Roses

This morning I had a dream in which I spoke to a character from it. He was male, no one I recognized, but I asked him, "Are we dreaming?" He replied, "Yes." I asked him if he was real and his response again was, "Yes." All of a sudden there is a little girl that comes from behind a shed and draws closer to us. We both know she is evil - we can sense the danger in the energy around us. For a split second I almost considered running away from her, but then I felt comfort knowing I had a "friend" with me (the male that told me he was "real") .. So I gain the courage to face this little girl, that had short black hair, covering her face.. one of her eyes peek out and pierce though mine... I then feel my body become really strong not physically but rather like a mass of energy force around me. This energy around me was so strong that the moment I got close to the little "evil" girl, I screamed really loud, looking at her straight in the face. She disappears. I gain some level of control that I can fly, so I jump up and play around with that for a short while, which was pretty cool, but then my dream changed all of a sudden... and I'm in this house watching this man beat on a girl, she's tied up and I want to help her. I try to run in the room to save her and I ended up getting captured too. I tell someone that I need to use the bathroom, so I lock myself in the bathroom and look into the mirror. I wasn't sure if I was awake or still dreaming. When I looked at my reflection it was the same, I looked normal. So I thought, "I must be awake??!?" I was becoming really uncomfortable, I started to ask myself, "Am I stuck inside this dream????" The man that had accompanied me earlier all of a sudden was with me again inside the bathroom, I looked at his face and then the dream changes again. We are inside another house having tea, lol. Little purple tea-cups that were placed on black velvet lace cloth decorations. There were candles in the room, white candles. He disappears with a woman that shows up... I'm left alone again, wondering if I'm still asleep or if I'm dreaming..? Dream changes yet again, I'm outside, laying in the grass, looking at the sky, it's dark out, it's night time... there's not a star in sight......... And then, I wake up (in reality), followed by a hugeeeeeeee headache.

(i wrote this two days ago -march 30, 2011- on an e-mail to a someone, so i'll just copy and past what i wrote onto here...)

i had another nightmare with the nap i took earlier ...
it was so bad that i woke up screaming (literally) and i jumped half up on the bed throwing the cover off of me...
i usually don't wake up screaming , that's only happen about 2 maybe 3 times..
so in my "dream" , i'm falling... off a building , i'm free falling down, down, down, everything is dark around me,
all a sudden i realize i'm dreaming , but i can't take control of it.. instead of 3rd person vision, i have 1st person ... so it feels more real
i can feel the wind against my skin, i can feel my heart pounding out of my chest, i look into the sky, it was so graphic... so vivid, every detail ,
the way the clouds parted and this big ball of yellow light shined down.. and a hugeeeeee ray of light light up that part of the sky ,,
but it got dark again.. the clouds closed ,,... all i see is dark , then.. it happen again , sleep paralysis , i see someone next to me ,
long arms, no face, but it made really ugly sounds i don't even know how to describe it ?
i said a phrase inside my mind , and it only made the 'thing' worse .. i felt something pull me so hard from my arm ,
i almost felt like i was going to fall off the bed .. that's when i got mad , real mad and woke up screaming and jumping up...
it bothered me for a little while , but i just shrugged it off and took a shower..

So I woke up from my afternoon nap and... this is what I remember from my dream.
I was in a room with some people 2 of them I had my attention on (these 2 were evil) , everyone else I couldn't really see their faces..
I just knew there were lots of people around... One of the characters in my dream his face took shape of a demon ,
His face floated in fire and then got a bunch of holes in it, his eyes were hollow and black... his smile was really sinister..
For some reason I felt attraction to this "creature" and I got close to him trying to touch him...
This other Demon got angry at me , I got really scared by his presence... his energy alone was very powerful.
I looked at him a Demon dressed in black robes... He was very tall, veryyyyyyy huge... kind of like a juggernaut.
He was upset with me for paying attention to his minion who I was trying to show compassion to...
He thought I was trying to change him from evil to good, which made him want to punish me for that.
I remember him shoving me into a pool in the shape of a square that was filled with lard, I was isolated in the corner of this pool...
I started freaking out, but I don't remember ever crying....
All of a sudden I'm back with this minion , talking to him asking him, "Why?" But it's like we were having a conversation
with out moving our mouths... telepathically. I don't remember his response to the question, I think my dream ended or I just don't recall the rest...,
I then...woke up (in real life)
That's all I remember.

When I woke up from a nap this afternoon I was in that half awake / half asleep zone... (sleep paralysis)
I started to feel these hands touching my body, I'm not even sure they were in the "shape" of hands , but
I could feel some kind of energy rubbing on me and touching me.
I felt something hold my shoulders down, I felt something else start to touch my breast...and then I felt something
scratching at my thighs....... all at the same time... I started to feel very VERY UNCOMFORTABLE.. In my head ,
I recognized what I was going through was just sleep paralysis, even still though I got this wave of anger all of a sudden
I felt a hand reach for my hand and squeezed mine really hard..
This is when I was able to shift my eyes to the left to look to the side of me and I saw the face of what looked like a blob of energy of dark green and black ,
but then I saw this shape take form and it looked like this animal here

In my head I started to pray (it was comforting at the time for me to do this) ... I prayed and prayed , but it didn't go away , until the 3rd prayer ..
everything stopped and I snapped out of that zone I was in and I "fully" woke up.......
This is about the 4th time or so that I see an entity that looks just like that (demon hound)
Other times I've heard it growl and other times I've felt like I was being bitten on my ribs..... over and over...
When I "fully" woke up I felt really uncomfortable and violated....
It felt all so real, I could literally feel all this .. and actually "see" it...
It probably didn't even last longer than 30 seconds, but at the time, it felt like forever.

Last night I had a dream in which I remember becoming aware that I was in a dream, but I didn't have any control over anything.
I remember wanting to hide away from people because I had to go take something out of my mouth, I kept hesitating to look at myself in the mirror,
because I was afraid of how my reflection would look.
I don't remember the details of how my face looked, all of a sudden the only thing I could see was the inside of my mouth.
2 of my teeth became really really small and crushed until I spit them out after that , this white substance almost like gum or laffy taffy kept growing
along every angle of my gums, I had to keep pulling at it to take it off and no matter how much I pulled to take the peices out of my mouth
more and more kept coming back , it was never ending !!

I tried a google search for the "meaning" behind this.
And after several years, I finally found some what of an answer that perhaps makes some sense out of this strange re-occuring dream.
(Yes , I've had this same dream many times through out my life)

So anyways, what I read was this dream could mean that I hold back a lot on what I'm trying to say , that there are things in my life I want to say ,
but I just don't know how to say them or get my feelings across.... so I'm trapped in a vicious cycle of keeping my thoughts to myself and keeping my mouth shut.
Another interpretation was that perhaps I'm getting rid of all the negative energy inside me, by pulling it out....

And it's funny because it is in fact hard for me to talk "in real life" I always hold back the things I want to say...
Because I'm really shy person and I think too much before I say something..
so in the end, I usually keep my thoughts to myself....

Has anyone else had this dream?

Last night I had a dream in which I only remember small pieces from it. I remember laying down on an unfamiliar bed, in a room I don't remember any details about it, but I do know that it wasn't my room. So anyways, I'm laying down at this bed and I "wake-up (inside the dream)" to a swan coming out from behind my pillow , this swan seemed to be very hostile...



I remember for a small moment I had control of the dream and I told myself I didn't want to look at this swan anymore, it was making me very uncomfortable. So then I remember looking up at the wall and the ceiling changed to an arrangement of beautiful stars and constellations.



That is all what I remember...

I don't even know where to begin, this has never happen to me before, not like this.... ! It was SO CRAZY .. !

I am in a dream , sleeping .. dreaming .. turns into a nightmare , I am in this group of people going to meet the devil , but in my dream I kept referring to him as Lucifer.
I look into the sky and there are minions flying everywhere spitting out fire balls on the ground...



I look at the center of the field and I see this "Lucifer" being ,,
he's dark purple in color , long black horns ,, has hooves for feet ...



and in an instant everyone around me dies when he snaps his fingers they all burst into fire
and die...



I am standing alone ,, looking around at the floor ...dead bodies everywhere... Lucifer tries to take me... reaching his hand out for me,, but I don't want to go ! I won't go!



So I'm in this dream/nightmare, but I start having conscious thoughts like when you're awake and can talk to yourself inside your mind .. I was able to do this in my dream , becoming "Lucid"
and can hear a small voice inside me saying , "Don't panic, but.. get out of here now!!" I push off the ground and start to fly !



I am then taken to so many beautiful scenaries , but the scene keeps changing ... fast ! I'm in one place, then another, then another ! All so beautiful !! So CAPTIVATING !
I saw this ocean surrounded by beautiful mountains it was breath taking , I could feel myself getting too excited , I started to fly , faster .. faster and faster !



Then ,, I started losing control of the dream a lil bit...

I could feel my heart beat start to race really really fast ,, complete and total adrenaline rush !! I don't know if I just had the sensation of that in the dream or if that was happening in real time, real life...
but however, just to be safe I still I thought to myself "I have to go back I don't want to give myself a heart attack in my sleep?!"



I can feel I'm flying still (in the dream) , then all a sudden I'm in 2 places at once .. this lucid dream ,, then I can feel myself laying on my bed asleep at the same time!



Then those visuals of flying come to an end , everything changes...



My whole room becomes dark , (by the way my eyes are still closed , but I can still see everything with my minds eye I guess they call it )..



So... my bed starts spinning and sinking simultaneously .. !!
All I begin to see is me sinking further and further into my bed, like free falling down...down...down... it seemed to never stop,, I don't know if I was excited or scared, I think a little of both !



Either-way I was getting nervous cause it felt like I was about to black out and I was afraid of where this next dream would take me ,, so I finally snap out of it and I make myself
wake up in the physical world....



I still have that vision in my head, the visuals were just WOW intense & mind-blowing ,, it was all so detailed, so vivid, sinking in the bed, so graphic , it's like my bed was melting into the ground ,
I was still me I was able to have my conscious thoughts it was I guess a type of sleep paralysis , asleep , but awake at same time...

I hadn't had a crazy dream experience in about a month and a half, I thought maybe all of it stopped , but I guess not.. this experience though , which was a lil terrifying ,
was still kinda cool .. I think ..