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Lately, I haven't been hanging out at my friend Mitch's apartment because I'm a rather shy person and they haven't been specifically inviting me, even though I have an perpetual invitation to their place.
Last night I went out with them and hung out with them and he was wondering why I haven't been over there in forever.

I dreamed that I did go over there, but of course everything was different. I think I remember going from outside into it, and it wasn't like an apartment, it was like a real house, and there were steps to go up to get in the front door. I'm pretty sure JC was there and Laura might have been too.
We went inside, the layout was pretty much completely different. The kitchen was too the left from the door and the fridge and stuff were further in the same direction and the hallway was to the right from there.
We were sitting at the kitchen table that was in front of the fridge, and eventually I had had 4 beers.
I had to go to the bathroom, which happens a lot when I drink soda or beer, and has happened IRL at their apartment.
I went in there, and it was very strange, there were two showers that were like public showers, with shower curtains that wrap around three sides. I remember there being something strange about the urinal(?), but I don't remember what it was.
I think someone came in there at some point, but this is about where I can't remember anything from the dream.

Not really sure what any of this means.

I'm not sure if what I dreamed was lucid or not.
I was in a room, my friend JC and someone else was there, possibly Laura. Things were pretty vivid and I was just talking to them while I was "lucid", eventually, things started to get shaky and I started to spin, so I tried spinning around some, and I vividly remember this part where I was spinning, and JC said something like "trying to spin to re-stabilize the dream?" or something. It wasn't working and it ended up destabilizing and I fell out of it.
I didn't wake up though, I don't think. I might have ended up in the same place, because I think I remember saying "I fell out of it", and JC saying something regarding that.

I suspect this is probably just a dream about lucid dreaming, because I feel like I would have done more to accomplish something than just talking if I was actually lucid, and I imagine I would have actually woken up.

I don't recall much because I forgot about this for a while before I remembered it to record it.
I don't remember much of what was happening, just that I was pretty aware that I was dreaming for a while, but didn't think to take advantage of it until one point that I do remember quite clearly.
There was a crystallizing moment that is still vivid in my mind: I was in a house that was based on my mom's house, but the kitchen I was in was thinner, the fridge was in a different place, there was only one way in and out (like my great gramma's house almost O_o), and it was somehow associated with a hanging out with friends and drinking atmosphere.
My friend Adam was there and I feel like there was also someone else there that I don't remember seeing.
I think what happened is I went up to him and started talking to him about something. I recall being impressed with how vivid everything is. Fuzzy, but vivid at the same time.
My first thought to take advantage of the lucidity was to try something sexual, so my first instinct was using what I learned from tutorials. The first thing I needed to do was get the person I want to do stuff with here. We'll call her Ashley.
Clearly she was in the living room, so if I asked Adam where she was, he would tell me that, so I did. I don't actually remember him saying that or what he said, but I turned around and started going to the living room, but while I was walking through the kitchen, Adam was still talking but what he was saying had gotten aggressive and scary. It startled me and I fell onto the floor and when I turned around he was still doing it. I panicked and fell out of the dream and woke up.

I dunno if sleeping on my couch that is too short for comfortable sleeping helped me become aware of my sleeping state, but I might try it again.

I just recalled a dream where I became a father, not many other details other than that are coming back though. I'm pretty sure it was just me and there was no mother around for whatever reason and I was surprisingly okay with the situation.
Before I had gotten with my girlfriend irl, I had wanted to someday be a father, but since being with her and now afterwards, I'm not as interested.
I'm wondering if this means I actually am.