non-lucid

One of the first things that I remember is being in a clothing store. The guy behind the desk tells me that I can pick out a bikini for free for some kind of event that was going on tomorrow, like a concert or something. I had a bad feeling about him, that he was just being nice so that he could see my body. I looked around the store anyway, for a pretty long time because I felt uncomfortable with showing off so much skin. So, I found this blue tie-dye shirt with a black lace back to put over my bikini. After I decided on the shirt, I appeared all of a sudden in my mother's red van & I remember seeing one bag already full of bought clothes that my mother must have gotten & an empty bag. I stuck the shirt in the empty bag because I didn't want to pay for it (it was way too expensive). Then, I appeared back in the store & found a blue tie-dye bikini. Soon after, my mother came to tell me that they caught me on the security camera stealing the shirt, but I convinced my mother & the guy behind the desk that I didn't steal anything & that I was just setting the shirt down until I got everything together, & then I would have payed for it. The guy behind the desk either said that he'd forgive me or that he believed my explanation. He then gave me this globe thing that glows, spins, & changes colors. I thanked him. All of a sudden, I was in my bed with the globe thing set on my nightstand & my mom lying next to me telling me that I ruined it when she was the one messing with it the whole time. I then decided to twist it & it started to work again.

I woke up naturally at 3:45 am & went to the bathroom. When I fell back asleep, I was in a different dream entirely.

There was a sort of family gathering going on. I remember seeing nearly all of my close relatives on my mother's side of the family. For some reason, in the room that we were in, there was an old pinball machine & my Japanese teacher standing next to it. We decided that we would work on it together & get it working again. It was implied that he had worked on the same exact machine before. The next thing I remember is my mom handing off my aunt's half-black baby to me while on a balcony (she doesn't really have a half-black baby). At first she just set the baby on the arm of a plastic, dark green patio chair. I saw the baby's head flop & it nearly toppled over. I picked up the baby, who was particularly squirmy, & watched from what I thought was a safe distance at what was going on below the patio. Well, the baby ended up squirming out of my hands & over balcony. I immediately jumped after. As I was falling, I saw a gigantic air mattress, which I missed, but I thought maybe the baby might have landed on it. I remember lying there on the ground, pretty much perfectly fine just a little out of breath & lightheaded, but I acted like I was dead when I saw my mom, who came down & sat in a chair & cried. Then, I acted like I miraculously snapped out of it & went upstairs. I looked at everyone's faces, especially my aunt's. I asked if the baby was okay. She (I think it was a she) didn't survive & no one wanted to talk about it anymore. I remember getting my first look of my aunt's significant other at this point. I was surprised for some reason that he was black. Then, everybody left room, except for my aunt. I sat down next to her on the couch & I hugged her & apologized & let her cry on my shoulder. Then I remember writing, "I love you," on the spine of the book that she was reading. The next thing that comes to mind involves a pillow that I had just sewed. It was coming apart, so I went to put it in my aunt's car so that it wouldn't get damaged further & made a mental note to fix it later. When I got to the car, there was this mentally challenged teenager (male). He was trying to do something in the trunk of the car (or maybe I was) & a big machine of sorts fell & what I assumed to be my aunt's dog went completely nuts. The leash was somehow attached to the car & the dog set off, pulling the car along with ease, while the mentally challenged teenager was trying to steer. In the meantime, I tried to jump out of the car before it really picked up speed. I remember getting out but the dog chased after me. The next thing I know, I'm in Chicago or a city equal to it. I was there because I was trying to avoid my family because I had already killed the baby & now I fucked up my aunt's car, lost their dog, & probably left the mentally challenged teenager to die (I'm still not sure if he was also one of my aunt's kids). At one point, I was looking out from the second-story window of a shop & I could see my family walking around on the sidewalk looking for me. Then my cousins looked up & saw me but I tried to disguise myself by making funny faces & crawling away on all-fours. At this point, I was hiding behind a hat rack & I see two people from my Japanese class. I immediately put on a Gilly Hicks hat (as a sort of disguise) that was pastel-colored with hair-like yarn attached to it.

The first thing I remember is being in my parent's old room & there were two people in their bed, which I can't identify, but I knew them somehow. There was this older guy (early 30's?) in the bathroom that was gonna take us somewhere that we all didn't want to go to, so I seduced him (for some reason my old psychology teacher comes to mind)... We were about to have sex but I realized that I needed to shave so I told him to hold on a second & I went to go into the other bathroom, & when I passed the bed with the two people in it, I said, "Don't worry, I'm gonna fuck him." The other bathroom looked exactly like my parent's bathroom that I just left. I shaved myself lying on the floor with a pink razor. When I was almost done, there was a knock at the door, which I expected to be the DC that I was going to have sex with, but it was someone else, maybe my brother or one of the DCs from the bed? I don't know. Anyway, he said that we had to leave. So I ran back to the other bathroom, pink razor in hand, & begged him to fuck me, that I was sorry, & that I was ready now. But he insisted that we go.

Then, somewhere along the line, I was in a different bathroom setting, with my "boyfriend" (he's a friend of mine, but in my dream we were together) & there were two other people, a male & a female who were also a couple. We switched our partners. I remember being okay with it, but then I saw through the wall behind the toilet, which the other girl was sitting on, & I remember seeing my partner go down on her & I got pissed. I wanted to call the whole thing off, but I decided to make him jealous by fucking my new partner's brains out, which he smiled & agreed to. I remember feeling afraid that he would think that I'm gross because I was heavier than his girlfriend.

Another part involved me, a girl, & a guy in the girl's bedroom. He was fingering her & I was licking her. It was getting pretty heavy, but then we heard her dads truck & we all scrambled to get dressed as she acted innocent & called out, "Hi daddy!" & waved out the window. Anyway, we all sat down in the next room, just in time (in plastic little kids' chairs). But then I realized that I left my cellphone on her bed. At first I decided that I would just leave it there because it would be more suspicious if I ran & got it & her dad saw me, but I ended up getting it back before he came inside the house anyway.

Dreamed on May 07, 2011
For some reason, I had this dead black cat (I seem to remember something about obtaining it in a grocery store?) & there was an evil spirit trying to inhabit it. So, I kept the carcass in my room until I figured out what to do with it. I remember seeing it on my nightstand rotting. I had to keep banishing the evil spirit from the cat's body but it wouldn't give up. After a while, I had my brother go downstairs to distract my mom so that we could get out of the house without her seeing the dead cat. Our plan was to go bury it. So, while he was doing that, I wrapped up the body in an AC/DC shirt & then went downstairs. When I got to the landing, there was this little boy waiting for me & my brother was gone. It was Halloween, so my mother told me to give him some candy, which I did even though I knew the real reason the boy was here--the evil spirit was inside of him & he temporarily inhabited the boy's body to get to the cat. I remember tickling him, acting like everything was okay. After I gave him the candy, he tried to run up the stairs to the cat (he didn't know I had the body with me) but I caught him & put him outside the front door. I then proceeded to go for a "walk", but I actually rode my bike to a graveyard, with my boyfriend (the little boy was gone when I left). When we got to the graveyard, the whole scene was really spooky & it was kind of dark out. There were open graves everywhere, & I remember seeing these big, fake eyeballs on the ground as well. When we went inside the gate, I realized that there were cat carcasses everywhere. I felt disgusted & scared & started to cry--I think I was barefoot at this point--so I just set the cat down instead of burying it as planned. My boyfriend & I got out of there as soon as possible & all of a sudden, we're at the top of my staircase & it starts to snow. The snowflakes looked like little yogurt clusters. My boyfriend said that he had a bad feeling about going downstairs & that he didn't want to, but my reasoning was that we were gonna have to face it sooner or later. He then decided to leave & ran down the stairs & then disappeared when he reached the bottom. He left me there to face whatever it was alone. So, I go downstairs & there's a creepy, sinister, ghostly, aristocratic man sitting in the recliner waiting for me. He orders me to get dog treats for him to feed to my chihuahua, Candy. I think I feared that he would hurt her. Anyway, I got the treats for him, which were in a tiny bag, so consequently, the treats were tiny as well. He acted like the treats were really important for some reason. Then I showed him that Candy could do tricks, & he seemed in total disbelief that she could beg. He wasted the whole bag in a matter of minutes, throwing handfuls of the treats at her. When he ran out, he demanded for more & I explained that we didn't have any more & would have to buy some at the store. I didn't really realize this while I was dreaming, but at some point, he turned into a woman. She had this piercing, scary beauty about her & she made me feel more uncomfortable than the man did. She made me sit on her lap & she showed me how she killed herself by touching my temporal lobes with her hands. The vision that came to me when she did this was her staring back at me in a crouched position with big, beautiful, frightening eyes & I asked her, "How can you be so beautiful & frightening at the same time?" She replied, "It depends on how far you're willing to be corrupted." She then stabbed herself in the eyes with what I think were golden-colored flats, which were, apparently, my shoes.