Thanks for a very insightful reply. While I am fascinated about the idea of AP, I honestly can't tell if I have ever had this particular experience, as it is described. Maybe some variation of it. I have definitely dreamed about it though, as noted above. I believe your point of subconscious taking back control to be true, simply for the fact that our whole body is being controlled this way every waking and sleeping moment. From basic breathing, to whatever happens deep in the mind.
Interesting point about a conflict in my dream. I myself did notice the contrast between Egypt and island the way you did. Next morning, I smiled and told myself: "It probably means I need take more action to bring a certain change in my life".
I honestly know nothing of Anima, but I sure will read about it, to get acquainted with the concept. What I can tell you, are some of the other dreams, where I have met this woman. In all of those dreams, I would become lucid early in the dream, usually after some kind of transition in the story. All dreams with the woman felt more or less romantic. I will try to describe dreams shorter.
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#1. The castle of two souls
Outside, it's a dark night, bright full moon hanging in the sky. I lived in a big castle, in some ancient times. I was not a king or prince, but some nobleman. Servants worked all throughout, family members did their own things (none of the people seemed to be from real life). I climb one of the towers and enter my room (at this point, I become lucid). Took a moment to understand what is going on, check my surroundings and then let the story continue. Apparently, once there was a girl. We were deeply in love. However, now she was dead. And therefore, I was sad every day. In my room, I am alone. Soon, as if from nowhere, the girl I loved appears in front of me, in a spirit form. Apparently, that specific night was special (like in real life have moon eclipses a few times a year, this night in dream was something similar), something that happens once in about 10 years. Because of the moon, that specific night, she was able to enter physical world, though in her spirit form. I was joyful to see her again. We talked all night. I asked if she could stay, and she told me that as once the first ray of morning sun rises, she will disappear until another such night, in next ~10 years. Knowing that, I got an idea. Though I don't know why I was sure it would work. Just before the sun rising, we hugged. Naturally, we could not actually touch each other, but we still hugged. We told each other we love one another. We smiled. Closed our eyes. And deep in my mind I said: "I want to exchange my life for hers, so that she could live once more". As we opened our eyes, she was ready to see me for the last time. And she did. Only, now she was in physical form, actually alive and I was now dead, a spirit. I smiled and as the sun rose in my dream, I woke up in real life.
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#2. The red letter in train station
It was a western town, think of cowboys in the old days. Bright day, lively town. I did not see many cowboys per se, most people were common folk, dressed appropriately to the time. There were some activities I did in town - not important. As I entered a big, really big train station, I became lucid. Train station was spectacular, had two levels, high curved glass ceilings. I see a girl in the crowd. She wears a beautiful red dress, it seems like she knows me, but I do not know her. I just have some unspoken attraction to her. She goes further and it seems, wants me to follow. I believe we are supposed to catch a train. As I move through the crowd, she climbs the stairs that lead to second level, where trains are waiting. As I am catching up to her, she reaches out her hand to me. I am a little too far away. I have a strong feeling that we are running out of time and she has to tell me something important. She feels that too and it seems we won't reach the train in time. I catch up to her completely and she gives me a red paper, folded note/letter. Whatever important thing she has to say, is on there. Unfortunately, we run out of time and just before I can open the note, I wake up in real life.
- As I read recently, apparently, in dreams people can't really read things. I wonder if that was the case here, although I did not even open the note yet.
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#3. The lighthouse, stuck in time
Dream starts with me alone, in a wooden boat. It's a dark night, full moon. I am swimming in a swamp, surrounded by thick forests. I am all alone. In the center of the swamp, stands an ancient, long-abandoned, crooked lighthouse. As there is nowhere else for me to go, I swim to the entrance. Big metal doors are hard to open. I see that inside is completely dark and empty. Complete silence surrounds me. The moment I enter inside, (I become lucid) I see the most amazing thing. A masquerade ball. I realize, that I am still inside the lighthouse. I look behind myself - the doors are completely gone, it's now just a wall. Since I know I am dreaming, I don't get scared about it. I am standing in a massive round hall, unproportionally big for the lighthouse I saw from outside, on a white shiny marble floor, with gold ornaments. There are lot of candles hanging around on massive chandeliers, it is very bright. There are windows, high on the walls, it looks like it's night outside, but other than that, I can't tell anything. The most amazing music plays all over, but I can not see where it is coming from. People are dancing. They are smiling, happy. They are wearing fancy clothes, from middle ages. Every person has a mask on. The more I look at them, the more mesmerized I become. I look down at myself, and now I too am wearing fancy old clothes. I touch my face and I can feel a masquerade mask on. I step towards the dancing crowd and I too begin to dance. I am in a complete trance. I am joyful, I am happy, I don't want this to ever stop. I feel like what is happening here, inside, is stuck in time. An eternal masquerade ball. For a brief moment, I raise my eyes towards massive steps, leading to second floor. On top, stand the same girl I dreamed of before. Here, she is again in a red dress, she too has a mask on. The moment I see her, it feels like the spell breaks and I snap out of trance. Who is she? I need to talk to her. I need some answers. I feel like she has them. I feel like she knows me. I come to a second floor, I see corridors leading to both sides and I don't know where to go. Some guests are mingling around. A group of small children, also in masks, run past me. One small boy takes my hand and leads me somewhere. "Come! I will take you to her. She is waiting". He leads me to a room. I enter. It looks like big bedroom, very rich in fine cloths, a lot of pillows, everything around is elegant, rich. And I see the woman in red dress. She tells me to take off my mask, she takes off hers. I remember looking deep in her blue eyes, but today I could not describe her face exactly. It feels like we know one another, we finally met again. We kissed. She gives me a golden envelope and walks out of the room. Apparently I am supposed to read it. There is something important. And although she has not said it, I feel like I know a promise has been given that we shall meet again. However, before I can open the letter, I wake up in real life.
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#4. This might be unrelated. Not exactly a dream. Just that one morning I woke up, as if remembering the name: Sofia. It feels like her name. But other than that, I have nothing.
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These are the times I remember vividly. If there were any more, I do not remember. Speaking of astral projections, I do have a fun memory of me and 2 friends, as kids, sitting in the garden on sunny day. We had just read a story about astral projection in some book of mysterious events around the world. And we decided to try and do it. Sitting in lotus position, on the grass, trying to meditate and imagining how we leave our bodies. We sat there for about half our. One friend fell asleep, fell down and woke up. Another was constantly checking what others are doing. And I was just fantasizing the whole time of how cool it would be to fly around. Fun times.
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