Sleeping: August 6th 2015, 11:30 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 7th 2015, 5:40 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening I couldn't remember when did this start, but I was in a my school's canteen. Everything was normal and loud around me. I was sitting on a table with someone else at opposite side, nobody else. It was quite serious conversation on what he had been doing. This included mentioning of his guilt and such also, until I noticed something weird. I slid my index finger from left to right, in front of him. Called out a window which included information that he had 4,294,967,295 HP. Maximum of UInt32 variable. I acknowledged that and continued the serious conversation with him. He continued speaking on his guilty topic, including how and why he 'hacked' his life. Not sooner than that, he started trying to punch me. I quickly jumped out of table and mentioned how it wasn't possible for me to fight. He came out and continued. Most of punches came in slow rate as there were always another sentences after it. Of course, I did talk too, and tried fighting back. It went on until we found what we were doing was complete nonsense. We got back to our table and sat down. Continued this gruesome conversation. He also said he wanted me to tell this to police for some reason. I kept asking him why, but I never understood why he would even. It was unreasonable. It continued to the point where he decided to leave, telling me that I couldn't help him feel any emotionally better. I struggled to say anything, but told him I'll think about this favor. He walked out, thanked me for at least talking with him. I decided to go back to home, and I was then there. However, I walked into door at side of my home instead. I unlocked the door and walked in. Everything looked like a mixture of my usual house and my cousins' house somewhere far away. I walked into the bedroom and lied down to the bed. Stretching my arms out above my head and kept thinking about what happened. Until then, I heard someone's car parking at my house, then came in my home. They, which I assumed it was my family member/cousin, walked in and warned me about how suspicious I was. "They suspected you being able to teleport around places since that case." I just nodded then continued feeling strange in my bed. He/she walked out and did their things as they would do in daily life. Soon afterwards, I woke up. Recalled this and related "suspected teleport" to one of my other dreams. Actually, two. I still struggle to remember what that guy said and what I said to that guy. Who was that guy, also? That wasn't friend, wasn't stranger either. Name that popped up in my head when I was wondering was only "Reflection of myself"/"Cloned Reflection". I can only relate them to something I have yet to interpret. All those quotes from my other dreams. I'm leaving note of "something along these lines" type of messages I might have said to that dream character. Included what he might have said to me. Why would you even do this?I know, I won't be matching against you anyways.What's the point? There's no point doing this.YOU are crazy. Stop thinking too much.I don't understand what you're even trying to tell me right now.Stop your attempt to help me. You're not making me feel any better. In fact, WORSE.This is my darkest secret, but please tell them. At least make some signs, please.I'll think about it.Thanks, that's enough.etc. There are much more than this, and these are just something I could thought of. I didn't remember who said which also. Related dreams Pre-Journal Entry - Unknown Date - Home of success
Updated 09-05-2015 at 06:20 AM by 88459
Range: July 25th 2015 - August 24th 2015 It has been a month since my attempts to LD already. So, I guess I should summarize my progress for the my lovely first month. This way, I can finally drop my dream notes from my phone to my PC; clearing out space to start better formatted notes. I can also keep track of missed dream journals here to work on it. Let's get straight into it, I guess. It all started on July 25th 2015, around 7 PM while I was researching Five Nights at Freddy's 4's game data, mechanics and theories. Things went well until I stumbled upon this post on Reddit. That was interesting evidence piece to support theory that player you're playing is dreaming. I quickly went on and started googling dream clocks to make sure it was right. There I got it! I stumbled upon a blog about LD, read over them on how clocks can be used to induce a lucid dream. I thought I was about to end there, but all the spared reading spirits came. I middle-clicked (open in new tab) every single linked keyword as I read through, and I got into all of them. This became a chain, as each page led me to more. That was it. As much as how I would be addicted to reading wikis, I couldn't help myself out in this case also. I finally got interested in it, and there went my first night! First night went as a mixture of technique. I decided to go for WILD when I was drifting to sleep, and if it failed I would do DILD instead. Of course, I was RCing like crazy throughout the day (not really, it was night) as fail safe. However, with my lack of detailed knowledge, it just failed. I was actually awake in my bed longer than usual (as far as I could remember; I might be dreaming already, who knows?) with thoughts about lucid dreaming. That eventually led me into a scene I visualized up for my unique attempt of WILD. It just felt like walking into darkness with some weird, hypnagogic lights. It was long until there, I fell asleep unconsciously. (yay! failure!) I woke up with a fragment stuck in my mind. I didn't usually have good recall rate before that. It was... erm... a dream per month or something that came up from long 12 hours sleep. They weren't fragments also. This night was different, that got me interested even more. I woke up at 5:50 AM, much earlier than usual, as it was weekend. I continued my sleep at 6 AM, awake at 8 AM with no dream recalled. I noticed changes in my personality for the next day. At least, I felt better than usual. Couldn't explain, but it was euphoric-like state. My family did mention that I somehow sleep-talked, couldn't understand scrambled speech though. Quite something for me to freak out. Actually, I had been thinking about possibility of sleep-talk during the nights as I did, many times. For the second night, I just slept as usual with mild obsession to LD. Recalled a fragment which I wasn't sure if it was my visualization or actually dream fragment; it came up with other random thoughts before I drifted off. Same went for another nights. Except that I did WILD (probably I just did it without actual intention) on my nap in July 31st 2015 , probably due to some shaky environment that kept me a bit awake. I wasn't sure if it was actual dream or it was just all the visualization held in my mind, just like my lucidity on August 21st. It was quite random though, and I did some (possible) dream controls. I woke up in same, euphoric-like state, of course. Still, I didn't feel to fine calling this a lucid dream yet as I couldn't confirm it on how I felt. I registered my account on Dreamviews in July 31st 2015, late night of that nap day. Finally being able to step in community and such the next day. I eventually decided going on intro class and DILD class of this great place; finally having a place to share whatever I was trying. Dreams do have to stick together as fogelbise said. Since August 6th 2015, my dream recall started being a great thing (at least for me). It was a long dream each night, or even more due to natural awakenings noticed. Though, there were suddenly huge downfalls whenever I had to sleep like... 2 AM or something. It ruined my dream recalls for a day or two, before regaining them over nights. Sad news is it happened quite often with my works. Anyways, it wasn't too much of a problem since I could always try. After almost a month of attempts, my works finally paid off. August 21st 2015, I finally have a lucid dream. At least I could be surer than that random day nap mentioned above. Tried some dream controls on dream characters summoning, and it went well. Probably because how it felt like just a visualization, I could feel it happening instantly. Anything could be read on my dream journals, intro workbook and DILD workbook. Down here would be short list to link to dream journals and such. Actually, I'm going to use this to keep track on dreams I haven't written down. July 25th 2015 - A fragmentJuly 26th 2015 - A fragmentJuly 27th 2015 - False awakeningJuly 28th 2015 - A fragmentJuly 29th 2015 - No dreams recalledJuly 30th 2015 - No dreams recalledJuly 31st 2015 - Worthwhile Nap - No dreams recalledAugust 1st 2015 - A dream recalledAugust 2nd 2015 - A dream recalledAugust 3rd 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 4th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 5th 2015 - A fragmentAugust 6th 2015 - Life HackerAugust 7th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 8th 2015 - Fabricated WorldAugust 9th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 10th 2015 - A fragment (one sentence dream thread) - False awakening (DILD workbook)August 11th 2015 - A fragmentAugust 12th 2015 - Let the system go nuts! (1 +1f)August 13th 2015 - How to risk your life for nothingAugust 14th 2015 - A fragment (DILD workbook thread)August 15th 2015 - #Procrastinate4LifeAugust 16th 2015 - No dreams recalled (Slept at 3:30 AM of August 17th 2015)August 17th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 18th 2015 - Two fragmentsAugust 19th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 20th 2015 - No dreams recalledAugust 21st 2015 - Lovely SchoolAugust 22nd 2015 - Another boring day for gamesAugust 23rd 2015 - Nonsensical QuestionAugust 24th 2015 - School. Again (2) That's all. Long summary for myself to write and read on. I'll compile all the dream fragments I noted here whenever I'm able to. Whether ways, happy dreaming, oneironauts!
Updated 08-29-2015 at 09:51 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 24th 2015, 11:20 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 25th 2015, 6:25 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening Yet another day to be in a dream school; let's call it stress-induced lucid dream! (Not really for this night) Too bad, I can't remember this in chronological order as I haven't noted it when I woke up at 5:20 AM at all. Only noted a word in case I forgot what was this mainly about. Actually, I can't remember much contents; as much as how I didn't pay attention to long hours of (not-so, dreamy) usual class. I don't remember myself being in a (dream) English class until now. The classroom was big, I mean, very. At least it shouldn't be size of usual classrooms. All desks were separated far. Teacher didn't come in, but did give us some assignments in previous class. So, call it a free period. I, as always, picked my phone up and checked things. Whether that will be social networks, or even dreamviews, or playing games. While I was scrolling around a Facebook group dedicated to one of projects we (our classroom) had to do, I found a weird content. It looked like most pages/games paid advertisement, but it said "Blocked Friends". Description said something like this user had blocked following friends. As of what I could see, I see my classmate blocking herself. I was confused. It was reasonable for a person to create new account with old accounts removed for their reasons, but not blocking their own account with another account. I tried getting some information on this, mainly because privacy. Why? If a social network publishes users' block list, that's worst. 4-5 of my friends walked in the line from the door, passing me in the middle-left of the room by my right side. I talked to one of them, a bit. They eventually separated to their desks. Soon, teacher came out of nowhere and told us we had to give her the work. I was like... "oh f***" and tried my best getting around that. At least, since all the pieces from all students were supposed to be given in bulk for convenience, I could buy myself some more time to do the work. The dream abruptly ended with myself waking up. I recalled these, got out of my bed. I looked at the clock and it said 5:20 AM. Did some reality checks. Walked down my bedroom, was about to take my phone back from another room. Though I didn't as I was afraid I'll wake people there up. Instead, I tried finding some paper and wrote a keyword in to remind me of this dream. Got back and slept. I went to school I used to study at when I was at primary grades. Just giving them some visit. They sky looked clear, and the environment felt quiet as if nobody was there. I thought it was some time around early morning (clear sky, RIP) so I just walked into the building to find some comfortable place. The first floor resembled one of my current school's small building. Two rooms to the side, unknown (probably storage) room in front with staircase leading to two more rooms. Layout organization looked the same as it would in real life, (but not. How the hell did my primary grade school get something from my current school? RIP another dream sign unrecognized.) It looked somewhat old, with cobwebs around though. I pulled out a desk and a chair from a room out, put it somewhere behind the wall at the corner. Sat down and picked my phone up, played games. During these periods, I saw few students walking up/downstairs. I just looked at them, and got back to what I was doing. A moment after that, vice principal came behind me. I greeted her and started a conversation with her. She mentioned how I'm still with games even it was already a long time, and talked something about my grades and such. Of course, conversations also lingered around this school's status, and how she was doing. After all, the conversation went as expected; how people haven't met each other in a year, came, and talked. She did tell me to visit here a bit more, that would be pleasure for her to welcome me. I nodded, smiled and affirmed that. Soon after more of forgotten talks, I woke up at 6:25 AM.
Updated 08-29-2015 at 09:18 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 23rd 2015, 10:30 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 24th 2015, 6:20 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening I'm already bored of dreams which take place at school. Anyways, things in real life do influence, eh? Woke up once at 4:30 AM with no dreams recalled; exception being light feeling as if I was flying in a dream, a song that was stuck in my head, weird fast blade sound. Took me around half an hour to sleep at 5:00 AM (probably). This took place in a classroom where I used to study last year. For this class, specifically GSP (The Geometer's Sketchpad), teacher arrived late so we just messed around as we always did. Environment was just usual, people brought up their laptop, getting things prepared, some chit-chat around, walking around, doing other works, etc. Though, carpet on the ground was dark blue; lighting was dim amber light instead of usual fluorescent light. I walked to the desk in the middle to talk with one of my close friends about some assignments we had to do. Spectated some people in the back, came up forth and then a female teacher came. I sat down on my desk in front, leftmost while my teacher just went on and turned on school's computer at rightmost in front of the activboard. The class went on as usual, until she called me and one of my friends up in front. As always, I just expected it to be some method showing and such which I didn't pay attention to (at least in this dream class). We sat down at the desk in front of my usual desk, facing my friends, using the (dream) computer there linked to projector. She showed us a figure of what we needed to calculate... something. I expected it to be easy, until then I found myself struggling to even replicate that. It was a simple polygon, but I failed to even think of length of each sides. I looked at the board, of course, I saw all numbers or x's there; but I was still confused as my friend was. I spoke to teacher, asked her on how sides were supposed to be. She looked at me once before ignoring me, continuing her class as if my friend and I weren't even here in first place. We just had to do something as if we were sitting at our usual spots. I was left confused like this, trying to do things and such with this simple image. I didn't notice it shifted few times, with few numbers changed which might lead to lucidity. Related dreams Unknown Date - Training for such competition
Updated 08-29-2015 at 09:19 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 22nd 2015, 11 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 23rd 2015, 7:20 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening Woke up once at 4:40 AM, didn't recall anything. Continued sleeping on. I don't know how I started it, or when did I, but I found myself playing a game that I usually play. Of course, Terraria, why not? (Though I don't really have time to play IWL right now due to works and such. I'm also actually a moderator on a server.) I was on a server, alone with someone else. Although, I was only one who was actually playing. They were just watching and talking to me. It was a simple, quick, parkour map which also had a server plugin co-operated: to not allow standing in same spot for more than one second. Indeed, it was rushing and also short. I was supposed to use a new character to play on. However, I had 400 HP and 200 MP but with no other equipment/tools. I don't think I have to explain here since it's gameplay as you would do in your usual life, would be boring. Anyways, it was great idea for me to actually try IWL. After few minutes of getting through backtrack and such, final thing I had to do is fighting a boss with purely new character. I hesitated a bit, but decided to give it a go. I didn't know when, but I actually had 500 HP by that time, with weird flame-themed items. (Actually molten/flame things, with a bit of green; looked great anyways) They were non-existant IWL though. It was long time with that, while I was also talking to that unknown person. I woke up. It was probably on how I actually got break as August 22nd was Saturday. A great break from getting stressed with schools. Of course, this also meant game/coding/etc. elements were still things in my dream. Related dreams: July 25th 2015 - Fragment
Updated 08-25-2015 at 11:11 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 21st 2015, 10 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 22nd 2015, 6:45 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening Oh god, another school? Another place I can feel everything goes on ordinarily? Can't remember too much. I walked up the building with my friends, heading to classroom for math as usual. I entered teacher's room on second floor, picked up all my friends' notebooks. Though, I felt almost nothing for 47 books. Came outside and saw 3 of my friends there, I asked them to take a half even I could carry all of them quite fine. (Not in real life. 47 books are too heavy for weaklings like me.) Went up to fourth floor, to my classroom before everything started. Things went as usual. I sensed myself waking up. Though, I didn't feel awake and something just stumbled upon me. It was my sister, out of nowhere, came and hugged me in my room. I didn't care and continued dreaming. (I'm not really sure about this. I might be awake for real in real life, but not too much so that wild dream/visualization can still continue. Though, from this point, everything was so dark. I still knew what/when/where/who was that anyways. I'm afraid this was just visualization though. This and this explained.) For some reason, I felt I should do this. I looked at color tape on top left of my notebook and it showed orange. (Weird but useful thing. Since there are two classes for maths to separate, we've different color to mark them out easier. Just orange and brown though. Differences go for another classes.) Turned back and saw it being brown, I suddenly realized it was a dream. Not time to direct out all my joy, just calming myself down. Before even doing anything, I visualized everything from this point backwards just for recalls. This included acknowledging my false awakening/real awakening with some weird dreamlets earlier. I walked out the classroom (somehow walked out the second floor's room rather than fourth floor), walked down the stairs and found a friend doing some crazy things. (He was supposed to be in the classroom.) I talked to him a bit. (forgot what I said already) Had know what to do, and was just lost in my thoughts with some visualization. Soon enough, I caught myself back on spot and decided to summon someone which I could assume it was reflection of myself (subconscious). I tried my best seeing the details, but things were too dark. I talked to him about how I was doing, and asked him if I actually did something good. He simply replied "no." with reasoning that "you didn't believe enough". I was a bit surprised, as I felt that coming without myself controlling. I told him that I was here already, this was already enough for me to feel great. Wasn't this great progress? He nodded with smile on his face, opening his arms before I ran to him and hugged him. High five and such. Finally being able to share how good I really feel with someone. External sources had been disturbing me since that FA. Sounds and such, including mixed feel of both dream body and waking physical body. I felt out of control and slowly woke myself up. Was there for few minutes, recalling things before looking at the clock and wrote things down.
Updated 08-29-2015 at 09:44 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 13th 2015, 11 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 14th 2015, 7:10 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening I don't know why, but school started being a sign in my dream (through previous dream journal). I love how it stresses me so much, freaking love it. LOVE. I can't remember when it started, I was in a classroom. Though the location wasn't possible within real life. It took half the (waking life) convenient store. Room consisted 36 desks for students, 6x6. I was sitting in column 5, row 4 counting from top left. Not too much are interesting, it was mathematics. Something about ratio, with business incorporated. I don't know why, but the class felt like it was supposed to run for 9 hours. 8:30 AM to 17:30. That's not even possible. I checked the clock several times, time went fast but I didn't notice the flow of it. Once it reached the time, we just got out and went home as usual. I just came by the store near my class, bought something before walking back home. There went another boring day. However, I was (too) late and I just procrastinated. So, I did my homework right before getting into my classroom. Thanks to dreamy desk outside there. Some of friends came out and asked why I didn't go in, and just took a break, buying something, then went back to their class. Soon, I decided I should go in. I just went in and got prepared for my own doom, but nothing happened. I could just sit down on my desk and started studying things as teacher taught. Due to weird fatigue building up, I felt sleepy. I also saw my crush behind me and sleeping on her desk. I couldn't control it and just fell asleep on my chair either. Checked clock from my cellphones two times, it showed somewhere around 11 AM and 5 PM (actually showed as 17:xx as of 24-hours clock). After few seconds of fast sleep drifting, I felt my whole body paralyzed. I shocked and acknowledged it was possibly a SP. (SP within a few seconds of sleeping in a dream, what?) I realized I could use this, so I just calmed myself down and started being able to move. As soon as I moved off my (dream) physical body, I woke up in real life. Tried recalling this and this is all of what I got. No natural awakenings throughout the night remembered also. Love the false lucidity anyways, as that lucidity is just fake one, for a dream inside a dream (which eventually means only one dream anyways).
Updated 08-25-2015 at 11:08 AM by 88459
Sleeping: August 13th 2015, 11 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 14th 2015, 7:10 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening Hm? What? Took a pill for last night's cold and went sleeping outright. It all started when I was sent to a desert for something. It could just be my need to get some information about that place. Feeling well, though I knew I was risking my life here. First step into a dungeon-like structure got some chills ran down through my spine. I could sense danger here, but I still felt great for this. It was a long journey throughout the labyrinth with puzzle things and such, it felt familiar to a brain-destroying puzzle map from a game with edits at the end. (Well, map has no way out of this place.) I found myself at the hallway leading to outside, seeing some lights. Although it was long journey through pits of deaths, I still hesitated to get out. I just noted some information on my notepad, looking at some insects and spiders around me. It took me few seconds before realizing some people were following me. I quickly ran off and hoped for best that I won't die. That worked, I simply ran through all dart traps, pits and such. Finally getting out, I saw a message popping up indicating that it took me exactly 20 seconds in this part. New high-score, yay. (Okay, I honestly have to RC whenever I see any notification messages or everything that could be a game.) I just thought how bad it was, but I managed to get through whole thing quite fast. My "friends" won't catch up. I don't know what afterwards, but soon I was using my laptop to start working on my data. All I can remember is I was finding some information about some theories on physics/science/such. That page consisted a logo on top which I didn't pay attention to. A search bar, with few checkbox filters below. One of them was "Paranomal-engaged sc[blurred]". Some others were same style, including "...-induced ...". (I hope I actually saw that.) Search results were picture thumbnail with text on the right, two columns for data found, less than 4 rows were shown without scrolling needs each time. I just went through attempting to search whatever I could think of, but didn't find what I actually wanted. After few moments, I successfully found a thing by exact match. No other things were shown. Can't remember what happened afterwards. Things fast-forwarded to when I was in physics class. Desks placement and desks themselves were weird though. As always, teacher just walked in and took my notebook and checked for next lesson. He was standing on desk which was right and up for a block each. Soon, I had to walk there with confused expression as my teacher called for me. He opened a page which had a question written, my explanation was there but few things were left out blank. I started hearing my friends giggled and laughed. He asked me why I didn't do this, why I was not responsible, why friends had already given their works to him but I didn't. I was like "what?" then quickly checked everything. I was shocked as I thought I had done it all through my risky effort. (I don't even know why I started being an archaeologist going into a pyramid in the desert without proper reason then it became my excuses here.) "Do you even need some grades? I'm already tired of you. Go and do..." blahblahblah, more assignments he was giving me blahblahblah if I didn't want to lose my marks. The laughter suddenly got louder, directing at me. I was more than even shocked, with few tear in my eyes. (No more assignments, please. Waking life was already enough.) I was about to go down on my knees already. I took my book back, headed down, walked to my desk and sat on my chair. Asked myself "why?", "I did that already. Why everything went away?". Laughter was still loud, they were just humiliating. I punched my desk with force even less than 1 N, crying for my worthless effort and how everything I did disappeared like it was a dream. (It was a dream, dummy.) I collapsed and that also got my chair fell down, but I just didn't do anything. I left myself there in despair with some tear in my eyes and shocked expression. I woke up due to my mom yelling that it was already 7:15 AM like crazy. (Not even enough time to get myself ready for school. At least, school in place I'm living requires assembly at 7:45 AM. Unlike you guys there which were like... 8-9?) I closed my eyes and tried thinking back to what I can think of, and those are all I could remember. I kept repeating keywords in my head and acting drowsily, getting myself prepared for things. Did some RCs. As soon as I got to my phone, I just typed those in and sighed, finally being able to concentrate on what I was doing. A good thing, my cold completely disappeared over night with help from medicines, yay! Related dreams: July 19th 2015 - The day before midterm
Sleeping: August 12th 2015, 11:30 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 13th 2015, 6 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, False Awakening Well, what now? I couldn't even be happier than this as I haven't gained a restful night for this week. Finally, here it is! I went to bed at 11 PM. Since it took me half an hour to actually fall asleep so I just repeated my mantras over and over, with intentions to get these three: vivid/great recall/lucidity in my dream. Drifted off afterwards. Couldn't recall much, but oh well. I can remember a part where myself was on my laptop (as usual, daily life) chatting with people through my favorite IRC client: HexChat, inside my house. I was on another network though. That one was a game server I'm moderating (still being a half-op with +h flag). Great place to reality check with letters? Yes, indeed. I didn't do any at all, thanks to me. (Can't even whine.) As always, I don't really like getting into discussion too much so I just lurked around and saw people chatting. Soon, I found someone's name suffix toggling between two suffixes (I'm not sure, but I assume it's something like traditional 'busy' and 'away' status) at rate of once per second. It just looked familiar to how Dreamviews' !asleep, !brb, !away mechanism works (name|suffix). That person was on top of online users, their circle color in front of their name was also changing between red and orange! Completely impossible for HexChat. Highest rank possible on top is a person with +q flag, which will generate orange. Red one doesn't exist. That person (I decided to left unnamed for this journal) in waking life was only ranked with +a flag (SOP), yellow circle with less priority than +q should appear. I failed to even care about this, as I generally assumed orange as away mark and red as busy mark. Soon afterwards, a kid in-game (can't remember name/rank) said out a thing (message from in-game will be formatted and relayed to IRC server with a plugin) which, as always, was annoying and generally senseless. (Same, not going to leave any message here.) Things went on as that rapid-nickname-changing-user replied. Of course, it went as I expected it to be, both in physical and mental world. I abruptly woke up from that without remembering what happened afterwards. Stayed on bed for few minutes, thinking back until I gave up before doing RCs then got out of bed. It was somewhere around 2:50 - 2:55 AM. (Assumed according to information I got from my phone afterwards) I went out of my bedroom and drank some water, took my phone which was charging outside of my room back in my room. Checked the time and it was 2:57 AM. I noted my dream and put the phone away, before drifting off to my sleep with mantras again. Hoping I would remember more for another dream. (I forgot to turn the fan in my room off. That eventually led me to a running nose next morning.) I felt myself walking down the staircase as if I just came back home (it looked dark, as if I came out of my bedroom from natural awakening at night though), coming to place I and my sister usually stay. Of course, my laptop on my small desk to the left with a printer, followed with my sister's desktop PC. It looked exactly the same as how it looked in real life. I then looked for my Novation Launchpad in front of my printer and found 4 (or probably more). (I only own one Launchpad Mini in real life though. However, what I saw here looked like Launchpad MK2.) I picked up the top one and started running my index finger on the texture, feeling every millimeter of it. I just smelled it once before smiling to myself, then got some great texture feel on my wood desk. As I was about to plug it to my laptop, I noticed strange light coming from back of my launchpad. It was red light from a hole as small as most devices' reset button IWL has. I assumed that my launchpad needed some 'charging' so I just plugged it to my laptop. I was about to start doing things, but I just plugged it off and plugged it to my sister's desktop PC as I found it taking my desk space. (First, Launchpad doesn't have that light or that hole at all. Second, Launchpad doesn't even have a battery. It's a midi controller which requires plugging to your PC if you just want to use it.) I somehow heard my friend calling me, asking for technical help. They claimed they were not able to plug their laptop's charger, it just didn't work. (Scene started changing without me noticing, to a classroom where we usually need to use laptops. Most of my friends' laptops have shitty batteries so they always have to use school's energy. I didn't even see my friends in dream though.) I then got on my chair right at 'my' desktop. (Wait, no, seriously. How the hell my sister's desktop PC is here, right on school's desk now? I thought I'm supposed to use my laptop.) I accessed the router. Though, I found it weird that I didn't have to input any passwords at all. (Router is interfering with energy source, much wow. A student can easily hack into school's network router, much wow.) I just looked around on the text and found many places to put things on. These are some of what I can remember. "Editing message": [long multi-line message box with some messages on it] (I suspected what this was, since it shouldn't even appear. I just wanted to see the example then just saw it immediately. A message popped up as if I finished editing some information, with a message "Your network is now mildly better protected!". Weird, eh?) "Unfortunate IPs:" [8 message boxes next to each other on the sides, each with length of --------------] (First four contained something, I assumed it was usual IP. Though, I remember myself removing one of these and added a thing to another box. There were some messages near this place saying that two microphone/speaker devices were being plugged in, only one is allowed at time. I generally assumed this might be cause of that problem also. Much more boxes I can't remember right now. I should have taken notes of them this morning. Geez. I woke up at 6 AM after some problem solving, right at time my mom tried to wake my sister up in another room. Tried recalling things, but couldn't really remember anything before launchpad part. I also noted things down to my phone when recalling. Stayed there for 4-5 minutes before I had to get out of my bed and starting my day. I still don't understand how I didn't recognize weird systems around me. But oh well, that was also one of recurring dream signs I have, eh?
Sleeping: August 8th 2015, 11 PM (UTC +7) Awake: August 9th 2015, 7 AM (UTC +7) Non-Dream, Non-Lucid, Lucid, FA/Possible FA Last night, I slept at 11 PM. I'm not sure when, or if I actually had any, but I remembered there was a natural awakening. I woke up and looked at the clock (can't remember what time was it), and went back to my bed, doing some mental maths. A thing I found is that my brain activity is pretty low, I can find myself struggling to do easy equations. Soon, I drifted off to sleep with higher consciousness. (This orange part could be anywhere in this journal entry. I can't remember when I woke up in real life or had this false awakening.) I can remember a dream where I was on a floating world/island with my family/friends. The place looked great and beautiful. We were around edge of the world. I was running/flying around and such. (Too much activities to note/recall, not in chronological orders. Most of them look fairly reasonable, at least within my dreams. Would work better with mental map, if it's to list everything.) Though, not much other characters were talking/doing anything with me. (At least what I can remember) Yes, this place was place of freedom. Most things were already made possible, including flying. I decided to summon a UFO Mount to ride on and levitate freely with thoughts instead of getting wings. If you could control almost everything for personal happiness, why you wouldn't? (The world had been balanced out to prevent crimes and such.) I can't remember too much details, especially chronological orders in that part, but I can recall the feeling when I looked down from edge of the world, seeing clouds. Whichever ways, there was this part. I was down on the ground, on a flat land. Everything looked red, dehydrated, deadly and aggressive. I was confused and tried to ask people what happened, but they ignored me. I could see tanks fighting as if this world had wars going on. I knew afterwards that the world I had been living on was just a world designed for most people. We lived there without question why we were there in first place. However, reality down here was bad. Everything was destroyed already. I questioned things in frustration. I asked one of my friends where they're going (in this case, they: those soldiers in war), what they're doing. Only to get the answer: "Where are they going? Nah. They won't tell you. You have to find out yourself." before they left me without caring for me. Possibly in another dream, or false awakening after first paragraph. Family woke me up with smiles. I slowly went on my clock and it said 8 AM. However, I decided to continue sleeping and attempted DEILD, hoping that they thought I was not fully awake yet. (Illogical? Yes. It's not possible at all to continue acting like I'm not awake with that much movements. I used to do this when I'm too lazy to wake up, and just continue sleeping though.) I managed to drift off to my sleep, thinking that I successfully did DEILD/WILD. (A false one, yay!) I somehow found that my attempts to continue the previous dream failed, as my (false) physical body senses still co-operate. With that, I realized actions similar to sleepwalks occurred on my (false) physical body. Knowing that my family members were there, I decided to troll them around with physical body asleep, but my mind awake and seeing everything. Things were funny though. Can't remember what happened afterwards, but I finally woke up in real life. Something made me question what happened few moments ago, I did a reality check and found that this was awakening life. I looked at the clock and it said 7 AM, before I punched my pillows softly in frustration. How the hell I forgot to even think that the false awakening was illogical? Since I had been waiting for FA, thinking that it would be greatest chance for me to get lucid. This night was one of weirdest nights so far. I can't seem to sort anything out in chronological order, while I was always able to do it all the time. Everything looked like there were run on parallel timeline. Let's think it in positive way. This might be a sign of being able to recall multiple dreams a night. Time to appreciate it and try again next night! EDIT: I just noticed how "fabricated world" is quite something along The Matrix. I haven't watched it before this though.
Updated 08-29-2015 at 09:45 AM by 88459