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Dream Journal #29, June 6th 2011

Well, took a break from lucid dreams/dream journaling for a while.. and just had the most vividest dream yet.

I remember chunks of parts but somehow they don’t connect, the dream scene just seems to change kind of and so does the plot, but this is all in one REM period.

It starts off with me tying my shoelaces to get ready for a basketball game, and it’s like a big game, not just a regular street game. Its in an indoor court. Then all of a sudden I’m in a car with ellean, with me driving like crazy to try to lose this guy who’s trying to chase me. I do twists and turns and eventually park in a store parking lot and go inside, thinking I lost this guy. I end up seeing his car right in the same parking lot, and the guy inside the store. We both freak out, but it turns out he doesn’t know who was driving the car, he just knows that he had to take that car down. So as soon as he isn’t looking, we get back into the car and take off. We lose him. Then, seeking shelter, we go to norm’s place, his old house in Garden Grove. We see a bunch of people there working like it’s a refuge place.. and we go inside his garage to see piles of marijuana everywhere. Turns out norm is a drug dealer lol. We just stare at amazement, and we talk about stuff, but I forgot what we talked about. I then see him run out of the backyard, and burn all his marijuana, we were like WTF and we run to the smoke to inhale it all lol. Then we realize that these cop-like people (similar to the one chasing us) had discovered the house and was arresting people. These cops are bad guys, as in dictator-controlled bad guys who were trying to take over the world. I believe ellean is caught. I walk casually away like I wasn’t hiding anything, seeing if they would just ignore me. As soon as I thought I got away, some girl grabs my arm and says something like, “Do you have anything to hide?” or something like that, I forgot. I look at her face, and it’s Lauren! I was so glad to see that it was her. We talk a bit and turns out she’s a rebel, so she gives me directions to some place or something. I then wake up in some weird room, and I see a ninja like figure in the corner trying to hide his presence. I immediately know he’s up to no good, and I slash him into pieces. He has my phone, and he was tethering information to some database lol. I cancel it, but some info has already gone through. Tito Darwin then comes in the door, sees what happens, and invites me to dinner. He complains to me about something like why did I have to attack that guy, he took your phone and relayed information, now were all doomed. I had no idea what he was talking about, but I told him that I canceled most of it. Dream haziness from there,

Dream Journal #22, May 26th, 2011.

Don’t remember much.. only remember fragments. I was.. trying not to dream inside a dream? I’m not even sure. It may of had something to do with lucid dreams, but I woke up at 2:30 am again, marking the end of my REM. I know Dan was definitely in my dream. I remembered the dream when I woke up at 2:30 but now I forgot it lol. It may have had something to do with cars also. I remember having an FA and trying to take all my blanket and push it into something near my desk right next to me.. I forgot why. It failed and I was like damn, so I put it back. I KNOW i was trying to sell something.. but I just forgot what it was.

edit: just remembered a dream! wow this was vivid, and it seemed like i was lucid but i don’t really think i was.

so.. it started out with me in like, this dancing place? kind of like the dancing place in sucker punch, with the same teacher. the teacher was surprised to see a guy wanting to learn to dance lol. she taught me some basic moves, blah blah. then some girl asks me if she wants to go get a banana with me, and i’m like sure. at this point im thinking, wait, am i allowed to do this? will i get in trouble? but i do it anyway. then these 2 guys come out during lunch break, kevin kim, and some random ass black guy. the black guy starts to give me and alvin shit. alvin just appeared out of nowhere.. lol. i then proceed to beat the living shit out of them. like, literally, the living shit. im pretty sure the black guy died, but kevin kim survived. he was unconscious however on the floor. they’re bodies looked really weird lol. they looked liked corpses except with spaghetti noodles coming out of thier body and instead of blood it was spaghetti sauce. so now i find myself in my house, with the 2 bodies on the floor and alvin next to me. then i’m like, alright alvin lets go back. but then i’m like wait, should we hide the bodies? and alvins like umm, idk. so i decide to hide the bodies using dream control (lol wut wasn’t even lucid). so i tell alvin, “hey dude, go in like another room or something! i’m gonna make the bodies disappear with dream control”, so alvin goes to another room. i close my eyes, focus on erasing the bodies from my mind, and when i open them, they’re gone! but the time significantly changed… like i forwarded 2 hours into the future lol. alvin comes out, and i tell him, “DUDE did you see that? I did it!” and he looks at me weird and he’s like “huh? did what?” I then concluded my dream control also erased his memory lol. So we go into the living room and play this wii game.

fragment: I remember going in front of my house, it’s somewhat sunny, and theirs piles and piles and piles of beer and other drinks. I remember thinking damn, this is gonna ruin my dream recall.

Second dream I remember is playing this wii game with my brother lol. It was very similar to marvel vs capcom 3, except the characters you could play also included people from my school and other hot girls rofl. i’m not sure how they played in the gamge, but i remember owning my brother the first 6 games and then he proceeded to own me after that. i also remember texting ralph “bring weed” lol. supposedly there was supposed to be a party at my house, because i also remember my brother asking me “do you want anything” and i’m like “uhh.. nah”. sarandy comes home and he brings my brother some weird recorder tape thing that you put in your shoebox… imking to be exact. lol idk. i don’t remember anything after that.

I FINALLY GOT LUCID!!!

hahaha. Alright. So I used the WBTB method, didn’t think it would work, but it did! And wow it is like an experience of no other. I also think I had an OBE because I felt as if I was trying to escape my realistic body.

So here’s how it started. Woke up around 5 am, peed. Went to dreamviews.com, browsed a little bit for 20 minutes and went back to bed. I tried to WILD, but at that point I was already too awake because I had splashed my face with cold water, so I just told myself “I’m going to lucid tonight” and let my concious fade away so that I could fall asleep.

I had mini-dreams, ALL about lucid dreaming. The most vivid one I remember was me being at school in the quad, and ALL my friends were talking about lucid dreaming. What technique they were using, how they did it, if they ever had a lucid, etc. Then one of my friends comes to me and tells me, “Did you know you’re dreaming right now?” And as soon as he said that, I tried to recollect my thoughts. How did I get to school? That was all it took for me to become lucid. As soon as I became lucid though, I had a false awakening! I went non-lucid.

Although I had a false awakening, I didn’t open my eyes. I just knew that the dream had ended. Actually, now that I think about it- I don’t think this is where the FA started. I might have DEILD’ed accidentally, but as soon as the dream ended it went black. After a while of blackness (I was very unconcious, I think SP was happening here), I felt as if I was trying to rip myself off my body. Makes no sense, but that’s what it felt like. I was trying to tear away from my sleeping body. And as soon I was doing this, I immediately knew I was dreaming. No RC, nothing. I sat up on my bed, and I was like… holy shit, I’m dreaming. I look at the clock, 3:!5 am? HELL YES, I am truly dreaming. The time switched before my eyes also. I went from 3:15 am to 2:00 am to 4:00 am all in like 10 seconds. I woke up in the dark so I found the dream to be a little unclear and unvivid- but my senses were 100% REAL. At the back of my head I was like, if I move, I know that I’ll feel my real body moving too- but that wasn’t the case. I decided to move my hand, and I didn’t wake up! It was if I had 10 senses, 2 of each. I felt my real hand staying still and not moving, and I felt my dream hand moving around. At this point I wanted to clear the dream up and stabilize it, and maybe change the dreamscape. I tried rubbing my hands together, and focused on the feeling. Rubbing my hands definitely felt as real as waking life- although I couldn’t really even see my hands clearly. It was like a motion blur as I was doing it. It didn’t work though, because I was closing my eyes trying really hard to stabilize the dream lol, which was a big mistake. I have no idea why I even tried to close my eyes because I knew that if I did I might wake up.

I woke up twice, both into the false awakenings. I remember music playing and my laptop wide open right next to me (the laptop was actually the sun shining down on me and the music.. i have no idea.) I barely opened my eyes and tried to go back lucid. It worked. I had gone back to the same exact dreamscape as before, except this time, it was a nightmare. I felt as if there were going to be demons spawned around me and I’d die. As soon as I felt this, however, I was like “Oh this is just a dream” and it stopped. Again, I tried to stabilize the dream but I failed. This was my biggest failure- I was like, I wonder how real it would feel if I took off all my clothes and touched my penis. Dumb, I know, but hey, I was dreaming. The dream soon faded as soon as I took my clothes off, and I awoke in my real body because this bright light was just annoying the hell out of me, which I thought was coming from my laptop. As I opened my eyes, I realized it was the sun, which made me conclude that I was also in a FA (I had seen the laptop with my FA eyes).

All in all, I’m proud of myself for becoming lucid. The next step is dream control baby