Roses

(i wrote this two days ago -march 30, 2011- on an e-mail to a someone, so i'll just copy and past what i wrote onto here...)

i had another nightmare with the nap i took earlier ...
it was so bad that i woke up screaming (literally) and i jumped half up on the bed throwing the cover off of me...
i usually don't wake up screaming , that's only happen about 2 maybe 3 times..
so in my "dream" , i'm falling... off a building , i'm free falling down, down, down, everything is dark around me,
all a sudden i realize i'm dreaming , but i can't take control of it.. instead of 3rd person vision, i have 1st person ... so it feels more real
i can feel the wind against my skin, i can feel my heart pounding out of my chest, i look into the sky, it was so graphic... so vivid, every detail ,
the way the clouds parted and this big ball of yellow light shined down.. and a hugeeeeee ray of light light up that part of the sky ,,
but it got dark again.. the clouds closed ,,... all i see is dark , then.. it happen again , sleep paralysis , i see someone next to me ,
long arms, no face, but it made really ugly sounds i don't even know how to describe it ?
i said a phrase inside my mind , and it only made the 'thing' worse .. i felt something pull me so hard from my arm ,
i almost felt like i was going to fall off the bed .. that's when i got mad , real mad and woke up screaming and jumping up...
it bothered me for a little while , but i just shrugged it off and took a shower..