Hello. My personal beliefs tend to circumscribe what I'm capable of experiencing. For that reason I try not to hold beliefs more strongly than my experience justifies. I don't think in terms of 'God', because that idea doesn't seem to fit my experiences very well. My inner world is more fragmented than that, and the things I interact with in dreams seem to be more at the level of benevolent angels than God.
The first 'lucid' dreams that I had were a series of nightmares when I was a small child. From one standpoint, a person could say that these were created by a 'demon'. But from another standpoint, it was my own hatred being shown to me in a way that I could grasp more easily. Seeing that, my perception of the 'spirit' that inspired the dreams changed.
Though I am not a Christan, I do feel that there is a reality behind the name of Christ that's unique to Christianity, and that its closely related to what Christians believe it to be. This has actually been an area of difficulty for me, because I'm repulsed by certain more superficial aspects of Christian teaching, which I will never accept, but there's something behind it that I need and must reconcile myself with anyway.
I also believe in something like a biblical 'fall', though I don't place that fall in the historic past. I see that not understanding how to reconcile the myth of the fall with what is known scientifically about history is a problem for people. However, understanding how to reconcile the two opens the door to something like magic, and people have enough trouble already managing things like modern physics and money, so maybe its just as well. In any case, my desire to reform myself, and to do my part in the redemption of our world, ties in strongly most of my dreaming. I think of redemption as a matter of transformation, so that we become actually good in our hearts. We're damned in the sense that we've become contorted and limited, not in the sense that God has petty rules that he wants to enforce. It seems to me that to the extent that a person glimpses how far we have fallen, in contrast with what is possible, the only options are to hide or seek redemption.
A lot of my thoughts and feelings about these things come from dreams, and of course there's an interrelated cycle with my waking thought and experience also. I don't see an essential difference between the 'muse' that creates my dreams and the one that creates my daytime experiences.
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