I can't make it past the illusion of suffocating!  Also how long is that supposed to last?
it's not so much a matter of how long it will last, but rather what you do, psychologically, to overcome it. it's not enough to just know intellectually that it's an illusion if your body is still frightened. practice by putting yourself in the state where you start to feel like your breathing is all wacky, and then try to feel yourself breathing without controlling your breaths. if you can successfully 'watch' your breathing without interfering, try to keep relaxing into the SP feelings while doing this. the ultimate goal is totally convince yourself that you are in fact breathing even though it doesn't seem like it...after all, it's what you do every single night.
I was wondering if you know why this happened?
it's pretty common when your body is in sleep paralysis, that if you try to speak it'll sound like mumbling. i think it's somewhat unusual to be sitting up though.
I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong but, I lay down and I start to concentrate on my breathing and i just let my body sink and when it goes all numb I do feel sensations but very little, no vibrations or anything though. I keep swallowing though, I cant help it.. I do try to resist it but sometimes it feels like i swallow on accident. Would that be a distraction?
After my body is all relaxed am I supposed to concentrate on my breathing and just rest like I'm trying to fall asleep?
Basically what I need to know is what to do after my body is numb? I'm not sure if i'm in full SP either, but i try not to really concentrate on that.
it is a safe bet that any bodily feelings you have while doing this are not what you think they are. for instance, it is common to feel like your heart is pounding, or about to explode; or for it to feel like the air you are breathing has the same consistency as molasses; or that there is an uncomfortable build up of saliva in your throat....(incidentally, these feelings tend coincide with the traditional locations of the chakras) the best possible thing you can do in any of these situations is relax--don't ignore the sensation, and don't become obsessed with it...simply feel it and move on with the process. i know it is easier said than done, but that's why this requires the hard work.
when your body feels numb, it means that you are in at least a light trance, but you'll notice that if you try to move a limb, you can easily do so. when SP occurs, it will not be possible to move your body. you may in some cases feel two bodies, one that is paralyzed and one that is kind of floating in the same spot as your physical body. it's hard to describe exactly what will happen, because the sensations are different for everyone. the biggest thing to remember is that you want your body to fall asleep--it won't be possible if you are over-analyzing everything that you are feeling. you have to work on the concentration exercises so that you can anchor yourself to the objective without getting caught up in the strange sensations.
and so, here is my daily exercise regimen:
1. stretching: you can do it however you want, but i start by standing up and beginning at the top of my body--neck, shoulders, arms, chest, back, abs, obliques, hips, hamstrings. i sit down to continue stretching my groin, quads, gluts, calfs, feet.
2. sit comfortably: i use my couch because it has a nice solid back and an ottoman upon which i can put my feet. i usually rest my hands on my thighs, but it's just a matter of finding a comfortable position in which you are not used to falling asleep.
3. concentration practice: i choose one of two types that i have gotten accustomed to--breath awareness and spot awareness. the former consists of attempting to pay attention only to the feeling of breath in my nostrils--i don't follow it into my body. i try to pay attention to the sensation of the air passing by the tiny hairs in my nose, and the outer rim of my nostrils. i try to notice everything about it i possibly can. the latter consists of choosing a mark on the wall in front of me that i will focus all of my attention upon. it's important to keep a soft focus and not strain your eyes. if i find my eyes wandering, i reset them. i try to envision the spot at which i'm staring as if it took up my entire field of vision. i do only one of these exercises in each session, and i typically choose based on what seems less boring to me at the time. i always choose an amount of time that i will be doing this beforehand, and absolutely must stick to it. i set a timer and do not stop until it goes off. if you feel bored or can't concentrate at all anymore, do not stop--you must train your will power. i started with ten minutes, and am now doing twenty minutes.
4: body awareness: without having moved from the original position i begin moving my awareness throughout my body. i begin with one foot and move it up through my leg to my waist, and then begin at the other foot and repeat. i then move up from my pelvis (avoid genitalia or you may end up too distracted to continue) through my abdominal region, through my chest to the base of my neck. i then start with one hand and move up through my arm to the shoulder and switch to the other hand and repeat. i then move up through my neck, face and to the top of my head. from here there are countless exercises you can make up yourself and do--i spend about thirty minutes on the body awareness section. (in case it's unclear, what i mean by moving awareness, is to attempt move all of your attention into a single part of your body. for example, i would attempt to feel and be conscious only of what my left thumb is feeling. i would try, in a way, to become embodied in my thumb, focusing my awareness to the total exclusion of all else. the breath awareness is a good prelude to this, because it is the kind of focus you need [although i find the body awareness to be a hundred times easier, and more enjoyable]).
5. trance: this portion can be done on its own. i usually combine all of them because it is most convenient for my schedule, and because the previous exercises have already put my body in a relaxed state. however, this particular exercise is very unpredictable in terms of length of duration. if you are doing this one separate from the others, you need to stretch beforehand, do about ten minutes of breath awareness, and then go through one sweep of body awareness focusing on relaxing each part of your body into which you move your awareness. if you are doing all of these at once, you can just jump right in--in the same comfortable position on the couch (note: i have kept my eyes open until this exercise. if you find yourself using your eyes to follow your body awareness exercise, you should close them for that. you don't want to handicap yourself with visual cues) i try to 'let go' of the feelings of my physical body. the easiest way i can do this, is by imagining the same sensation of floating you might have if you were in a pool holding your breath floating face down like you're dead. (i find, actually, that a lot of the feelings i use to do this are the ones i associate with dying in a dream) this exercise is tricky for a few reasons. the first is that if you're doing it right, your mind is going to want to fall asleep with your body. this means that you will probably start experiencing all sorts of hypnotic hypnagogic imagery that will distract you from your purpose and possibly cause you to fall asleep. it may also mean that you will notice this, and then forcefully fight back to maintain consciousness. this will stop you from moving beyond the stage that you are in. the more you do this exercise, the easier and faster you will enter trance states. there is a huge continuum of level of trance and you will become aware of how deeply you go into it. i do not time this exercise, but decide rather arbitrarily when it will end. if i notice that i have dozed off and suddenly "jerked" awake, i will usually call it quits because i am too tired mentally to continue, and will just continue to fall asleep. i do not do this exercise when i could fall asleep, or i probably will. it's kind of misleading to call it exercise, since it's sort of the reverse, but what i try to get out of it is a familiarity with moving into the state of being in which i don't feel my physical body, and instead feel what will become my dream body. it is this second body that you will have to direct to exit your physical body, and i have the most difficulty with it. if i am not physically relaxed enough, when i try to separate the two bodies, i will begin to tense muscles and that makes it impossible to continue. i then usually will have to start the cycle over.
exercises 1-4 should be done at least once a day at a time when you are fully awake. i like to do them after i wake up in the morning, as i tend to get up quite early, thanks to dream recall/dream awareness. exercise 5 can be done as often as you like, and can be used as actual WILD attempts. a few additional pieces of advice--i describe some of the sensations that i encounter while doing this, but it's not a good idea to think about this procedure in terms of what you WILL encounter. it's different for everyone, and focusing on your expectations of the goal will result in failure. relax in the moment and don't worry about whether you're doing it right or not. if you are relaxed and lucid, that's enough. another good tip for increasing your powers of concentration--act at all times as if though you are in a dream (not that you could be dreaming, but that you actually are) and must remain lucid. try to avoid falling into the autopilot mode we live most of our lives in, and actually be aware of everything you are doing--be aware of your body and how it is moving, of your environment around you, and try to avoid the incessant monologues we use to maintain our version of reality. the more aware you become of yourself and your environment, the more aware you will be while dreaming, which will boost your dream recall and your ability to accidentally become lucid. it will also make it easier to feel your dream body while awake and stop your internal monologue while in trance.
if any of this is unclear, or you want further explanation, i am happy to help as always.
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