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COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 12:00
WBTB: 5:30, 6:30, 7:47 (maybe a few more times)
Awake: 8:30
Tech: WBTB + MILD, WBTB + SSILD
Dreams: 4
Lucids: 0

1. I am playing soccer in my friend's apartment. Everything has been cleared out of his main living area and office area. There is no furniture or anything. The floor is still the same fake wood. I'm not sure what we were using as nets but they seemed smaller than regulation. Teams were 3v3 although I don't remember who else was there. I remember scoring one goal where I got the pass up near the net, I paused, and then lightly tapped the ball in off the post. Andrewa said "I bet you could have been really good at hockey if you kept playing". I said "thanks".

2. This next dream is written in my tag notebook but I don't recall it now. The tags are "uber, dog shelter, library, rich movie star brought us food then I ubered. I'll update this if I recall it.

3. (FA) Woke up and checked the time. My phone said 6:29. Then I laid back down and did SSILD. I then woke up for real and realized my alarm (set for 6:30) had already gone off so it couldn't have been 6:29. The real time was 7:47.

4. I worked at an office or something. I decided to attend this weird cult building because they served free lunch. In order not to seem suspicious of just wanting free lunch, I would pretend to study their beliefs during the time there. When I was leaving on the 2nd or 3rd day of doing that, the cult leader followed me. I thought he was going to accuse me of just wanting free lunch, so I explained how much I've been studying. He said he knows, he's been watching me. But then he takes out a gun from a concealed holster and I again become afraid. At this point we're walking through a public parking log, but there aren't any people around. Suddenly I look back at him and he now has 3 guns, one of which is a machine gun? I again accuse him of getting ready to shoot me and he says no. (Memory Blank) Now there is a dog with a collar running through the same parking lot. The cult leader shoots it with a bow. I freak out. Then he gets in a car and attaches the dog's leash to the back of the car. As he starts to sadistically drag the dog behind the car, I run and leap on the dog to hold the pressure off it's neck. I also eventually am able to get the leash unhooked from the dogs collar, so it runs of frightened. (Memory Blank) Now the cult leader, several cult members, one of my co-workers, and I are standing in an abandoned parking garage-type structure. We are kicking this marble around, and it seems that if the marble gets passed you, you die. I purposely quick it slowly and easily to someone near me and he somehow misses. I'm worried, shouting for him not be killed. I freak out at this point and decide to try to escape. I let my co-worker know but he says he thinks we'll be caught if we try. Then I start running and I make a huge jump which somehow doesn't hurt me as I land softly. I run out of the parking garage to an area that is enclosed by a fence. As I approach it, signs say it is electric. I try one part of it and it shocks me (the feeling was really cool). So I run the other way and eventually find an area with a lot of people around and I feel safe. Then I wake up.

Notes: I still have a cold and I was exhausted yesterday, so I think I slept very deeply. I still did MILD and SSILD and my recall was good. I know it's only a matter of time till a lucid comes.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 1:00am
WBTB: several times throughout the morning
Awake: 9:15
Techs: MILD, autosuggestion, WBTB + SSILD
Dreams: 3 fragments
Lucids: 0

1. Fragmented dream. I remember being with my parents. My mother was experiencing bad memory loss/dementia. I noticed it immediately. When I brought it up with my dad while we were out of the room, he said that he hadn't noticed it. I realized he has been experiencing some of the same symptoms, only more mild. I remember my mom acting weird around all my friends as well. Like she didn't remember what age she was, or who she was talking to or anything. I have other notes written in my nighttime dream tag book but I can't read them.

2. (Possible FA) I believe this dream occurred after I woke up and did SSILD. I dreamt of doing SSILD cycles in bed. (Memory blank) I'm in Chipotle standing in line with my dad, but strangely I am doing SSILD cycles with my eyes closed while standing in line? I remember having to continuously open my eyes and pause the cycles to walk forward in line.

3. This dream is somewhat personal. It's a fragmented memory of a conversation between my girlfriend and I about an issue we had earlier in the evening. I'll keep it vague but it did provide me with a way to broach the subject this morning.

Notes: Due to feeling sick, as well as relationship issues, I wasn't very motivated last night. I'm happy to report I still did MILD before bed and woke up several times during the night. I did a small MILD during one WBTB as well as SSILD at least 1 other time. I did not get lucid but I did have a dream about doing SSILD cycles.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 11:40
WBTB: 2:18, 5:30, a couple other times in the morning
Awake: 10:15
Dreams: 2
Lucids: 0

1. I woke up only 2 hours and 40 minutes after going to sleep to use the restroom and recalled fragments of this dream. I believe this is the first dream I've recalled in an earlier REM period since starting my dream journal. The first scene I remember is a sexual scene on a bus or train, where we are trying to hide what we are doing from others. (Memory Blank) The girl with whom the scene occurred and I are now in the forest by a house that is hidden from the public. I wrote down "witness protection" as a tag but do not recall where I got that from. I see her walking along a path with her friend. But the way I see her is by watching a reflection that somehow exists in the forest, although there is no mirror or other surface that could give off such a reflection. I see myself as well, and I am wearing blue jeans and white T-shirt. Her friend says she notices me immediately. I think I am a bodyguard. I don't remember anything else.

2. I am at an amusement park in this large mansion. Several of my co-workers are also there. It is a weird, horror mansion. All the works there are evil (as I found out later in the dream). I have the sense of this being a long dream and of experiencing a lot while exploring the mansion, but I don't recall details. At one point, I learn that my co-workers are looking for "treasure" that is kept in the mansion. It turns out the whole time the treasure was on the necklace worn by the woman who owns the mansion, whose room was on the top floor. It is a necklace with a ridiculously large pearl that is worth (only?) $7,000. There is a fight while my co-workers are looking for the treasure and somehow the necklace ends up on the ground. (Memory blank). Now out of the amusement park, I'm in a different location and receive a call from one of my co-workers asking about the necklace. I wake up.

Notes - Since I had insomnia the past two nights, I was very tired. I think I slept very deeply as a result and had trouble recalling my dreams. I woke up several times in the later morning hours with the feeling of having been dreaming, but could not remember. Additionally, T did not go into work this morning and she often moves around when I wake up which is distracting during recall. Furthermore, I fell asleep so quickly last night that I did not do MILD nor auto suggestion. However, I did wake up to use restroom at 2:18 and I did MILD then. After, I found it somewhat difficult to go to sleep so I was awake for about 45 minutes. Then, at a later awakening, I did a full SSILD induction after which I went to sleep but did not have a lucid dream.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Asleep: 12:45am
WBTB: 5:30am, 7:20am
Awake: 8:35am
Techs: MILD, autosuggestion, WBTB
Dreams: 3
Lucids: 0

1. (FA) I woke up at 5:30 to use the restroom. While trying to recall any dreams, I must have fallen asleep. I experienced a false awakening where I had just woken up and had to use the restroom. I stumbled into the bathroom, using my book light as a light (which is accurate to real life). It was hard to stand, and I almost fell during the act. Needless to say, my aim was poor. Then I walked back to bed and laid down. I felt one of our cats walking on my legs (we don't let our cats sleep with us anymore so this should have been a red flag!!). Then I woke up for real to use the bathroom. My aim was fine.

2. I was on a bridge with several people who I no longer remember, although I know that one person was a cast member from the TV show Homeland (Brody). I recall a scene where I attempted to army crawl under an obstruction because we were worried that the obstruction would be electrified or that during our crossing the electricity would be turned on. Once we got to the other side, there were cops and lots of people.

3. I am working in the restaurant where I currently work part-time. The time in the dream is 1:45am (which is way later than I'd ever be there in real life). The restaurant closes at 10:00am. The other closer and I are trying to get rid of our remaining guests so we can clean up and leave for the night. We are in the back, cleaning/sorting some items. When we walk to the front of the restaurant, we see that the managers have allowed another 4 tables to sit down at 1:45am!! We're obviously furious at this point. The first table I greet has a man and a woman, sitting on the same side of a booth. The man orders some weird drink that started with a K. I don't think the word made sense and I don't think it's a real drink. The drink menu had pictures and looked way different than our drink menu in real life. The woman asked for a white wine that was sour and had notes of "carrot" in it. I said I would check with the bartender. I walked over to the bartender, who was one of the bartenders from real life. She suggested one of our wines which I have now forgotten. I then walk over to the managers and start arguing with them. (Memory Blank) I walk lto the front of the restaurant which now appears to be a convenience store with aisles of items for sale? I don't remember anything after this point and it's possible that this is when I woke up at 8:35.

Notes - I had to fly this morning (private pilot) so I needed to get sleep. Since I've been experiencing insomnia the last few nights as a result of LD practice after WBTB, I decided to skip the practice this morning. I still did MILD before going to sleep and I still woke up twice last night and experienced a FA. I'm excited for tonight (Friday) since I can practice WBTB + MILD without worrying about what time I have to be up in the morning.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Sleep: 11:45
WBTB: 5:00
Awake: 8:45
Tech: MILD, Autosuggestion, WBTB + MILD
Dreams: 4 (plus one short fragment/image)
Lucids: 0

1. My first memory from this dream is "watching" my younger self play hockey (I recently found an old home-video of one of my hockey games). The jersey's and our age were identical to the home video I found. (Memory Blank) Now I am playing hockey. I believe I'm still younger than now, possibly in high school. One of my current friends is there, along with my teammates from the home video. It was so much fun to play hockey again and it felt so realistic. This was a practice session but we also did a short scrimmage, where we played a "fake game" against ourselves. I also remember a scene where I'm driving "home" with one of my teammates and his grandpa. I woke up and had to use restroom. I laid there for a moment to better recall the dream. Apparently I quickly fell asleep again.

2. I'm in the front of my old neighborhood standing on a lawn. There are a couple of large trucks around. One is even parked in the yard I'm in. I decide that before I walk the rest of the way to my house, I need to get out my journal to write down my crazy hockey dream! So, I vividly recall every detail of the dream and meticulously write it down. Out of nowhere, a truck comes barreling down the street from farther in the neighboorhood and almost hits me. I think it ran into the other truck which stopped it, but I don't remember. I wake up, frustrated, and write down what I remember from the hockey dream. I have the feeling/memory that I remembered and wrote down MUCH more about the hockey dream in this dream, but I simply can't recall those additional details.

3. I'm with T in this enclosure with an animal guide. It's a weird "natural cat enclosure". Eventually, we see a mother cat and her kitten. But something's wrong. The mother is VERY aggressive and appears to be foaming at the mouth. I realize she has rabies. I ask the guide and he very calmly confirms. The cat runs over to me. I'm trying to get away. It manages to bite/scrape me enough to draw blood. (Unfortunately I've had experience with possible rabies and the immunization process so I know that this scrape is enough to transfer the infection). I'm furious with the guide. We leave and are picked up by T's brother. As is typical for him, he's very carefree about the whole situation. He says something along the lines of "oh yeah, well you've dealt with that before right?". I wake up.

4. Sex dream.

5. I wake up at 8:45. I know I've been dreaming a long dream but I instantly am thinking about stresses of the day and I can't recall. I only have the image of exiting a front yard and walking on the sidewalk of a neighborhood.

A good night for recall but frustrating due to insomnia. Before bed, I did 15 minutes meditation, some autosuggestion, and MILD technique. Then I allowed myself to let go and go to sleep. I woke up to use restroom, and couldn't go back to sleep till around 7:00. I did do MILD during this time (not for the whole thing of course, just for a few minutes) so I still think it was a success in terms of consistency.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Sleep: 11:45pm
WBTB: 4:00am, 5:00am
Awake: 8:52
Techs: WBTB + MILD
Dreams: 3
Lucids: 0

1. (FA) After T left, I fell back asleep and had a false awakening. I "knew" that T had left, and I heard weird sounds which I interpreted in the dream as meaning that someone was breaking into our house. (the sounds might have been coming from our real noise maker now that I think about it). I ran to the closet to hide/grab a weapon. After a period of time, I felt it was safe and walked out of closet back to bed. I laid down and woke up for real.

2. My memory is hazy on this dream. I remember being with a group of friends, although I don't believe I know any of them in real life. We went to some breakfast place, I got separated, and then I was running through the city in a towel. I kept ending up in ridiculous places like our professional baseball stadium. I would walk down some public tunnel, open the door, and suddenly I'm in the stands of the stadium. So weird that those types of things don't make you question if you're dreaming. At one point, one of the ushers started laughing since I was in a towel. I ran, and jumped down the rowls/levels of seats. I guess I knew I was "dreaming" at the last second, as I wasn't scared that I was dropping down hundreds of feet about to hit the ground. Of course, prior to doing so, I woke up.

3. Fragment - I'm in a foreign country with someone. We are retreating. We have satellite footage of a bomb being dropped into this country. It was dropped on a beach, at which time someone hit it like a volley ball into the ocean. Once under water, it blew up sending a water ball/explosion that didn't do much damage. Then it exploded again in a larger blast. And it exploded once more in an even larger blast, although it didn't seem to affect the men on the ground. At this point, I woke up.

This was a frustrating night. I woke up at 4:00am randomly, but went back to sleep immediately. I had my alarm set to begin going off at 5:00am, and then every 30 minutes thereafter until I was to wake up at 8:00am. I've heard of success with this technique on the forums and I remember years ago getting random lucid moments when "snoozing" my alarm in the morning while sleeping in or while taking a long nap. However, when my alarm went off at 5:00am I had to pee. After that I could NOT go back to sleep. I laid there for an hour repeating MILD, then relaxing, meditating, etc. Nothing. Finally fell back asleep around 6:30-7:00 when T left and woke up at 9:00. My motivation is intact, but it's days like this that test your resolve.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Sleep: 11:45pm
WBTB: 2:45am, 5:00am, 6:30am
Awake: 8:00am
Tech: MILD
Dreams: 1
Lucids: 0

1. (FA) I woke up groggy and wrote tags from a recalled dream down in my dream journal.

I don't remember what tags I wrote, nor what the dream I supposedly remembered was. I need to be better about RC'ing each time I wake up to catch these FAs. Additionally, I only practiced MILD at 6:30 waking. Partly because I was very tired at 2:45 and 5:00 and partly because I didn't remember any dreams. However, I could have used a previously recalled dream so I will make sure to not waste these opportunities in the future.

COMMENTARY NON-LUCID DREAM LUCID DREAM

Sleep: 11:45pm
WBTB: 2:45am, 6:30am
Awake: 8:00am
Tech: MILD
Dreams: 2
Lucids: 1

2/6/17 -
1. My memory begins with me standing outside a building next to a man in a suit. I have the impression that he works for the government or some type of secret organization, but I do not remember why I have this feeling. The man receives a phone call, and before answering he walks down the sidewalk and into a large parking lot filled with cars. I follow him to try to listen to the phone call. When I get near the parking lot, he notices me but does not seem to mind that I am listening (perhaps we are working together?). I walk back to stand in front of the original building. Soon, he returns with an empty styrofoam container exactly like what is used for to-go food at restaurants. He is no longer on the phone. He hands me a list of items and says that "we're out of time, I need you to go buy these items now". I wake up.

I woke up from the previous dream at 6:30 as T is leaving for work. I write tags in my dream journal and say goodbye to her. I lay down and begin MILD. I repeat MILD process several times and have trouble sleeping. I decide my intention is set and stop process to allow myself to go to sleep. On several occasions, as my mind wandered near sleep, I naturally began the MILD process again, reaffirming intention and visualizing lucidity. Eventually, I must have fallen asleep. Upon waking from this next dream, I recall a blank period of sleep and then this next dream beginning.

2. I am standing in a rectangular room. There is a man in a suit standing near the far wall. He is speaking to someone on the phone and seems angry/anxious. He is holding a white paper in his hands. I remember him saying: "It's time for sacrido witness, Lincoln Burrow! At this point, I realize I'm dreaming and the feeling of "lucidity" spreads over the dream. I try to remain calm but I feel the dream fade and wake up immediately.

It felt like a FA but I RC and I am truly awake. Next time I will try to DEILD if that happens. I didn't RC to get lucid and I don't think I noticed a dreamsign or anything weird. Instead, I simply remembered from the MILD induction that this was a dream.

Normal Dreams Recalled - 2
LD Induction Method - MILD, WBTB + MILD

1. Forest and Cops
My memory begins at a supply store where I am shopping with my parents. I do not remember what supplies we were buying, nor why we were buying them. My next memory is in a forest, where my parents and I are laying out those supplies to build something. We happened to be located near an access road and a public restroom. During the set up process, I looked over to the restroom and I saw 3 police officers in the blue uniforms of a city police department getting ready to enter and 'clear' the women's restroom, with guns drawn. After clearing the restroom, they came over to talk to me. I remember there were two seats across from each other, and I sat down across from a short haired, mean-looking female police officer. She said I "looked young" and asked how old I was. (side note: in waking life I had been told the same thing at a bar when I was buying a drink earlier last night. I have a baby face so this happens frequently and is frustrating). I responded by telling her how much I hate that question and being told that I look young, and she told me that "I was being smart with her" and she got angry. (Blank memory). I left in a hurry and drove off from the forest area via the access road. (Blank memory). I woke up for real and wrote down a few key phrases/words to jog my memory of this event.

Awake, I looked at my phone. The time was 6:04, so I canceled my alarm which was set for 6:15 for a WBTB + MILD induction. My significant other, T, got up at the same time to let our cats out and we both used the restroom. Then I laid down. I was very awake, probably since I woke up 6 hours after going to sleep at the end of a cycle. I had trouble relaxing and getting tired, so I meditated on my breathing for a while. Eventually, I began my mantras/intention and I visualized the forest dream. I visualized becoming aware of how weird the scene was (context dreamsign) and I that I must be lucid and performed a nose-plug RC to verify. I continued to visualize myself performing my lucid dream goals, which were to stabilize the dream, fly, and look at myself in a mirror. At this point, I still wasn't tired so I turned over on my side and continued my breathing meditation while occasionally "renewing my mantra". Eventually, I fell asleep.

2. My memory begins with myself, T, her parents, and some friends all eating at Hooters. I ordered wings and pasta and the wings were delicious with a very distinct flavor that I cannot place. At one point, I was walking with my pasta bowl and it slipped out of my hand. The girl working there, who I think I must have known, heard it happen. I cleaned it up really quick and tried to pretend like nothing happened as there wasn't much pasta left. Nevertheless, she brought me more food without charge. Strangely, they were also doing car washes at this hooters? When leaving the restaurant, I got in the driver's seat of T's clean car with her in the passenger seat. But the car "felt wrong". First, I had my foot on the gas instead of the brake when attempting to start the car. Then, when I went to turn the car on using the ignition, I came to the crazy realization that the ignition "was installed backwards". (In real life, this car is a push-to-start button ignition so I'm not sure what this really means). In the dream, the ignition was a rod/stick much like the gear shifter in mini-vans and trucks. I had to twist this ignition system "backwards" (relative to my apparent dream expectation) to get the car to start. Additionally, we realized the "seats were also installed backwards". (I have no idea what that means outside the context of this dream). But we exited the vehicle and began to "flip/rotate" the seats. Then I woke up.

Notes - I did a MILD attempt at the beginning of the night and during the middle of the night at 6:00am. Despite not having a lucid, I feel successful in that I know I am 1 day closer to succeeding with MILD. However, I have areas for improvement. First, I would like to wake up naturally at the end of every sleep cycle for more and better MILD attempts. When my alarm goes off, if T wakes up, she is very noisy and makes returning to sleep difficult. Also, I have trouble going back to sleep occasionally if I am up for more than a few minutes, so my WBTB attempts usually need to be quick. Also, my visualization was sub par and I got distracted frequently. I need to continue on a specific visualization and do so right before falling asleep instead of completing my mantra and visualization and then lying in bed for a while before sleeping. Overall, I'm happy with my dream recall. Despite only remembering 2 dreams, I got more detail from these two dreams than any of the previous 5 days that I have been keeping a journal.

For tomorrow, I will use intention while falling asleep to remember all dreams and to wake up at the end of every sleep cycle. I think these are important first steps in succeeding with MILD.

Dreamsigns -
Set up in forest with parents - Context Dreamsign
Drove off leaving cop - Action Dreamsign
Carwash at Hooters - Context Dreamsign
Car Felt wrong - Inner Awareness / Form Dreamsigns
Ignition Installation - Form Dreamsign
Car seats - Form Dreamsign