I'm left-handed and I need (I get angry otherwise) music. I rarely dance to it, but rather have this odd thing I do, and I can't just stop doing it. Whenever I'm listening to music, I have a strong imagination ever since years and years ago, maybe since like 5 or 6 years old (16 years old now). I go to school listening to music using my Zune HD, then in homeroom (before lunch, 15 minutes long) I play a game called Audiosurf Tilt that goes according to the beat of song. I continue playing the game after I’m done with eating lunch. On the way home, I listen to music. Whenever I come home, I listen to music but I stand next to my bed and rub my hands (not together, but the thumb against my other 4 fingers and sometimes just the index finger and other times the thumb between the four fingers, I do it to both hands) and somehow it increases the intensity but I have to do that, I also make sounds in my mouth. I do it for imagination, it makes it so much stronger and I will act people out many times too.

They do this sort of in Avatar, and I started to wonder if it is done in meditation and if that meditation would help me lucid dream. I want to use it for advantage. It is a bad habit right now, if something excites me, like something I read in ETWOLD, I have to stand up and do that, it somehow fuels me. Like I’m doing it right now, though this time, I rub my four fingers on the palm of my hand and will sometimes make a clap sound. It is an odd habit but I really want to use it for advantage because many times I really don’t know I’m doing it but the outcome is great as it fuels me more than anything does.

I’ve done similar things when I was younger, but it is a bad habit and my mom doesn’t understand it, I told her once but she doesn’t know really. If some meditation does it though, I could do it really good because I do it without thinking; it’s an automatic function for me. It intensifies my imagination and the character’s acts.