LucidDreamer09

NORMAL | DREAMING POTENTIAL FOR REALITY CHECK

I've been going to bed pretty late at around 1:30-2:30am recently in the holidays, and awaking at about 11:30am. Last night, I attempted to get my sleep routine back to normal as lay ins make me too lazy during the day! I went to bed at 11:30, only to find that I could not sleep at all! Eventually fell asleep at about 1:15am (earlier than usual so whatever ) and awoke at 11am, to the following dream.

I was in my local church, where I used to take part in drama groups. However, the hall I was sat in was actually the hall I used to sit in for assembly at secondary school. I was sat with a group of friends in rows of about 10 on standard plastic school chairs. The lighting was dark, however the stage lights brightened it up to the extent where I couldn't really guess what time of day it was. There were mainly kids on stage. Someone I know, Ryan. E appeared on stage. Most people burst into applause as he was our friend, however Kelly. H, his current girlfriend, strangely started booing him as if they had broken up. She was sat next to Tom. R, her real life ex, as if they were going out again. I think I'd had a few alcoholic beverages, and I had a half pint of beer in my hand, and I started booing Ryan along with Kelly, trying to get other people to join in as if it was really funny. The regulars in the church who I used to do the drama class with started getting upset and annoyed with me. I can't remember what they were saying, but they were all suggesting that I had drank too much, especially considering everyone else was completely sober. My friend Lottie, who is a regular, was getting frustrated with me and seemed embarrassed. I didn't feel like I'd done much wrong, but felt myself blushing. I apologized to everyone for "being a dickhead", explaining that I didn't realize what I was doing was offensive in anyway, but was ever so sorry if I caused offense. Jamie, Lottie's brother, stopped the performance, and started it from the start again, as "Calum was acting like a total tit" . I became angry, frustrated and humiliated by their arrogance, and kept imagining how amazing it would be to just leave the building at the end without saying goodbye to anyone, but remaining absolutely silent for the rest of the performance to spite them. I started to feel better and calm down, and began reading the church menu, which i'm pretty sure doesn't exist. It sold alcohol, cigarettes, and other taxed goods. The cigarettes were tax-free, and it only cost £2 for a pack of twenty! I wanted to tell Tom, who despite being in front of me earlier was now sat to the right of me.

I had commented on my Music Technology teacher's band video on youtube. I had some sort of vision, instead of watching the video the dream was the video, and I saw someone drumming nicely. The video was dark red. I commented saying "FUCKING INCREDIBLE", and my Music Technology teacher Rob 'liked' my comment! Then I read it and saw it say Jaspers Revival and realized that was his band! I think he then sent me a message telling me he'd have to block me due to teacher relationships with students, which I expected.

Suddenly, I was actually in Music Tech at college. The classroom was very similar to my actual class, but something wasn't right. It was lighter than usual, and I was sat at a computer where Rob's computer normally is. Rob was showing me sample kit downloads you can get on Newgrounds. The website that Newgrounds linked to was white with blue links. I zoned out a bit, but realized I had already downloaded these sample packs at home and told him this. He realized and stopped talking. In the top right hand corner of the Newgrounds page where it has the username, I think his username was "WorldDestroyer" xD But then I checked back at it, and it was just a string of numbers and letters

Now I needed a cigarette, and it was some sort of strange day like an open day or the air brick days we used to have in secondary school. Rob wasn't in the class currently, so I thought it'd be safe to walk over to the pen and have a fag. I think I saw Ryan, Will, Tom and Charlotte briefly who persuaded me to come for the fag. I don't know why I didn't follow them, as I turned right somewhere and walked down a very dark, spooky corridor. There were 2 steps going slightly downhill, and as I approached them I saw Rob walking up them, which was awkward. I reminded Rob that we had a 10 minute break (don't think we did) and asked if I could go for a cigarette. He said no! Annoyed but thinking of going for one anyway, I continued walking in the same direction, and ended up in a weird little assembly hall. The tables were green in the shape of frogs, and the room was big and dark. I remember thinking that this is the assembly hall that I don't personally use. However in reality I don't use any assembly hall

So last night I went to be quite late for a college night (11:30ish) and woke up at 7:15ish, and whenever I do this I seem to have pretty crappy recall

On the plus side, it's been a lovely summers day today here in England! I've been sticking to my one fag a day, which is proving much nicer. I hated being addicted to smoking! I'm aware many people probably would say that if I'm having 1 fag a day then what is the point in not fully giving up, but I disagree personally! To me it's like a coffee :-)

I started my second year of college today, which was pretty good! I have a new, amazing philosophy teacher who has proved very helpful already, and I'm doing an extended project qualification on Buddhism which will be fun too!

Last night, my friend showed me a wonderful video on spirits and chakra, and it's changed my life. Generally, I'm a very happy guy at the moment - it feels strange being this happy after so long of being down!

Tonight, I'm going to set my alarm for 5 hours after I go to bed, as that's proved pretty successful for consistent lucids recently!

Much love to you all, stay happy and love everything!

Calum xx

Dreaming was quite odd for me last night. I dreamed quite a lot and the dreams were vivid, but for some reason when I woke up from them, I couldn't be bothered to write them down which is frustrating! Oh well
I still remember some bits though luckily

I was at a house party somewhere in a town. It wasn't really far away, but it was still a good 30 or so miles - one of these parties that you're invited to but don't really know anyone going. I remember thinking the area looked like Winchester. Me and some friends who I don't remember were walking along a long downhill road, looking for a turning to find the persons house. When my friend gave the instructions the area suddenly seemed like the town I live in, near a church by Pizza Hut and Tesco. The turning they gave to me was the same turning to get into a garden park in real life. It was a cloudy, dull day but I think it was pretty warm. We turned left down the path, which was more like a driveway with pillars and walls on either side of it. The driveway was bumpy with stones as opposed to concrete, as the real life one is. We were told to keep walking until we reached a brick wall, where you could turn right then immediately another left to get to a certain shop. I can't remember what shop this was, but it was some sort of male clothing shop, like Burton, Topman, Republic, Brother2Brother or something.

When we reached this shop (which was black), I don't really remember a section of the dream. Suddenly, I was at a party. I was definitely shown the start of the party in the dream, but because I didn't write it down I don't remember it. It was a massive, massive party, in a huge mansion of some rich girl. I was trying hard to not drink too much alcohol, because I always do that and end up not being able to get with any girls, which is generally my primary goal Also, I was one of the only boys there. I think the hostess must have been at a single-sex college, as there was a huge amount of posh girls there and very few boys, the only boys being posh too. I felt like I was at an advantage with the girls as I have dreadlocks and although I dressed up smart-casual, I probably came across as very unique in the environment.

One of the parts of the party that I remember was lying in a large four-poster bed. I was on the bed with a very posh, dark haired and incredibly petite girl. Looking back on it, it would seem that she was only 14 or so which is pretty weird as I'm 17, but I think she just looked young. I was trying to get with her, as we were both lying parallel closely on the bed. However I just couldn't do it, she was being very difficult and proved that some of the girls were put off by my lower class.

Another moment I remember was being in some sort of dining room, and seeing a petite girl with huge breasts in very revealing black lingerie. She had her boobs hanging out from the top of her bra for a joke, and everyone was complimenting her on her sexiness and confidence. I saw this happening and thought the party was pretty damn crazy.

I don't remember much else of what happened at the party. The next thing I really remember is going to Sainsbury's by myself to get some food or something. I don't remember the journey there, just suddenly being there. It must have been quite late as this definitely occurred after the events I saw at the party, yet despite being indoors it still felt sunny outside. I don't remember buying anything - just walking out from one of the aisles towards the cashier, with a cigarette in my hand. I was heading towards the exit via the cashiers, and I bumped into my friend Latham's parents. Mick, his Dad, smokes and I didn't recognize him at the start, but he saw me with my dreads, holding a cigarette, and when I realized who it was I panicked and ignored him, walking away quickly. I lit the fag at some point when I was out, and saw them again, again embarrassed.

I then suddenly appeared at the same position I was in when I was first travelling to the house, by Tesco and Pizza Hut. I'd forgotten how to get to the house, but by retracing my steps I managed to find my way back to the clothes shop. I was now suddenly in the garden of the house. I'm pretty sure on my walk from Sainsbury's to here it had been sunset again like it was at the start, but it was suddenly dark again I'm not too sure if I got the order of the events correct as they don't make much sense. In the garden, I was trying to roll a cigarette. Some strange things happened now. The first was that I was trying to put the tobacco into my rizzla, but the tobacco was just a fine white powder, and quite a lot of it too. There was probably only about 7 rollies left but I was very confused. Without really thinking about it, I put it in my rizzla anyway. I noticed my best mate Ryan. B being there, and I asked him what the white stuff was. He told me it was something to do with white starch or something being filtered out when you roll a cigarette. Whatever he said made little sense as it'd never happened before! It was now that I realized I was putting the tobacco into a king skin sized rizzla! This confused me, and I then realized that it wasn't a king skin. It was about 8 skins stuck together vertically, making it look huge!! I tried to yank them out, and a massive rectangle containing about 15 rizzlas vertically and about 50 horizontally was pulled out of my pack! I was so confused, and blamed my clumsiness on me being too drunk, when I don't even think I was. I approached a guy who I had never met before and asked him if he could roll for me as I was too drunk, outstretching the massive collage of rizzlas in his face as I did so. Not sure if he did or not, I can't remember the rest of this bit. The garden was quite big but not as big as you'd think with such a massive house. It had a bench which we were all sat on at the start.

I was now in a hallway with a guy that I think I met sometime during the party. We did some sort of stupid, drunken thing like set off a fire alarm, as sprinklers were activated and the whole party was evacuated into an assembly hall We sat near the back, and the rest of the party spread out throughout the whole hall. There must have been a good 400 people there!!! The person speaking in the assembly must have suggested that someone had to own up, as me and the other victim giggled knowingly.

{I don't understand how I didn't have a Lucid Dream last night ,as the cigarette scene was just so weird and I knew that it was weird, so I really should have done reality checks. I'm thinking of changing my reality checks during the day to doing so when something strange happens. I woke up in the middle of this dream, and had also been dreaming about a girl called Anya Holloway who is a model in my town. I got distracted and then went back to bed, and immediately continued the dream! Woohoo!}