Athylus

It's been some time since I last posted here, so I figured it might be fun to do so and comment a bit on my dreams. I will be keeping my dreams on my computer as well starting today, and I will place paper and pencil next to my bed so I can write down some keywords that relate to the dreams I have.

Both of these dreams are non-lucid.

Dream 1:
I'm at snowy mountains, most likely winter sports. It's quite crowded here, and my sister and her boyfriend are somewhere at these mountains as well but not near me right now. I'm in a queue and I see a girl looking at me, as I look her in the eye I just have enough time to smile. She looks back down and up again after a second or so and smiles. I approach her, we talk a bit and both sit down. However she is just not my type and I can notice myself slowly sinking away and I eventually fall down the mountain.

I wake up in a japanese style room, my sis and her boyfriend are there as well. I go up to my sis and I notice there's a green insect on her, so I flick it off her with my fingers. He keeps coming back and there's more and more eventually, her boyfriend doesn't do anything however. The dream slowly fades to black and I wake up.


Dream 2:
This is kinda vague, but I can remember being in a very dark room with a broken tv (it's cracking and shit). I'm feeling anxious here, and I feel myself unable to move. This is a common occurrence in some of my dreams and it's bugging the shit out of me, however this time I manage to break free but my dream fades away as soon as that happens.

Notes: I think this 'force' that is holding me down, the force that is separating me from my body is my weed addiction which I am overcoming now (13 days clean now) and this force hasn't been as much of a hassle lately, so metaphorically speaking it makes sense. Good stuff.

I'm a firm believer that dreams are messages of the subconscious to make you more aware of yourself and even to guide you in life.

Been a long time since I wrote here... typing is so much easier than writing it all down in detail with pencil.

I was lying down on my bed in my room and got up and walked to my TV to take a good look at it and I noticed that things started appearing and disappearing on my screen (even though it was turned off). This was very weird, but I just brushed it off.

Back in bed, I try to get up but can't. Once again I'm paralyzed and can't move. So I try to get up with my eyes closed, and this actually works. I try to estimate where my desk and door handle are, and funny enough I touch my desk with my hand and then without fail I open my door. I get teleported to a supermarket now where I see a girl I used to hang out with, she was probaly there because I have something in mind I want to ask her. We talk for a bit and just as she disappears I remember what I have to ask her. I shout out to her but she's gone. I wake up again, or so I thought.

Once again I'm back in bed now, still paralyzed. It's incredibly hard to move, I try to gather enough willpower but it just isn't working. I manage to roll out of bed and start crawling to my window, eventually I manage to open it. Now this is a window that's slanted on the wall, which is actually the roof of my house. I open it and try to get out, but it's too narrow. In real life I sometimes go through this window to sit on my roof and smoke a cigarette, this time not. I fall out and wake up again.

Not. For the last time I wake up paralyzed in bed. Something appears to be happening at my door, at first I thought it was my father but suddenly my door opens and some sort of shadow entity is standing there. Being paralyzed and seeing this creature I get freaked out and make a 'meep' sound, but suddenly I go crazy and just start laughing at him in the face like a maniac. He disappears and the dream is over for good now.



A weird experience, even though it has happened numerous times before and it's actually just really frustrating afterwards. I was semi-lucid throughout this entire dream, I knew something wasn't right since I saw shit happening on the TV. I do remember rubbing my hands like crazy at some point, it helped a bit... but not nearly enough to get me out of my paralyzation. It's not really paralyzation either... it's like the gravity is tenfold of that on earth. I can feel I'm making progress though, and I've learned some tricks from this dream. That expectation matters a lot. I expected I would find my desk and door handle with my hands even though my eyes were closed, and I did.

I also remember a very small fragment of having sex with someone, I woke up with morning wood which was terrible since I'm on the no-fap challenge. And it's after that, that this dream occured. I overcame the need by falling asleep.

Now I'm gonna grab a bite and smoke a cig. Peace out.

It's been a while since I've kept myself busy with lucid dreaming, I hope I can stick to it now. Got a lot of time on my hands now. So I bought a book lately to scribble some keywords in when I wake up from my dreams. I had 3 dreams last night which I can remember, and 2 of them are somehow connected.


Dream 1

Someone died, a relative of a guy I know from back when I was still in high school. So I'm at the funeral now. Shaking hands and saying condolences to people. I walk up to the coffin, and see him lying down on his belly.

(So this is kinda weird, a dead person lying on his belly and not on his back? Lol, can't believe that didn't get me lucid.)

I'm being told that he was bullied and comitted suicide.

(At this point I'm not really sure wether this dream is being continued or wether it's another dream. But I get the feeling this happened later in another dream, like a sequel.)


Dream 2: Continuation of dream 1

I'm helping someone that's being bullied, I'm looking from this at a top view. I can see it as me helping someone, but it's depicted as league of legends characters. I'm Shaco, and on my team is Katarina. We're running away from Fizz because we just killed one of his teammates (the bully). Katarina and the rest of my 'team/friends' flee by taking the staircase down. Guess I'll stealth and walk off in a different direction to the B wing of my school.

Someone's acting tough towards me and I get mad, I start kicking him while dodging his kicks or catching them (I've been kickboxing for nearly 2 years so I'm pretty good at this) and at one point we stop fighting and I see this black-drugsdealer-tattoo'd-guy in a white tank top staring at me. I look him sharp in the eyes and then proceed to fight, I give this guy a front kick now and he reacts to it by giving a roundhouse kick but I catch it! I'm about to sweep him down by shoving his leg away. However... Just when I'm about to do this the black guy puts a gun in my back. I've let my guard down, and it's over now...

Or so I think. A friend of mine yells out to the black guy and it's my friend Jeffrey (this guy used to be totally crazy, using drugs and dealing in them so naturally he knows those people. Also I don't hang out with him anymore.), and he tells him we're friends so we're all cool now.


Dream 3

I'm walking in the neighboorhood where I live, well not really, but it resembles it. I think this setting is just bits and pieces from around my place sewn together if that makes sense. I see 3 guys on a bike but I ignore them and they cycle past. Suddenly my friend Jelle is with me and we're walking around, and he sees a house and tells me that it's the place where Kik lives. This 40 years old or so we know. So he knocks on the door and when the door is opened Jelle doesn't say anything anymore. He must be seeing something shocking, else he wouldn't react this way. I'm not in line of sight to see this, but I hear some familiar voices.

I still don't know what was in there. Probaly something shocking like an orgy or whatever.

I'm at the streets, it's night. I immediately know I'm dreaming and the dream doesn't feel very stable. I walk forward and end up seeing my house, in a different spot from usual however. The street doesn't match. Since it's dark I think by myself that I don't want any scary things, as I look into the house I see my sis in the kitchen, my mom and myself when I was younger. I try to phase through the kitchen glass and sink but I don't get too far and my dream ends.

Still thought it was worth posting this since it was a lucid dream.

First off, not my third since joining... more like my fifth. However I don't count those other two as lucids, as they were extremely short and I wasn't able to really do something. I only remember driving a car I stole.

I'm at home, playing the piano. At first I don't know why, but later some girl comes and apparently I'm playing the piano for her, for the 'shop' which is apparently located in my house. Even when we had closed down she told me to continue but I didn't, so she went to get some food which was cornflakes and sat down at the table in front of me. Now here I have this 'wonder' feeling from Sage's WILD tutorial*.

So when I got this strange feeling I ran to the hallway and looked at my hands for a while, something wasn't right and it was clear to me I was dreaming. I started kicking the glass on my door and after a couple tries the door opened. Now that I'm outside I'll just try to climb up to the rooftop of my house so I can jump off of it to fly, I couldn't get up to the last part and jumped then. I continued my journey by walking out of my street around the corner to my best friend's house.

My best friend's dad and another very good friend's dad were outside, so I talked to them and got myself a metal object from one of the dads. I looked at my neighboor's window and saw there was the mcdonald's clown in their home and it annoyed me, so I ran in and tried to throw the metal, round object with a small hole in the middle at his head. I missed, hit a vase, and ran the hell outta there.

That pretty much cuts it. Lol.

*Maybe I'm not doing it right? Or maybe it can also be used for DILD. It's working for me either way though.

I woke up in my bedroom, and the instant I woke up I realised I was dreaming. I tried to get out of bed but I couldn't and my whole body was so heavy. It was like I had to pull my 'spirit' out of myself. When I'd gotten up I looked outside since someone was throwing snowballs at my window (first floor). Before my curtains were closed, but they were suddenly open. The guy throwing snowballs was some asian guy who smokes weed everyday, know him from school, lol. And suddenly my other friend was throwing snowballs at my window, called Jelle. He was wearing his usual style of clothes, an unique one for a white guy around here, long black jacket and his moncler hat. I told him to fuck off and jumped out of the window, I fell right on my face but didn't care since it was a dream. The point where my head hit would normally be stones sticking out, so in real I'd probaly be half-dead lol.

When I got up it was suddenly dark outside, and dark outside is a never a good sign in my dream. I was aware of that. Suddenly a car came driving by and I immediately thought of good things, not bad ones. So luckily some friends stepped out of it (even though none of them have a driver's license) and we started walking around my street army style in a formation to fend off attackers (perhaps this is a sort of self-defence mechanism against nightmares?) and I saw someone walking in the distance, didn't pay much attention and thought to myself 'Hey! I want to fly!', didn't work at first. So then I thought, okay... small jumps at a time. It worked! But after a while of getting up slightly high my dream ended, alas.

Dream 1: A fight with a friend

Somehow, somewhere I ended up in my room. I can't remember seeing anything except for my screen, as I was playing a game I used to play as a kid when I was about 10-12, called RuneScape. Now there's this friend who I used to do things with every weekend in my past, but he moved away when we got a bit older and we grew apart. I sometimes see him, but nearly never. Anyhow we used to play that game together, so that's probaly why I dreamt of it. I had a fight with him, I don't remember what I said and I don't remember why I said all of it, probaly because we're not on such good terms anymore and we don't really match that well together which I realised as we grew older.

That's it, it's all I can remember but it's my first dream that I can remember since joining. No dream signs that I've noticed.



Dream 2: Changing room

I'm standing in the changing room, along with some guys. One who I also used to hang out with when I was about 10, his name is Jay. And also some other guy from my previous school, called Timo. They were fake fighting as I was watching. (Note that the locker room had white tiles, lots of simple hooks that you can hang your clothes on, wooden door boards to enter the shower and very simple wooden benches attached to the walls (typical changing room)). After watching a bit I turned around only to see the exact same guy sitting next to me, Jay. We started doing this as well and I stopped soon, looked around me and saw my underwear hanging on a hook, there was a small wall between me and the underwear. It was my black underwear with a blue stripe on top and letters on it saying 'Soho'.

I went to another room, can't remember which, it's all black. And then I came back again with just a towel wrapped around me.

I can't remember anything else after that, my dream possibly ended. However, I can remember some of my dreams happening in changing rooms more often. So it's possibly a dream sign. From now on I'll do two or three reality checks whenever I'm in the changing room when I go kickboxing.