not knowing.
Not concerned.

What do you suggest other than what is?
I am not looking to find.

Everybody is running after something. Nobody knows what it is, but people are chasing, they are chasing with great speed. They go on speeding and finding more ways of how to chase 'it'. Nobody knows what 'it' is exactly, but nobody is too bothered.

They'll never get there either.

On a sidenote, every time I see this thread's title I think of South Park. One of the early episodes where Mr. Garrison is going to kill Kathy Lee Gifford. He says "It is... too late for me, young Wendy."

Originally Posted by ClouD

here is where i spam to keep my 5+ daily post

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if you're seeing this, you should just laugh out loud and go away :3

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Actually, I wonder if I can get that count higher. I might post in here more often.

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Like every day.

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I mean who's going to notice?

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Possibly you if you're looking, but you shouldn't be anyway.

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If you are, it'd be best to stay quiet!

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I mean, I might post naked pictures in here, so don't read any further, and don't come back!

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I think I'll take it to "2345" today.

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What do you think?

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I think, Jake, that you should stop wasting your time on something you don't give a shit about.

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Oh fuck off, as if I care about your opinion anyway.

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I am the only opinion.

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This is the only opinion.

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I'm sorry, Jake.

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I love you.

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There's no-one but...

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hush

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this

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so i'm thinking to myself, how the fuck did i get 29 views and less posts?

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maybe i've lost it

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maybe i've viewed this thread and not posted?

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i'm not so sure anymore, and it's 2:22am

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on the 2nd page

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ten posts will do it i suppose

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i remember once, pj lowered my posts because i'd posted a lot within a few minutes.

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apparently, even though they were good, quality posts, i was still spamming

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i'm sorry jake

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it's a long and winding journey and nothing can be said not even to myself

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there is just me, there is no other...

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talking to nothing, but nothing is talking

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and nothing is listening...

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tonight i may die.

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spamming test

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let's see if i can get 70 posts in a single run

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for the sake of speed, this may be rushed

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but what if i were to start counting, cloud?

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would that be too much over the line?

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yes jake, you'll find it probably is

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heck, i don't even know if there's a line these days

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it's alllll going down the shitter and killing time is just for quitters

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does anyone even fucking notice?

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i'd be surprised if they did, cloud

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it's not rocket science.

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checking threads is difficult

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plus they said they wouldn't do it, remember?

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they lie all the time

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so do you

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i am careful with what i say, though. i wouldn't want balhwabglajbwgawg

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shut the fuck up or make some sense

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i thought this was just to kill time

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try killing yourself

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why...

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why not?

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how fallacious

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maybe just 5 more

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yes, just to 2456

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meh just do it cloud

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fine, i will until i don't

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hesitation to the nation

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the freight train stopped, i had to clear the station

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i pulled out my semi and gunned down the azns

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it's time for arabs to start invading

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like mars attacks with lasers

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what happened there, nigger

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did you lose some sight, after thoughts oflajwflajwg

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hell no, i'm the no go, locked down clud faggot from g-town

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that's g for vagina

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did i tell you i mine vaginas?

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was with this girl named tina

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gave her a pina colada...

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bravo you no show, no going pojo eww shota lol gay

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but hey, jake will be cloud these days

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i truly wonder what world's asunder

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i plunder girls and boys together with thunder

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reaching deep into their bits and their jazz

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in and out until i jizz in their ass

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instabonah

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homey you a loner you aint got no need for a bonah

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that's what she said.

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what i told her.

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City Hunter.
Hunting the city, I am. Watch it Sydfags, CluD on the prowl.

Really though if you see me stay the fuck away or I'll disembowel you with my hair.

In sooner than later news, soon calls that um movie wolveriney slasher.
About one subjective hour, fucking moonshiners. Never minding.

Anyway, update on the universe wants me to say there's people around, can't talk now, not about that thing.

Wonder oh wonder funny mister Sam.

Don't smoke and post, kids.

Originally Posted by Kiza

Don't smoke and post, kids.

A friendly face in the sea of faeces.

Originally Posted by ClouD

City Hunter.
Hunting the city, I am. Watch it Sydfags, CluD on the prowl.

Really though if you see me stay the fuck away or I'll disembowel you with my hair.

In sooner than later news, soon calls that um movie wolveriney slasher.
About one subjective hour, fucking moonshiners. Never minding.

Anyway, update on the universe wants me to say there's people around, can't talk now, not about that thing.

Wonder oh wonder funny mister Sam.

You're amazing. :>
everything

I told her, what could I even tell her.

Pivotal meeting between worlds, between .

I get it now, I get it now. It can't even be gotten but that's not what I get, not grasped between sandy toes and my childish play thingalings.

Hah. Har.

Hardy har.

Back.

Originally Posted by ClouD

Back.

Would you like some tea with that hilarity?

Hilarity says she's fine, but Obanana would love some tea if it comes with you.

He smiled as if there was something worth smiling about. I had heard right through the wall what had just happened in the next room and he knew it. Divorce talk, plans, things I didn’t want to ever try not to listen to. I smiled back.

I was avoiding it again, and so was he. Maybe he knew how much I would be hurt, probably most out of all of them…out of all of us. Where would I go? What would I really do alone in a place like this; a place where people are so whimsically cruel in rocking my boat of comfort and shelter, my ark and my home and my heart, solely for their selfish pseudo ideals. I want it to stop, why can’t they stop speaking, stop thinking, stressing, just shut the fuck up and love each other in silence.

Maybe that’s it, love needs anger. Love needs passion and sorrow. This humanly conditional love is tearing me apart. I love them on these conditions, these selfish pseudo ideals. The hypocrite that I am, I would have them stay together for me because all that I am seems only a reflection of these people, life existing only in and for their/our/my togetherness.

I want to die without killing myself. And I want to be pushed into such desperation that I am forced to confront Jake. My aching head deliberately pushed up against the bed post; I really want nothing more than this, nothing more than what I take for granted.

Brother mugged: -2000 dollars
Father leaving: -1 person
Mother upset: -1 person
Sister is a hating bitch: -1 person
Sister-in-law wants to leave: -2 people
Workplace management change: -1 friend, -2 relationships
Tax not yet filed because of management change: -x00 dollars

Will update as necessary.

Lol