non-lucid

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1/11/11
Nonlucid
I was waking up in a hotel bed. I didn’t know where I was but I was still sleepy and maybe I just needed to wake up a bit. I noticed a woman was in the room with me but was not seen. I looked outside the wide balcony window and saw a large beach. The beach was unusually wide from the shore back to the hotel where I was. It was so wide I could not see the waves for the bump of the beach’s overall shape. I saw a tall tower on the beach that looked like a scaffold covered in black clothe. There was a horn blast from the area like an air horn. I focused on the area more and my vision zoomed to the area much closer. There was another horn blast and a silver fireworks stream shot up into the sky not too high. The firework did a circle in the sky and then fell to the ground, several fireworks circled or spiraled up into the air like this as I watched. I remember hoping no one was hit by the falling still sparkling fireworks but they always fell between people.

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Journalizing has helped me make my dream world much more active and helped me get closer to a reoccurring short haired girl but with an unintended consequence, the power of intention. I have been thinking of the short haired girl a lot in order to pull her into me dreams more but this has also brought girls like her into my life. Usually I see maybe one short haired girl a month today I saw 4 and they were in my face too and that's not counting the blond with short hair that kept walking in front of me!


Dream 1: Telekinesis
Nonlucid
We were sitting at tables like those in a high school classroom and this guy, a table away, wanted me to pass a folded piece of paper to the girl between us. She was facing away from him. He held it up for me to reach way over and get but I realized this was not the waking world and focused to use my telekinesis (TK) and raised my hand to better focus my TK for the small movements that would be needed. Then he looked at me like “Well? Take it!” I used the TK to lift it out of his hand and into hers. He was shocked and his hand just stayed like he still had the paper note in it while he hung his mouth open in awe. The girl was like “what’s this?”

Dream 2: Remember this?
nonlucid
I was in my old job hating it.
Upon waking I realized that all the things in the dream I had forgotten while I am transitioning between careers. Now I remember all of the things that lead me to change careers in the first place! Thanks dream world!

As I read some of the DJs I always read about zombies and they seem pretty common, so much so that I think "oh not more zombies!" I haven't had a zombie dream in a very very long time. So wouldn't you know that my dream world would have to bring on the zombies.

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Drewam 1: Zombie Apocalypse
Nonlucid
I am walking to a road in a big city with a guy thats a buddy of mine [never seen him before] and on the other side is our female buddy. She has a few guns on her to keep the zombies off but we have nothing. We are trying to get across this heavily traveled highway to her. Apparently it was the start of a zombie apocalypse which had zombies on the street walking around but people still drove in their cars. She waited for us to get to the intersection but for some reason we thought it was dangerous to cross. She didn't want to move much or yell cuz the zombies wouldn't attack unless you looked lively. She yelled at us to moon the cars, to get them to slow down for us, so we could cross. This sounded strange to us and I looked at the other guy with a scrunched up face and we shook our heads as our hands were on out pants. She then yelled and waved her hands in frustration and we felt guilty enough to dodge the traffic but when we got to the other side her waving had attracted several zombies. She waited till they got close and put a shot gun up to their faces and BOOM BOOM, click click BOOM, and their zombie heads were vaporized by the blasts. While I was in a little shock and my ears were ringing she yanked my friends arm "come on!" BOOM, shot one square in the chest, "click click". The shooting was attracting a lot more zombies and we ran for it. Unlike the movies though these guys ran too, well slow running but still. Soon there was a mob behind us of at least a hundred. We ran to a building's doorway where its a safe-house but you are supposed to enter slowly so zombies don't follow you. Apparently zombies don't open doors and search around, they just walk around unless they see a meal. For us there were 200 zombies behind us! We ran in and up a hallway to the 2 hardened steal doors at the end, the zombies couldn't get in at all. The people on the other side were not happy with our huge zombie posse but they were ready for this but they would also have to clear them out at some point. We left their glaring eyes and walked up a hallway. The girl with the guns broke off and went into a room inside a room cuz the zombies would never go in there and they could jump out the windows if things got crazy. Me and the guy decided to find the exit on the other side of the building.
Once out into a hall way there were 2 zombies coming towards us as we lightly ran. He had a knife on his belt which the zombies grabbed at. We then ran faster till we were outside. There were 2 zombies out here and they look surprised to see us. There was a huge chain-link fence (20 feet high). This was good because zombies were the slowest climbers and would probably fall. He pulled out a grappling gun that was spring loaded, he hit back end of it on the ground and the hook shot in the air and over the fence connected by a black rubber rope. I jumped on the fence but couldn't get a hand hold on the fence and a zombie was right next to me. He looked at me unsure how to get a jumping target. I got a hand on the fence and climbed up. My friend was over it already when I got to the top. I saw it was a double fence with an inner fence so zombies would fall between them if they could ever got to the top. I couldn't span it either so I shook the fence till it fell down a bit and jumped to the ground.
On the inside was a zombie free enclosure where people were playing baseball.


Dream 2: Florida House
Not very lucid but with extreme vividness.
I came home to my house which was a single level ranch in Florida [I've seen them and they a very common little white houses made out of cinder-blocks]. I walked into the garage which didn't have the car in it cuz I could pull the car in the neighbors driveway cuz that house was vacant for years and I could pull my car around into my driveway facing the street [I saw myself doing this]. Once inside the very clean and kind of new garage, I found a piece of paper on the floor and picked it up and took it to the garbage pail. Once there I saw that the cabinet was open and there was a piece of paper on a shelf. It was a sticky note of the contact info for a scam artist. 3 thoughts shot through my head, call the number from a payphone and find out what it was about or throw it away. As I reached my arm out to drop it in the pail I thought that I should report this scammer to authorities.
Satisfied I started to walk away but saw my old humming bird feeder in the garbage too. I thought to leave it but I actually felt sad to do that so I took it out and put it back on the shelf. Another thought shot through my head, "we are what we have." I felt proud of myself for having achieved something. I felt that I had finally became who I wanted to be.
Upon awakening I remembered I had this dream twice before. It was exactly the same place and each time felt like the only time during the dream. One dream had me deciding to call the scam artist and another had me throwing the info away. This one I cared about other people and decided to help. Did I set up a test for myself to see if I would do this? I have had 2 other "test" dreams something like this.

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I am only recording memorable dreams in part to encourage myself to have more of them and because there is no real reason for me to record unremarkable dreams at this point.

December 12, 2010: Waves of Times
Nonlucid for the most part
I was walking along near a stand of trees that were planted in rows. They were young trees evenly spaced and stood like they had been set to a grid pattern. Besides them was a small clearing where bright green grass that has been newly planted carpeted the ground. Here was a picnic table. I felt this loose feeling when time begins to become unhinged in the dream. Then a there was a guy sitting at the table looking lonely, he seemed to be missing his son. I floated over to him and when I looked at him from the back a library started to form around this whole site. A library replaced the small stand of trees. I looked around and waves of times washed through my vision. This looked like sections of instances in time; nighttime, early morning, people walking in the library, no one in the library, kids running around in the library, a librarian quietly putting books back; all in sections as they passed before me right to left. Then the lonely man was seated here again at a table. A shift in time slid by and in it I saw him happily reading a book to his young boy.

December 13, 2010: An Unrelated Narrator
Nonlucid mostly.
I was just wandering around but there was this guy narrating a story that had nothing to do with what I was seeing. I knew the story was totally different from what I was seeing and that the two where not connected. The story made perfect sense and was about some guy doing something unremarkable as far as I can remember. I remember following the story to see if this story was going to make any sense and surprisingly it did.

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Dream 1 : Gotcha! But Not This Time!
Nonlucid
I was in a very short parking garage it was about a yard (meter) high. I felt like I couldn't stand and had to do everything on my side in order to move. It was dark and scary and when I came to the end these monster things wanted to fight me. That's when I remembered this place, it was a long time ago and I had a terrible time getting back out. So I reversed direction and moved back to the entrance. Every now an then a totally black glob thing came out of the shadows and slashed a sharp sickle at me. I would dodge him and just knew he couldn't out smart me. I remembered last time I was here he kept getting me and when I got out I was holding my gut with blood gushing out wondering how long I could stay conscious in order to get help and if I would even live. This time I slipped out easily and felt like I had passed some kind of test of my mind. Afterward I looked around and saw it was night and there was a will lit city around this place with a all Chinese people walking around it.

Dream 2 : Money In Your Face
Nonlucid
There are these 2 guys talking and I am holding a cashiers money draw that they take out from the registers. One guy is discussing something most and then he gets louder. Then he comes over to me and hits the draw up into my face but before it hits I wake up startled.


Dream 3 : Whirlwind
Nonlucid
I am at a dusty place where there is a whirlwind close by. I am not frightened at all and the whirlwind come to me. As it comes overhead I wake up realizing that my head was starting to whirl around in the direction of the whirlwind!

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Dream 1 : A Girl Gets Her Retail On
Nonlucid
I come into work at a large retail store. [1, I do not really work at this place or at retail. 2, I am not this person. 3, This person is a short girl with short black hair while I am tall with brown hair and a guy!] I go over to my work pals but they are brooding over their lots in life as usual. I on the other hand, happily stroll over to the cash register area where there is a mannequin stand. I decide to make a design using shoes! [Her perkiness at this job would have driven me mad.] Using a semicircle of shoes with our new red shoes in the center, and in a whimsical stance, I figure I have created an advertisement design for our store and am so excited that I want to show our supervisors! [I worked retail in real life but I purposely never showed any initiative lest I started to actually feel like I belonged in the soul-crushing job that it was] Not seeing any supervisors, I ran to my coworkers in the excitement but they just gave me that sarcastic look. So I walked off to find something else to do.
What really surprised me in the dream was that my height was so short, I had so much less vision over things than I usually do.
As for the girl I have seen her before in my dreams. One night while lucid I decided to look into a mirror (always a wild idea with interesting results) what I saw was this good looking girl with short hair looking back like "hello this is me!" She was the bubbly energetic type and I am pretty sure that person in the mirror could actually see me! I was too weirded out by this and woke up.

She is not the only possibly alternate self I have come across though just the latest.

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Probably due to my desire and attempts to recreate my whole dreaming experience I am having a dry spell of lucidity.

Dream 1: The Pyramid Scheme & The Circular College
Nonlucid
I am watching gaunt model types walk into this agency. This is the 1980's and this is a sham modeling agency running a pyramid scheme in talent and money and apparently run by me! I am both the "star" and the viewer. As the dream unfolds I realize that the agency is run as a huge talent agency for aspiring models but actually I am faking it all even to the point of having models come in, disguise themselves, and come in again to show a lot of activity since investors are spying on our agency before they invest. The girls, the huge sums of investors and their money, the wild parties and nightlife all to get more money to make more of an agency. However I realized that once the money got to a million the agency would become real with the hottest talents and the worlds best photographers. I started to think this was actually a good idea! and the thoughts shot back "sure it is, girls and money, come on!" Then I was shocked to see that there was no accounting for anything! They were taking in huge sums of money from all over the world and there was zero accounting, it was all done on the fly. I thought "I could see me doing that [if I was like this at this time in history]."
Then I walked away from the only book they had, which was a partially used appointments book for their fake office, into the larger part of the building. The hallway led to a large circular building. Towards what would be the center of this building was a huge and strange classroom. Picture a tube 12 stories high with seating on the insides of the tube's walls. In the center was a circular tower of podiums for instructors, huge viewing screens, and whiteboards, periodically at different stories of height. This was all in a nice calming cream color. Hundreds could participate in this mega-classroom. The seating looked precarious on such a steep wall so I had to try it. It had a slight incline so I could walk out to a seat. Awesome view that felt like floating and no one need be in front of you. There were only a few students sitting here and there since there was no class at this time, they were just using it as a quiet study area.


Later in the day I tried a short nap to try to take hold of the dream world some more.

Dream 2: The Park!
I was fully aware but entering a dream as colors started to form and I could see a park bench and some grass. The grass was super green and everything was unreal-clear and crisp and I thought "this is The Park!" I refer to a park I have heard and read about and been too but never lucid. This is the legendary park which supposedly so many people go to when they die and when they are dreaming or having out of body experiences. Not only is it a well known mecca but is also supposed to be built by the also legendary Lumanians (ultra/ultra long story). Anyway I really wanted to explore this place and have plans on what to look for here when I do explore this place. As I expanded my consciousness the visions dissolved and I lost a connection with it all. I was not upset as I knew that would not help my focus.
Still in the darkness another dream image started to form but again the same thing happened. Then I heard voices getting louder as from a far distance and as I started to try to become my full self but again, they too faded away. I grasped in the darkness with my consciousness, I felt as if I was supposed to hold onto something but I didn't know what it was so I couldn't grasp it and hold the dream together. If you are reading this and you know what that thing is, please tell me otherwise I think its probably just a metaphor for something I have to do. What this thing is I will have to find out.

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This is the second night of trying to change the whole dream world to one that is less chaotic and works for me helping out my waking life. I had even less luck tonight than last but the weirdness is definitely growing.

Dream 1: Body Parts
Nonlucid
I am in some woods in a fall-like time of year. I see some people at a distance but they walk away and I figure these must be the people that have the bird disease [I was thinking you get it from chickens and that it can kill you, especially kids]. I kept walking and came to a house which was abandoned. For some reason I started to rip the metal gutters off the roof to reclaim the metal. When I looked at the twisted metal on the ground I thought it looked like bodies which it became, a lot of bloody body parts. I figured these were the dead people from the disease. I thought that I should trow all this mess in my trunk and head out.
I flew over highways half believing that I was in a car. I came to a bridge were people were swimming under it in the water of the river, something like under a bridge in new york city [though I have NEVER seen anyone in that water, it doesn't have a nice reputation for cleanliness]. I went in the water with some people. It was nice under the shadow of the bridge but I soon got bored and flew out over to a dirt road leading to a junk yard's gated entrance-way. I thought about turning around and getting those body parts out of my trunk but I explored a bit more instead. I jumped up next to the large chain-link fence and found I was practically weightless. I jumped some more and thought "wow this is some kind of super power I have to explore, after I get those body parts out of my trunk." Then I started to think were would be a good place to dump body parts.
I woke up kind of creeped out and turned on my TV while still very groggy. The first thing I saw was this on Dr. Oz's show. "uh precognitive..." was all I could grumble.

Dream 2 (nap): Race
Passive Observer [a term I heard someone else use and its a very good term, it like when you are watching the dream on TV.]
There was a foot race of boys at a high school on the school's track. It was one of those events where no one is running really hard because there's nothing at stake. The boys were running and the view stuck to one boy. As the boys come to a bend in the track there is a referee in that black pants and striped black and white shirt getup of a ref. As they pass him the "star" of this dream-show says to the ref "I can even pass you in my shorts!" [apparently some kind of funny insult at the boy being so much faster than the older ref. Then the ref taking the challenged started running too. There was a few runners with the ref in the middle of them.

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During the day I had some emotional but fun situations where I would have loved to have been in a situation like this before and tried different things out. Then I realized I got the idea to use my dream world more. My dream world may be nearly perfect but my waking life has a lot of areas where I would like to see improvements. The dream world is a lot like Star Treks holo-deck, I can make it what I need and try things out there, in complete safety, and I even have a panic button. I was determined to recreate the dream world to meet my waking life needs.

Upon dreaming I had 3 totally underwhelming dreams and I was not lucid in any of them to any degree.

Dream 1: The Garden and a Patdown
There was this large forest and gardens but to get into it you first had to go through a security room that looked like a torture room from a video game. In the room you got a patdown and then were free to go int the forested garden area. The forestgarden was nothing special and I just looked around and talked to people. Upon leaving I was patted down again.

I had 2 other dreams of talking to people about useless things which I will not bore you with.

Reflections:
I realized that in order to create a task in my dream world I am going to have to try to focus my thoughts before sleep to more of a self help feeling. I order to go to sleep easily and have good dreams I focus on anything I want as long as they are positive and simple. But what I need to do is focus more on fixing and growing and less on having a good dreaming experience. No wonder I am bored with my dream life, I have made it so… well to use a British phrase, pedestrian (not British, not that there's anything wrong with that ). It reminds me of what I heard Dr. Who say “You make all of space and time your back yard and what do you have? A backyard.” I have to make it more than a backyard and I have all this control, I need to use it! I never thought of using the dream world like a tool but I am now determined to. So my new dream goal is to make my dream life to serve me waking life's needs. So far, not so great…hmmm wish me luck

A whole LOT of dream time this night, maybe 3 hours. I got to sleep on time but was tired.

I also think my dreams have been influenced by the news events lately, I have to stop watching the news...

Dream 1 : Teaching My Dog and Cat to Hunt.
Nonlucid
I was out in my backyard and the dog and cat were back there sniffing the ground and stuff as usual but then I saw there was a rabbit between them but they didn't seem to see it! I ran out into the yard and called them over to the rabbit and said "go get it!" a few times. After a bit they got the idea and started to chase it. They caught it and just stood there with their heads down like they were biting at it or something.

Dream 2 : Pink Shirts and Bomb Making
This is a very long dream which I will shorten to get to the best parts.
Partial lucidity
I was coming out from an alleyway and there were a lot of shops here along the street but they were closed and had a strange chain-link type of fencing over them. It was on a small hill and i walked down the hill to a parking lot where it leveled off. I looked at some of the cars here and then an old Italian American type guy came up to me and started asking things about my interest in the car. I was not at all interested in him OR the car and said "no thanks" and walked off.
There was a shop nearby which I walked into and people were sorting electrical stuff from these hand sized bins. I walked around pretending I worked there but really just exploring.
Then I noticed this guy on a step ladder had a pink shirt and black tie. I was taken back by that, and though I said nothing, they heard my thoughts. The guy with the pink shirt looked down at his shirt and looked annoyed and then somehow ripped his shirt off single-handedly tie and all. Then I saw three more guys behind him, also wearing the same things, do the same.
As I walked around I watched them all working but one guy seemed to be sneaky and I thought he was trying to put together parts to make a bomb. I followed him to his work station but the parts there could never make anything much less a bomb.

Dream 3: Taking Down the School
Lucidity was maybe 80%. I knew it was a dream but my mind was not focused clearly.
I found myself in a school. At first I was not sure where I was and had to walk around to get a feel for the place. Every place has a feel for what it is. I was in a middle school office. It was a large office with a big section for seating and kids to play on the floor. A couple of middle schoolers sat in the seats while about 4 younger kids played on the floor. I walked around and got a feeling there was a hostage situation. I didn't get how that could be, the dream world almost never has a staged one time event like that, usually ongoing events that anyone can join at any time and fit right in. Still no one was leaving the school at all so I decided to take a look around.
While contemplating what I wanted to seem like (whether I wanted people to see me as a teacher, school administration, a visitor, or even a student) two boys walked by with one hanging onto the hoody of the one in front of him trying to walk away. Bullying! I stepped out the door and said "You two! In here." and they meekly walked inside the office area. Another office woman came up behind me and said "thanks" smiling. I could feel that she thought I was a teacher so I figured that's what I'll be.
I walked around and around, through halls and rooms, sometime they paid me attention sometimes not but no one seemed to feel like there were hostages anywhere so I took the long walk back up to the front of the school. I sat in a office across the way with those window-walls where the top is glass and the bottom is a very short wall. I thought if I could make all the windows break then everyone would have a reason to leave and then at least if there was a danger they would be safe. I used my telekinesis to pull on the windows but they didn't break or even rattle. This was really weird, actually impossible, how come the windows were resisting my powers without even trying? So I tried again even harder this time, still nothing. Then I noticed there was a door, and part of its doorway, that had warped towards me. No one noticed the door or my gesturing, I needed to do more, much more. I pulled hard on the door and everything around it, then looked. The door was way out of shape and the ceiling was bending down and towards me and still no one was noticing me as I sat amongst other people in this office. I went all out, using two hands I telekinetically pulled a huge amount of the building, bringing the ceiling way over and half the school and it was beginning to look like it may collapse as there were snapping and cracking noises! I didn't want to become a victim of my own success so this damage would have to do but no one noticed a thing. This is not strange since dreamers usually don't notice anything is strange till they wake up, just last night I dremn't of serving lunch in a shoe and thought nothing about it. I would have to start something, so I got up and said "We have to leave!" while thinking about the ceiling caving in. Three people noticed me and turned their heads as I spoke. They started leaving and then other followed them, we were all headed out! I held back from the doors a bit, the trouble makers should not be the first one out. I just thought they might know me or what I did; when your lucid you find it hard to think that others are not. On my way out the door I tried to hold the door for others but there were people who felt they were in charge doing that and the administrative type holding the door didn't let me hold it so I walked with the others. Everyone was grouping up outside like during a fire drill which is what it felt like and I felt that most people thought it was. I stood by a couple of women at the far end of the school and feeling pretty good about my mass exit I decided to say "wow they did a great job [getting everyone out] didn't they?" They agreed and one woman in a slight German accent said "yes." I looked at the side of the school and it was straight not bent over like I thought it should be.

Lucid
Dream1: Uncles Will
I become aware that I am in someones driveway standing next to an old white car (1970's type maybe). I've never seen this house or car before. A man comes to me and starts talking. I really don't care because although he may look like my uncle he's more than likely just a dreamer* and besides the dream world is much more interesting. He continues to talk to me as I pay him no attention and start exploring. I see some potted plants and pick one up to take a closer look, some of these dream environments can be so intricate. It looks like a poorly taken care of bonsai tree with a pool of water in its pot. I look up across the back yard, beside us and the car, and wonder what it all looks like and then I fly up and very very slowly flying towards the street. As I do I look down, I'm not up too high at all and I take the planter I still have and pour the water down to the ground where this guy (still talking) and his stuff is. This is fascinating to see how I am flying, back to the sky face down, and the water falls down to the ground and splashes. My supposed uncle is not happy now and starts saying he is going to leave me out of his will and that I am not going to get this silver pitcher he has placed down onto the cement driveway. I get really angry at his cheap attempt to insult me and control me with these paltry trinkets. I fly down to the ground and go over to his little silver pitcher and say "you can take your pitcher" then I kick it into his car "and shove it up your ass!" He looks at me completely shocked, his eye wide and his mouth hanging open. I just stood there waiting for whatever he had to say to that.

Nonlucid
Dream 2 fragment: The 10 Story High School
I am running around in this huge HS. I've been here before and realize that I am not a student here but seem to have some important stuff to run around and do. My female friend (not from real life) tries to keep up with me as I run around trying to figure something out. Its hard for her to keep up since I am the only one flying or sliding down stair handrails (the school is very crowded and it seems everyone is ALWAYS on their way to class so I use the handrails as a short cut).
I've been to this school 4 times before but in the past it was much more detailed and partially lucid.


During a nap today (45 min).
I had 2 dreams both nonlucid and both as if I was viewing a TV show.

Dream 3: After School Show
It was a crappy kids show where the actors are lame and so's the acting. I wished it was over and the ending came as they all came together and sang a lame ending song about how they all get along and play fair. I marveled at how 28 year olds could play 16 year olds and still be on TV every day.

Dream 4: Cooking Show & Shoes
This was a cooking show like Rachel Ray but for kids with the same "its a cooking show but we do a lot of non-cooking things too" theme. The girls on the show where preparing lunch which for each of them (4) was different. The leader of the show then said "now lets use our place-mats!" They then put their bowls and cups into the foot hole in shoes! Each shoe pointed in the other direction but side by side with the food sticking out of the shoe or ever fluffy bedroom slippers. They then carried them from the kitchen to the circular table.
I woke and was like "wtf?" Not only were the shoe place-mats weird but the fact that I didn't think it was weird in the dream!


* I refer to DC's as dreamers a lot because I see them as people dreaming wondering the dream world. They act out living at home, being at work, or whatever they usually do. These dreamers are different than what I call "replicants" these are characters created by my mind and are linked to me by my attention. The difference is one is a real person sleeping at home and the other is a drem't up facsimile of a person, animal, or thing. I can sometimes feel the difference between them but the real test is to take your attention away from them completely and then see if they are still there. If they are gone they were a replicant. This has helped me a lot since I would always wined up looking for something I just had since as soon as I took my attention away it was not there any more.

Dreamers can vanish as well but usually under extreme emotional stress. Rarely I have caught them vanishing while interacting with them but just before they do they stop talking, or whatever, and look like they have just remembered something. The next instant they are not there. There's no "poof" or nothing just vacancy. It's a bit of a shock to NOT see someone in an instant.