squirrelly

both dreams took place in the same house-maze. this is a new maze i dont think ive seen before.

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I am looking to a story below over a small balcony and see Y standing in an unfurnished area. It is much darker down there so I cant make out too many details, he appears faceless. He motions for me to follow him and although i am afraid, i find myself following him against my will. he walks backwards while leading me through a dark, empty, windowless hall. I notice that he is actually faceless. It gets darker and eventually I lose him, but I keep walking forward. now it gets slightly brighter, just enough for me to see him sitting on a long couch facing forward. I sit next to him and give him a hug.

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I am getting checked into an insane asylum prison. the head nurse says that at least i am "well formed" and not like the others.

I was chaperoning the kids I work with on a field trip to an ancient Korean colony in western Asia. I can only remember hazy snippets of the map, one of the kids asking me something on the plane, and us looking around at the interesting landscape and architecture.

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While there I found Y and he told me he was sorry for abandoning me, that he wants to make things right, and asked me to take him home. Next, we were in a taxi to the airport and I gave him a hug.

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My mom wanted me to teach her to sing Ponta de Areia, but she kept getting the words wrong.

.............. I think I came out of somewhere cramped.

Me and Y were watching a movie. The room we were in seemed sci-fi: white walls and strange futuristic-looking structures. At the corner, A was waiting for the movie to finish so she could take Y away. she was wearing funeral (or executioner) clothes: all-black robes with a veil before her face. She wanted her face covered because she was too embarrassed to be seen knowing what she was about to do. She hid her knife in the folds of her robes. Y was sitting on a seat diagonally left and a little bit ahead of mine with a blanket. He was wearing all white. As we were watching the movie (I forgot what it was about. it was a comedy involving sci-fi + financials), I was incredibly anxious and sad about him being taken away soon. I couldnt pay attention to the movie and started daydreaming:

Me and Y were standing together on a boat on a calm ocean. He was wearing the same all-white as in the above^^^. The ferry was modern and empty and we were standing at the front. The sky was cloudy and grim. We were sailing toward a city with a harbor (not the one from previous dreams; this city is dirty and ugly, not wonderful like the city of the masks). As we approach the harbor, I become more grief-stricken since I know I will have to hand Y over to his death. As we get closer, I see A in her black robes and veil waiting on the harbor. Once we land and dock the boat, Y rushes out to her and I can't move. As he runs, he becomes a child. A holds out her hand while hiding the knife in the other and leads child Y behind a building. Then I see blood flowing from around the corner.

Once this daydream finished, I saw the movie had ended. However, it was on a loop so it began playing immediately after: a shot of the New York skyline with a spaceship flying over and a title. I stood up a little to see Y had fallen asleep. He woke up and saw that the movie was only just beginning. He was confused since he thought he slept through the whole movie. I lied, and told him he fell asleep for just a minute and the movie was just starting. He really wanted to leave with A, but I convinced him to please just finish the movie with me.

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I was with Y and we were about to go to sleep. He looks at my legs and talks about how they are too thin and it is not attractive. Then he says that despite this, they are too wide and thick and I should probably lose weight. Then he says that they are too small and I should lift heavier weights, but after he says not too much weight since they are already so huge that I look too masculine and I could stand to lose some weight. etc etc etc.

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completely new places in these latest new dreams. Maybe a new mental framework is being created. Also, no nightmares of Y for the first time since it happened.
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I was trying to find my way through a labyrinth. The structure was house-like (not like the other labyrinths I usually encounter, this one was grimy and dirty and had an oppressive evil energy) and I had the feeling that I was being followed by a hostile person. I don't remember much of the rooms, but eventually I got to a living room/kitchen area that seemed normal and less evil. I could see the street outside from the window. The room had only 3 walls and was open to the outdoors since it was under renovation: I saw a middle aged lady and 2 or 3 others around scaffolding and carpentry tools. I got happy to finally escape the maze and ran up to greet them, but once they saw me they looked disgusted and annoyed. She said "really? you drag mud through our entire house?". I turn around and see a trail of muddy footprints all over the floor. She tells me to go back in there and grab a mop to clean the whole place up. I go back through the labyrinth and feel just as much evil and hostility.

(this house exists irl, it is near my workplace and is always under renovation)

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I come out of the labyrinth into a long room with computers all over the right wall. There are small groups of people huddled around a few of the computers looking excited. As I walk across the long room, I notice they are doing the same competition I am. Excited, I get on one of the computers to check the leaderboard. 2 of the others come up to me and ask who I am on the leaderboard. "I'm squirrelly" "I haven't seen you in previous years. is this your first time competing? i'm tveety and this is ipnerds" I am very excited since these two are at the top of the leaderboard. I tell them this is actually my first competition and they seem impressed and hope to see me at finals.

As I was getting out of work, I realized I wouldn't have a car to go to school with. although my school is a 5 hour walk away, I figure that if I walk fast or even run, I may be able to get there in time for my 6 oclock class. A mile past my workplace, I realize I have been walking in the wrong direction and start getting very anxious now. I wont make it to my class and I wont get my attendance grade. The public transport here is very unreliable, but I decide it is the only way i can make it in time. The street up until now has been very realistic to its real-life counterpart, but as I walk to the "bus station" (which doesnt exist irl) the streets become more run-down with the grass being taller and unmowed and a lot more undeveloped plots. They start reminding me more of the rural streets in Korea. An entrance through a broken chain link fence opens the way to the bus stop, which is an old roman-looking amphitheater-like structure in ruins. There are about 50-70 people sitting quietly throughout the structure waiting for the bus. enough people to keep the bus stop from being comfortably empty, but too little to label as crowded. We were all waiting for our bus to show up in the center, almost like a character in a play. I think I sit next to somebody near the bottom few rows and try to make conversation, but my dream recall suffers here.

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I am chaperoning a field trip, and the kids are running out from the building we just exited. They are running onto the wide road and playing around in the middle of the road. There are no cars on the road and it is abnormally wide, about the width of a highway. On the other side of the street I see buildings which are like the ones on main streets of small Texas towns. I get so afraid and stressed out. I yell out to them to get back on the sidewalk. They don't listen to me, but my boss yells to them to get in line on the sidewalk. They immediately comply, but i find myself at the back of the line as a child now too. We go back into the building we had just exited and are made to walk in a long line until we are shown a video on a laptop. I dont remember the video but it was something about learning to be more feminine. We continue walking in line towards what I assume would be another video, but I wake up before this happens.

very little recall here...

I was being held hostage by this woman in her house. I was myself as a child. There were at least 2 other children being held there with me. The lady was choking me and I almost fainted, but then one of the other kids started crying and yelling for help in another room so she ran off to stop him and left me alone. I was having a bit of trouble walking since my head was a bit messed up from the choking. The other girl I was being held hostage with opened the front door of the lady's house but said I should wait until we can plan a real escape. I don't care so I start trying to run out of there. I get out of the door and try to look for somebody to ask for help or something to hide behind since I know the lady won't be far behind me. The street outside of her house gives me the same feeling as the street next to the elementary school I went to irl. I begin to run but I feel something at my feet. This wakes me up, it was my cat trying to get warm.

I have been having a hard time sleeping since something terrible has happened to me. This is the first I have had a dream in a while. Interestingly, my dreams prior to this happening predicted it... maybe I knew this would happen subconsciously. I don't really believe in coincidences.

...memory dream about one of the hikes I had gone on with my husband in Korea. We had been hiking up the mountain for a while and we took a break to share one of the Kimbap (a seaweed/rice roll with eggs/kimchi/ham/anything in the center) that I had cooked for us. Very happy memory.
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"memory" that could have taken place in another life, or maybe in the future. NSFW but we are poking fun and making jokes about the situation that is happening to me right now (as if it has been over for a long time). He looks slightly different, maybe a bit older or with a different haircut.

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Me and my husband are sitting together watching a little girl in front of us play the flute.

We (?) were at a grocery store when we heard the sound of planes overhead. everyone at the store suddenly stopped where they were and just gave eachother looks of worry. i looked up toward the cieling and saw the sound of the planes led to it cracking and releasing a bit of debris, but it was still not collapsing. The rumbling got louder until i huddled on the ground and heard a huge explosion. i saw a flash of light and was dead.

I was a student at a large university, but I was a bit of a loser and this was apparently known to everybody on campus. This university was at the forefront of climate change research. The architecture was large-scale and fatalist, but mixed with certain organic additions. The school's president issued a warning that we all needed to make our way to the underground shelter immediately and bring with us any food or water we could find. .... I was running along with my classmates down this ~20ft wide spiral staircase. although the steps were normally sized, the overall structure was very large. my classmates were all taller than me. As we ran, we heard announcements through the loudspeakers telling us to bring water. I entered the shelter (i was one of the last to enter) through a square opeining and was greeted by a straight set of stairs leading downwards into the dark. On the left, there were tables built into the walls as far down as i could see and each sat 2 students looking downwards. each of them had a plate in front of them of brussels sprouts (?) and carrots diced. most of them were obese. the table closest to the opeining was free, but i didnt know if i was allowed to take that seat as it may hve been reserved. I was told by the girls seated below it that the seats were not taken. The school's president was giving a speech about how this meal of brussels sprouts and carrots was all that survived from the cafeteria, and we would not have any more food to eat. I went to sit down and I got the feeling that I would have a revelation.

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I was on a roller coaster. it was going through a tunnel and other roller coasters were coming onto the track from different directions but did not crash.

I was chaperoning a school field trip with my husband where the kids went to observe a prison.
The prison guards escorted the kids and us to an upstairs viewing area behind chain link fence with barbed wire on top. the kids sat down in front of the fence and were observing the prisoners while my husband found a spot to peek through as well. The kids were having a good time and talking and pointing, but they were unusually well behaved. Even though the viewing area was ~ 12-15 feet off the ground, we were on the same level as some of the prisoner's heads since they were abnormally tall. The guard begins to give a speech, but the dream changes....

me and my husband are at the jail's waiting area/loby alone. We are sitting together on a bench. the area is in an open air patio with entrances to the prison on our left and right. In front of us are some vending machines with a large oak tree providing canopy. I begin to see an hotel room out of my left eye as if im slowly opeing my eye while sleeping.
This makes me think im dreaming. the rest of the dream switches to the hotel room scenario where i am laying down in a bed and have the familiar tingly feeling of being semi-paralyzed. i think to myself 'since im already awake, i should try AP once again'. I do the rocking technique, but something very strnge happens. Just like I was seeing the image of the hotel room out of my left eye as if i was opening it, I began to see the image of my room since I had begun to open my real eyes. So I was seeing the dream and my actual room superimposed on eachother. In the dream and irl i began to sit up and leave my body laying down. the dream faded, but as soon as I was done sitting up, my astral body slingshotted back into my physical body

After this, I felt like my physical body was not calibrated with my astral body: I felt about half a milimeter further ahead than my physical body, and the tingling sensation remained in the back of my head. The feeling is gone now that i have written this, though my head still feels a bit tingly.

I had been in this area in prior dreams. escher-esque architecture + maze of pointless rooms; plain light concrete walls + no view of the outdoors. and yet, soft light coming from nowhere.

Me and my husband were going to our room, but some federal agents came out of a disguised opening on the ground. They were wearing dark trenchcoats, sunglasses, and a poker face. the opening was square and incredibly dark to the point where i could barely make out the set of stairs leading downwards. me and my husband went down the opening, but the dream perspective stayed above the surface so idk what went on down there. A federal agent escorted me out of the opening, but my husband stayed inside. The federal agents disguised the opening again and i went off to my room to sleep.i got into my room which was a smallish room with floor, walls, cieling being made of the same light concrete as the rest of the dream structure with a bed on the wall opposite the door i entered from. i began to get suspicious of the agents and the suspicion soon became fear. I ran through another door and kept running through empty rooms. Soon I heard the agents crashing through trying to find me. As i continued running through the maze of rooms, the rooms became darker and more house-like. I got to an empty room with a small door near the floor which when opened revealed an old chimney. I climbed inside the chimney opening and found a crevice where i could hide half of my body. luckily there was a lot of clutter and debris in the chimney, so i covered the part of my body left exposed with the debris. A federal agent opened the door to the chimney opening, but thought that i was just clutter. So i successfully hid from the agents.

I am with a few of my friends. It is nighttime and the moon is very bright which along with lanterns and streetlamps helps illuminate the setting. We are at a harbor. while very crowded and energetic during the day, is quiet at this time of night. it consists of at least 7 wooden stories of piers which are meant to accomodate enormous ships and small vessels alike. you can get around by climbing stairs and ladders between the stories. the piers are also directly connected to a vast labyrinth of shops and restaurants (mostly seafood). [I had the feeling I had been to this city in a dream from months prior. me and my husband had gone sightseeing and were looking for a museum which held the city's famous masks, ut we stayed on the surface level and were there during the day] Me and my friends are on one of the upper stories when we see a white and yellow [like the white and yellow from a previous dream] tiger which begins to chase us. we run to the lowest level while the tiger-demon shapeshifts to chase us down ladders and stairs. EVentually I lose sight of it and make my way very quietly down to the small boat to meet up with my friends again. we are all there and we begin loading onto the small wooden boat.

I was in bed with my husband and I was telling him about my twin sister who is an actress. The room looked just like our room irl. my twin played catwoman in the latest batman movie. [the perspective shifts to 3rd person of the movie im explaining] I was explaining to him that I am worried she is into some very evil things since if you look closely at the frames in the movie you can see some weird messages hidden. The perspective zooms in on one of the perfume bottles in catwoman's vanity titled 'I eat little babies'. It was housed in a very luxurious crystal bottle whith the lettering done in cursive gold imprint. The bottle was among many others on a glass shelf. She finishes getting ready for a gala that she and batman are attending. She is wearing a beautiful flowing gown but she still has her cat woman mask on. The gala is hosted in a large rococco ballroom and is quite crowded. they climb up some stairs which are supposed to contain some occult symbolism but I forgot what it was. [perspective shifts back to me explaining this to my husband] I am worried that the batman actor is leading my sister in a very dark direction. After I tell him this he is stone-faced which makes me worry that he is in on it too. He looms over me and grabs my side very painfully which wakes me up.

[i fall back asleep] .....

realize im dreaming and the dream falls into a white mist. I try materializing something by yelling out 'Dream, give me more clarity' and 'Dream, bring me my twin from the previous dream'. a somewhat human form appears but it is very hazy. I end up losing lucidity eventually.

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I am at work as a teaching assistant in the dream. The school is large with a modern, open floorplan. The classroom has a beautiful design where one wall is full of windows to the park outside, the opposite side is open to the hallway, and the cieling has a curved '~' shape. The kid's tables are arranged around a shelf where the kids can grab materials like paper scissors etc. I dont remember the situation too well. I wanted to grab one of the covers to a CD case since I needed it for something and I assumed it would be fine since the teacher had told me i can grab anything from the shelf. As i go to grab the case the teacher yells out 'No! do not take my cd cases!' ....... I am in the front office ready to clock out but one of the front office girls is having trouble applying to something using a PDF application. I tell her that she should be able to apply online using the school district's wesite. They have a 'jobs' page where you just have to fill your info in online. I tell her that is how i applied to my job and one of the older office ladies says she did the same.

Im not sure which dream came first chronologically.

Lucid- I dont remember what the dream plot was before getting lucid, but i was on a long and wide garden path during a sunny day and there were children running around playing. The main path was long (i couldnt see the end) with lots of smaller tributary paths at even intervals with square patches where flowers grew to chest-height. the hand-size stones that made up the paths were also square. I think I was playing a game with the children + i was my male twin. I didnt do a RC, i just noticed i was dreaming. Once i realized this, I looked around for something to explore and one of the kids started chasing me (in good fun). I ran but focused on the feelings of running-the ground beneath me, the wind flying past, etc to strengthen the dream. This worked ! but then my cat woke me up or the alarm rang idk.

...opened the door for my cat and then tried to sleep a bit more before my alarm rang....

non-lucid - dont remember much about this one but it seemed significant and was (sort of) about the book im reading. I was my male twin again. I think i was playing a game gone sour between me and 'my feminine' vs another person and their opposite (i dont remember if i was playing against the man or woman). The significant thing was that the longer 'my feminine' stayed with my opponent, the more she was turned against me. I remember her changing colors from my black and blue to my oppontnt's white and yellow (or the other way around idk). She didnt look like me so I wonder who she was supposed to represent.

I was in charge of moving a middle school class to a room on the 3rd floor with my coworker. we put the kids in a line behind each of us so that there were 2 even lines of kids. We walked through the hall fine, but when we got to the stairs, the bell rang and the halls became very crowded. Now it was difficult to see all the kids, and some of them started moving very fast ahead of me and my coworker. I walked faster to catch up with the kids who went ahead while my coworker stayed behind with the slower ones. These kids were moving extremely fast. the halls died down eventually and we all got to the same place. My coworker started scolding the fast kids for intentionally walking faster than us and not staying in the line. He said he could see their footprints on the ground (I couldnt, it was tile) and their stride length was far greater than that of a 6 foot tall person.

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After work, me and my coworker meet my husband at a restaurant. We are in Korea. There are no other customers at the place. Even though I can read Korean, the server brings me an English menu. It is very difficult to understand. the food entries dont have descriptions underneath and have un-intuitive names and most didnt have any pictures, so im reading the menu for a while to try to undserstand. from what i remember there was a tray with some banchans but no rice, a tray with a boiled carrot rectange and a slice of spam, and some other unappetizing options. The server comes by and asks for our order but I say Im not sure what to order since the menu doesnt make sense. my husband, coworker, and the server point to a tiny poster on the wall with a diagram of 4 squares labeled 1-4 and some arrows. the server says first you pick a meat, then vegetables, then rice or noodles and then cooking method. With this new info, i try looking at the menu again, but it still doesnt make sense.

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Im at an hotel with my husband and taking a shower. the shower looks very dirty and grimy. something about this gave me dejavu so I did the nose plug check. For some reason, i couldnt breathe through my nose in this dream, so that convinced me i was irl. I looked at the grime of the shower and determined it had to be real since it was so detailed. Then i looked around the room and the architecture didn't look strange, so i was completely convinced this was not a dream.

I was a high school student walking past a gas station with "cage"-like cots surrounding the outside. I was remembering that this school year we can take a camping field trip and will get to stay in these cots. Im thinking about getting to sleep near my crush, Blonde Girl.

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I am Blonde Girl and am checking myself into an insane asylum. Im thinking its a bit of a shame since this year I would have gotten to take the camping field trip, but this is more important. when I show up it looks like the dorm building I dreamt about on 12/15. ....... Im in a room to the right of the entrance with a group of girls (5-6 of them) around my age + the headmistress of the asylum. The girls look 'inbred' as in they have distorted and somewhat ugly facial features but not terribly so, and they have hick accents. The headmistress is beautiful but scary. she looks like the crazy russian lady from Zoolander (the movie i watched before having this dream). We were having a conversation to get to know eachother since we were going to be a group therapy group together, but then one girl mentioned her girlfriend or something. The other girls started agreeing with eachother that they were all incredibly homophobic and didnt like gay people. This freaked me out since in the dream I was bisexual. I wanted to let the gay girl know later that we could stick together. I was beginning to question by decision to check myself in here.

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we are at the insane asylum lobby and the headmistress tells us to make two lines with all the other kids (co-ed group with different age kids from 6-18 ish). I try getting in one of them but its chaotic and the other kids push me out. I get in the right lane and I see its full of little kids so i think im in the wrong lane. I move back into the left lane but there is an infinite number of kids getting in the left lane. The headmistress says we are all so lazy for picking the left lane, since the right lane will do the dishes. in our line we walk toward the elevator. I start thinking 'damn i was going to go on a diet but if i do that here theyll think im anorexic'.

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This part is a bit NSFW

The headmistress of the insane asylum (russian lady from zoolander) and natalie portman are involved in a pornographic shoot (but in the dream it is funny). they are both clothed (natalie portman in her star wars outfit and the russian lady in the zoolander outfit) with NP wearing a comically long strap-on. RL says something like 'ive been so crazy punish me' and NP tries inserting the strap on but its so long that its flaccid. They lift of their shirts a little bit and say something like 'Yeah we are still skinny'.

I dont remember too much from tonight. here are the fragments I remember.

I was in an auditorium style classroom built in the architectural style of Frank Lloyd Wright. There were large slanting windows as walls to the left and right, as well as a glass ceiling. In front of us was the professor explaining something about time dilation or time manipulation (I cant remember too clearly). The classroom was a time manipulating room. As the professor was explaining this, the stars visible outside through the glass began to streak through the sky like in long exposure photographs. We were either moving through or outside of time.

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I was at the same school as the fragment above, but after class in the daylight. Me and a group of other people were walking along the top of a wall (or maybe it was just a thin path). I was ahead since I think I wanted to show them something. We may have been following another group who was much further ahead. I turn back to look at the group and see, to my horror, there was a luminescent purple mark hovering a few inches above the path I had just walked across. The mark was circular, about 5 inches in diameter, with either an X or some other mark in the center (I cant remember too well). In the dream, I had seen this before which made me realize I was in a time loop. I fell outside of time into some kind of void.

...Not sure if fragment above led to fragment below since there is a lapse in memory between the 2, though the transition would make sense...

I fell into the 'void' (A place I have been before during meditation and AP, but never during a dream.) and out of the haze saw scary demon faces materialize. They looked like Aztec Quetzalcoatl depictions or maybe like Japanese masks, but its hard to tell since they were so hazy. I demanded to see the one in my psyche trying to scare me and then saw a figure materialize in the distance and walk toward me. I felt no fear during this, but im sure I would have if i was lucid. I dont remember anything after this.


I don't remember what brought on the 'lucidity', but I would assume it was DILD. Though it is strange that I dont remember the moment at which I became lucid, or if I was lucid at all.