non-lucid

Took a little break from weed, so my dreams are much more clear. Woke up around 5 a.m. this morning and decided I would write this dream down because it felt very real.

First thing I remember was hanging out with Kenny a lot. We were almost like best friends I guess. My heart was kind of confused though, like it thought I was gay and I was starting to like him. I knew that wasn't right, so my unconscious mind set out to figure what was wrong as the dream kept going. I realized that it wasn't Kenny that I was crushing on (lol) but Trang! Suddenly I remembered and had made the connection, because Kenny and Trang were pretty close at one point (probably still are). I remember telling Steven in person I think, and he just laughs.

Dream switches into LoL mode. It's 5v5 and all I remember playing with was Trang lol. She's on the other team with a bunch of her friends (Shannon too I believe), vs. me and all my friends. Not really going into details of the game, but it was pretty fun and it was a good way to "bond," even though it's not realistic, it made me feel closer to her in the dream. I think I end up actually going AFK the last game because my dad needed me and I totally forgot I was playing.

Dream switches and suddenly I see this little kid (not me) opening a Christmas present that was wrapped in scotch tape lol. It turns out to be a paint ball handgun. Then, the little kid becomes me all of a sudden. I load the handgun and start shooting everywhere. There's paint all over the walls and I feel like my parents are going to kill me, but I'll just repaint it before they see. As weird as the dream already is (I've never touched a paintball gun or shot one), my parents see and they say nothing. I decide, eh, time to clean up, so I go into the garage to get the paint, but then I think to myself, "Dude... there's not really paint on the walls, your just in a dream." and decide to go shower. (No lucidity wtfff blah) I remember one tiny little detail where my mom gets mad at me for wiping paint off my face with a dirty cloth, and I respond saying "I'm gonna shower anyway."

Dream switches, and I'm now in bed naked because it was blazing ass hot. I remember feeling like I was Nam, and Dan saying like "Oh I respect that." Weird. All my friends were dressing up for Nikki's 2nd birthday party which was more formal. I wasn't going I think. I was chatting on wc3 it seemed like, and Michelle Han was talking to her friends in /all. I was confused and asked if she was talking to me, she said nah, and she said she was going to a kickback (she referred it to something else, but I forgot). Suddenly she's in my bed with her phone in her hand, on facetime, but on a blackberry. She's literally "showing off" me to her friends when she decided not to go to the kickback I guess lol. I catch a glimpse of what I'm seeing-- people partying, and her best friend Tracy on the other phone. Then I see us, and she's all up on me! Like straight up like she was my girlfriend. As soon as I saw that, she climbed up onto me, kind of stroked my penis up to my chest, and started to look at me. I grabbed her face and I kissed her, but I didn't do anything else because I felt like my friends were around me lol. This is where I woke up and was likeee "damn."

i miss being lucid! brings back so many memories... i might start up again, but my schedule is really busy and i have no time to practice/meditate etc.

anyways, i remember the past 3 dreams i've had in the past 3 nights.

first dream: i was part of some kind of rich family of assassins, or something like that. the dream started off with me driving to a hotel and i was supposed to meet my brother and some other dude there. i got in, checked into the hotel. when i got in, i got this "aura" or feeling like someone was outside my door, and he was not friendly. i look at my door and sure enough there's these two feet that's trying to seep its way in from the top of the door (dream imagination ftw?). as soon as i notice, he barges in and trys to kill me. i react by throwing these weird sharp stick things, dodging his attacks at the same time. i end up killing him, and a lil later my brother shows up. dream switches to a really rich mansion. i'm inside, and there's this meeting thing going on about finding our "father". supposedly everybody there was my brother and sister or something. then i go outside to the backyard, and there's these giant pools, like 4 of them. it must have been like a park in our backyard, because it was huge. that's all i remember.

second dream: i'm "auditioning" to be a rapper for eminem or something? i have to go through these tests, some weird ass tests, like eating a container full of noodles in under 2 minutes or something. there's another test that has something to do with a dog or something. i pass, and i see dr. dre congratulating me or something. TIME-OUT.. sudden dream recall: i remember something about these tons of envelopes that belonged to my uncle tito darwin. inside these envelopes held tons of free stuff, some really really valuable, like gems and gold and such, others like casual items like clothes or money or something. i stole a whole box full of those envelopes... and i dont remember much after that. anyway, back to main dream story: suddenly im in the "house" of eminem lol. i don't really see eminem at all in my dream, but i know its "his" house. i see a bunch of people, including amelia which i wave to and she waves back. i go to her to hug her but she ignores me so i kinda play it off and act like i wasnt going to hug her LOL. then... i THINK someone trys to break in and steal something from the house, and he gets away. i turn to tryndamere and i whirl out of the wall to chase him down... and the dream ends from there.

third dream: i dont remember much from this night... but all i remember is dreaming about my ex nikki. this dream made me really sad for some reason lol, i guess i was just feeling lonely in that dream (if u can even feel emotions in a dream, which im pretty sure you can.) i ended up waking up and being somewhat sad that the dream wasnt real and that i just woke up to reality. that's not really me, although i have had a lot of dreams where i wake up sad because the dream is over. unconscious emotions?

been a loooong time since i last wrote in my dream journal, but i've been remembering my dreams a lot lately, so here it goes

first dream i remember was that i was still in school. kevin yun came over to my house with someone else and they were in my room. i remember kevin being super annoying, jumping on my bed and crap and blasting hella loud music, making me embarrassed to have them over. i then had to go to school but kevin was ditching and was staying at my house. i was just like ugh. then i remember facebooking it LOL saying "never letting kevin stay at my house again" and i got like thousands of likes and comments saying they never will either. i then woke up like it was a nightmare for some reason.

second dream, i was in bed with my supposed girlfriend. i went over to kiss her on the forehead, and then that turned into making out and foreplay. felt super real... lol. then all of a sudden i hear like police outside, and then im on the run trying to get away from the police as i take my girlfriend with me. we did twists and turns and went through secret doorways until we lost them. we eventually stopped at some crowd to blend in. i think we met some friends there. this felt like a recurring dream, because all of a sudden the police started lining up all the people they arrested and ordered them to go to this place to get shots. they said if you know your on the list you better go with them, so i went. but i never got the shot lol. i felt like i had had this dream before for some reason, but im not sure.

third dream i remember, was being in this weird enclosed hallway. whoah wait a sec, major dream recall just happened. there was this guy, who was very sad i think i remember.. he was at the cemetery. something like that, trying to solve the answer to how someone died. a girl sees him there and falls in love with him. then dream switches to me and him and alvin in the hallway. the guy accuses alvin of killing his friend. then as he's in the middle, and alvins at the end and im at the other end, i raise my gun at him and say "confess, you killed him." alvin raises his gun as well. he starts walking towards me and i shoot, he backs away, i say "don't move... CONFESS!" he starts moving towards me, i shoot again, he backs away. then, he starts moving again, i shoot, but he keeps walking like he doesnt die. eventually i run and he tries to stab me with a knife. i counter it and take the knife from him and stab him but he still doesnt die. the dream then switches from being dark and suspenseful to something like a video game. i then decide i just want to leave so i do. turns out we were in some park. i went inside their mall thing cause i was hungry, and then i remembered that i had a disneyland gift card for $20 that i left at home so i cursed myself. i was around looking for something to drink, but i realized i already had a jumbo dr.pepper in my hand. i met ian on the way. i remember seeing my brother complain to someone on the phone about what they wanted him to buy (strawberry pizza o_O). i passed chipotle and went into the tostito store or something like that, where they had a whole bunch of i forgot what it's called.. mexican eggroll things lol. all different kinds of flavors. i met ate there, and she said hans loved meatballs lol. then the dream switches to me back at home saying bye to alvin and shenel and kalvin.

Dream Journal #29, June 6th 2011

Well, took a break from lucid dreams/dream journaling for a while.. and just had the most vividest dream yet.

I remember chunks of parts but somehow they don’t connect, the dream scene just seems to change kind of and so does the plot, but this is all in one REM period.

It starts off with me tying my shoelaces to get ready for a basketball game, and it’s like a big game, not just a regular street game. Its in an indoor court. Then all of a sudden I’m in a car with ellean, with me driving like crazy to try to lose this guy who’s trying to chase me. I do twists and turns and eventually park in a store parking lot and go inside, thinking I lost this guy. I end up seeing his car right in the same parking lot, and the guy inside the store. We both freak out, but it turns out he doesn’t know who was driving the car, he just knows that he had to take that car down. So as soon as he isn’t looking, we get back into the car and take off. We lose him. Then, seeking shelter, we go to norm’s place, his old house in Garden Grove. We see a bunch of people there working like it’s a refuge place.. and we go inside his garage to see piles of marijuana everywhere. Turns out norm is a drug dealer lol. We just stare at amazement, and we talk about stuff, but I forgot what we talked about. I then see him run out of the backyard, and burn all his marijuana, we were like WTF and we run to the smoke to inhale it all lol. Then we realize that these cop-like people (similar to the one chasing us) had discovered the house and was arresting people. These cops are bad guys, as in dictator-controlled bad guys who were trying to take over the world. I believe ellean is caught. I walk casually away like I wasn’t hiding anything, seeing if they would just ignore me. As soon as I thought I got away, some girl grabs my arm and says something like, “Do you have anything to hide?” or something like that, I forgot. I look at her face, and it’s Lauren! I was so glad to see that it was her. We talk a bit and turns out she’s a rebel, so she gives me directions to some place or something. I then wake up in some weird room, and I see a ninja like figure in the corner trying to hide his presence. I immediately know he’s up to no good, and I slash him into pieces. He has my phone, and he was tethering information to some database lol. I cancel it, but some info has already gone through. Tito Darwin then comes in the door, sees what happens, and invites me to dinner. He complains to me about something like why did I have to attack that guy, he took your phone and relayed information, now were all doomed. I had no idea what he was talking about, but I told him that I canceled most of it. Dream haziness from there,

Sigh. I don’t remember any dreams. All i remember is that I was playing Annie in League of Legends. I think most of my dreams were in League of Legends lol.

After WBTB:

aw yeah baby… finally became lucid, and this time for a pretty good length. first, let’s talk about my unlucid dream.

my unlucid dream was like, me driving this giant giant giant giant ship, through this narrow narrow hallway. it was almost like a game.. one of those games where your trying not to hit anything while steering something. I managed to hit the boxes like 10 times lol and had to start over. Then it switched to like.. me at a party. and I was married lol. And my wife was complaining about a fake dress, and I told her she looked beautiful and that we just couldnt afford to buy her a brand new one. So she said okay, and then she’s like go pick flowers for our kids. lol wut. So I did. Then comes the infamous chain FA’s…

First FA. I knew I was dreaming, because my closet was open and I always close it before I go to sleep. but as soon as I found out I awoke.. into another FA.
Went unlucid, got up, and I was like wait… how do I know I’m not dreaming. I look at the clock and it’s some weird ass time. Like 41:.039. In my mind it looked like 04:39 pm. So I was like, hell no, it is not 4:39.. did I really sleep that long? I look away, and back at the clock, and it’s still the same time. But then, the clock and everything around the clock started moving in a wave like circle. I did not find any of this weird at all.. sigh. I was still having a hard time determining if I was dreaming or not.. but by the time I tried to do another reality check, I woke up, for reals this time. I was frusturated at myself for not going lucid from that FA and was wondering whether I should keep sleeping and trying or get up. I ended up sleeping, and had another FA. This time, I made sure I became lucid. I didn’t even check the clock or look at my fingers or plug my nose. I think I just knew, because it was dark in my room and I knew that it was sunny outside. So I was like OK, I’m dreaming. I open my door expecting to go somewhere magical, nope. Although my bathroom was on the opposite side of the wall this time… clear indicator that I am dreaming. So I was like, alright, for sure I know I’m dreaming now.. let’s not lose this. I go downstairs and I almost fall because my hand goes right through the wall when I try to use it as support lol. Keep in mind I’m only in my boxers for some reason. I get to the game room, and it’s pretty foggy/hazy dreamlike. The dream starts going black, but I don’t really panic. I try rubbing my hands and spinning… but it doesn’t work. It seems like I was still in the dream, but I was like blind. I could feel myself rubbing my hands still. Eventually the dream came back, and I shouted “INCREASE CLARITY! INCREASE LUCIDITY!” “MAKE IT BRIGHTER IN HERE!” and eventually, the sun came up in a matter of 2 seconds lol and the dream became VERY vivid. I say okay, let’s go outside. I go to open the door outside, when I see Ian and some other guy about to open it too (wall hacks ftw). I was like oh shit.. im naked, and I lock it. But then I’m like wait, I’m dreaming.. they don’t care. So they open it, and they look at me noticing I’m naked, and shrug it off. They go inside and I go outside. WOW, everything was so real and so vivid.. I touched the walls (which were a different texture than what I really have), everything felt so real. My dream goal was simply to have a long and vivid lucid dream, so that’s what I simply did. I stared at the wall, looking at every detail and texture, trying to make the dream more vivid and vivid.

After satisfying myself, this is where I start to become unlucid and kind of let the dream take over me. I think of MH (a person), and I expect her to be in my backyard. I’ve never met her in person yet, so.. lol. So as I head toward my backyard, of course, she’s there. But there’s this other random guy. He eventually disappears, and MH is like, “whoah? where’d he go” and I was like “Oh, he left.” I believe I forget anything about my lucidity here.. and I go unlucid unfortunately. :/ I think it was the loneliness inside of me lol. Even though she didn’t look anything like MH, she was supposedly my girlfriend. We were hugging and kissing, and we layed down on the grass in my backyard, and it became night. The moon was huge, and we were cuddling under the night sky, talking about random things to each other. I remember the cheesy lines we said, but eh. The dream fades from there. I go into another FA.

I know I’m dreaming, I forgot how though. I do the same exact thing. I open my door, I see that my bathroom is on the opposite wall again lol. I go downstairs.. but the dream fades. I wake into another FA. SIGH these are so annoying. I’m not going to explain this FA, basically I knew I was dreaming again, but I wanted to wake up. I eventually wake up, and the time is 11:30 am, so I know I’m not dreaming anymore. All in all, good day for dreaming

Dream Journal #22, May 26th, 2011.

Don’t remember much.. only remember fragments. I was.. trying not to dream inside a dream? I’m not even sure. It may of had something to do with lucid dreams, but I woke up at 2:30 am again, marking the end of my REM. I know Dan was definitely in my dream. I remembered the dream when I woke up at 2:30 but now I forgot it lol. It may have had something to do with cars also. I remember having an FA and trying to take all my blanket and push it into something near my desk right next to me.. I forgot why. It failed and I was like damn, so I put it back. I KNOW i was trying to sell something.. but I just forgot what it was.

edit: just remembered a dream! wow this was vivid, and it seemed like i was lucid but i don’t really think i was.

so.. it started out with me in like, this dancing place? kind of like the dancing place in sucker punch, with the same teacher. the teacher was surprised to see a guy wanting to learn to dance lol. she taught me some basic moves, blah blah. then some girl asks me if she wants to go get a banana with me, and i’m like sure. at this point im thinking, wait, am i allowed to do this? will i get in trouble? but i do it anyway. then these 2 guys come out during lunch break, kevin kim, and some random ass black guy. the black guy starts to give me and alvin shit. alvin just appeared out of nowhere.. lol. i then proceed to beat the living shit out of them. like, literally, the living shit. im pretty sure the black guy died, but kevin kim survived. he was unconscious however on the floor. they’re bodies looked really weird lol. they looked liked corpses except with spaghetti noodles coming out of thier body and instead of blood it was spaghetti sauce. so now i find myself in my house, with the 2 bodies on the floor and alvin next to me. then i’m like, alright alvin lets go back. but then i’m like wait, should we hide the bodies? and alvins like umm, idk. so i decide to hide the bodies using dream control (lol wut wasn’t even lucid). so i tell alvin, “hey dude, go in like another room or something! i’m gonna make the bodies disappear with dream control”, so alvin goes to another room. i close my eyes, focus on erasing the bodies from my mind, and when i open them, they’re gone! but the time significantly changed… like i forwarded 2 hours into the future lol. alvin comes out, and i tell him, “DUDE did you see that? I did it!” and he looks at me weird and he’s like “huh? did what?” I then concluded my dream control also erased his memory lol. So we go into the living room and play this wii game.

fragment: I remember going in front of my house, it’s somewhat sunny, and theirs piles and piles and piles of beer and other drinks. I remember thinking damn, this is gonna ruin my dream recall.

Second dream I remember is playing this wii game with my brother lol. It was very similar to marvel vs capcom 3, except the characters you could play also included people from my school and other hot girls rofl. i’m not sure how they played in the gamge, but i remember owning my brother the first 6 games and then he proceeded to own me after that. i also remember texting ralph “bring weed” lol. supposedly there was supposed to be a party at my house, because i also remember my brother asking me “do you want anything” and i’m like “uhh.. nah”. sarandy comes home and he brings my brother some weird recorder tape thing that you put in your shoebox… imking to be exact. lol idk. i don’t remember anything after that.

Dream Journal #21, May 24th 2011

My dream recall is real shit right now.. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m not trying as hard? Blah. Well I only remember dream fragments at the moment.

First fragment I remember was that I dreamt that hero had died already, and he was replaced by a bird. That bird lived in the same cage as hero. The bird loved alcoholic drinks and we would give him like whiskey to get him to go into the cage lol. There was this one part where I gave him alcohol but I forgot to tell him to go to the cage and he went outside. I was like ah shit, so I gave him more alcohol to go into the cage. I then woke up? It may have been an FA or a real awakening, I don’t remember, but I woke up and I was like… man, I miss Hero. Then I was like, wait, wtf? When did Hero die? I was very confused and I thought I was dreaming so I did a reality check (noseplug/clock) and it failed. I then concluded Hero was definitely still alive and that bird was a dream.

Second sort of fragment I remember, was me being on a fucking mission. Like CIA stuff lol, except it was with my family I believe. I’m still not sure what it was about… but I remember me and my dad flying in the air with parachutes trying to land at a “recovery” point. When we landed, it goes weird from there. There were “openable gates” and we opened them and there were like regular civilians there, and I think we were showing something off? (Maybe the bird… ) That’s all I rememeber. Oh and the weather was very stormy and windy. Oh.. and I also think I remember dreaming about spongebob squarepants? wtf. He was surfing like 50 ft tides and 200ft tides or something. Or maybe that was me. Anyways, I’m definitely not trying to remember my dreams.. I clearly could remember a whole plot if I wanted to (Look up). Time to WBTB

Third fragment was me watching a movie with some random friends? I went into some random house in my random neighborhood, I was waiting for someone for some reason. I forgot what I did, but I ended up on a couch watching a movie. I didn’t even pay attention to who sat next to me. Then, someone puts their arm over my shoulder, and he’s like “Oh, sorry my bad. What’s up?” I look over and it’s Frankie lol wtf? I’m not sure if Katrina was on the other side, but it was just odd that Frankie was next to me. We then talked about some stuff I don’t remember, and I think the dream ended there.

After WBTB:

Nothing -.-

Dream Journal #20, May 23rd, 2011

I don’t remember much of my dreams.. all I know is that they were very vivid. Also took 100mg of Vitamin B6. I remember me and alvin playing some type of weird game… don’t remember what. My brother also had kdd’s phone for some reason. I come outside and I hear kdd say “make some ribs!” to my mom, and ask if it’s her birthday. She says no it already passed and kdd says “oh happy belated birthday!” I go into the bathroom and I pee, then i wake up (thank God i didn’t pee my bed).

After WBTB:

don’t remember any dreams it was a long weekend, so i’m not that disappointed.

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Dream Journal #18, May 20th, 2011.

First and only vivid dream I remember is playing some weird game on 2 giant blown up jumpers. Like these jumpers were HUGE. lol. Actually before that, me ralph and paolo were playing poker on a jumper as well I think.. and paolo kept saying “Dang justin stop trippin out!” because I was high or something, not sure. Felt more like sleepy lol. After poker, it was like 2v2 dodgeball kind of, on these two giant jumpers. I’m not sure how the game worked lol. Then Mr.Ma kicked us out because it wasn’t lunch and we couldnt play on the jumpers (had to go on basketball court). When we got off, everybody who was playing dodgeball had a dog for some reason… and they were all aggressive af. Not aggressive aggressive, but like they always nipped on you and they were all slobbery and eww. So I washed up and went home. Then my dad offered to take me driving before we went to adys birthday. So we had to walk like a few distance to our car because he said he had to pump it? Idk. Then my alarm woke me up.

After WBTB:

I became lucid, but it was really short I blame it on myself mostly.

It starts out with me pushing a shopping cart in a parking lot. I found the whole experience to just be really weird and unordinary. I stopped, asked myself, …wait, am I dreaming? How did I get here? I then became lucid. I froze and took in my surroundings a bit, just to clear up the dream. But I got distracted by a really hot lady. I walked over and grabbed her and slowly started to make out with her because I couldn’t just let her pass by without doing anything. This was my big mistake lol. The dream faded right before my eyes before I could even think about stabilizing the dream. I found myself awoken in my bed, apathetic, and I tried to DEILD back. It didn’t really work… I think. That, or I just fell asleep.

Also something to consider… my alarm woke me up in the middle of a very vivid dream. Most likely REM. So maybe my REM cycle had something to do with it, because I knew that the dream I was having before I woke up was already pretty long (at least in dream sense). Maybe the REM cycle just ended and I went back into stage 2.

Either way, I’m kind of disappointed. Happy I got lucid, but disappointed it didn’t last long

Going to sleep now, it's 10:35 am. I will become lucid.

First dream I remember was having Sherry come to me and be like, "i think Dan might ask me to prom because vlahblahblah" and she asked me if I knew anything, I said no. So she asked me to tell her if anything came up cause she wants to know beforehand. Soo then it goes to just me alvin and ian playing basketball. I do remember we find out that Ian has a crush, and kuya don don was like dude she's in the philippines? forget about it! but Ian was like no and he said he's waiting till he's 18. So were like whatever lol. Then we go play basketball.

edit: remembered a couple more things (2 things that i had to stop and think about because of it's weirdness.. almost became lucid i think)

first thing was me seeing katrina in 5th period with a motorcycle. i was like, hmm.. that's weird.. she got a motorcycle instead of a car? then my mind goes.. OK, THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY FINE. NOTHING WEIRD ABOUT THAT. then i continue whatever i was doing.. which i forgot.

second was in a FA. I woke up, and I still had my boxers on (i put back my shorts after WBTB cause it was cold, but i didn't question that). Then I look at my thighs and I see cuts, almost like I cut myself on purpose. There were quite a few, and I think I remember seeing cuts on my arm too. I was just like.. WTF? when did I get these cuts?? then again, my mind goes, HMM WHATEVER I JUST DONT REMEMBER. IT'S FINE. and I go into the bathroom and wash my face and everything, and I wake up for real and I'm late to school

It seems like I'm getting closer to become more aware in my dreams, as I'm actually questioning these weird things that are happening in my dreams. I've never done that before, so hopefully my awareness will boost up over time and I can finally have a DILD in fantasy land.

Dream Journal #16 May 18th, 2011.

Wow.. i slept right through my alarm, that or it didnt go off. my dreams aren’t really that memorable. i only remember some fragments, although i did remember me suddenly thinking about lucid dreaming in the middle of my dream. most of the dreams were about school. they somewhat relate to league of legends because we had mana and stuff… but that’s all i remember lol. Not a good night for dreaming Tonight for sure.

edit: Weird, I remember this dream like 30 minutes after I woke up.

I remember being in Terreri’s class, and it wasn’t actually terreri but he was a sub. But he looked EXACTLY like terreri and had the same voice, but for some reason I knew he was a sub. I forgot what I did in there, but as I left class I forgot my shorts lol so I was walking around the hallways with only my boxers on. Sean and Andrew saw me and they were like wtf? And I was like.. damn, needa go get my shorts. So I get them and I see Anthony there still sitting in class like he had detention. Then I remember Terreri saying something about demons to him or whatever. I leave. As I walk the hallways, it’s like some kind of holiday similar to Halloween. People are behind the glass displays and they’re invisible, but theirs signs saying to come close to the glass display. As soon as people get close, students suddenly appear and scare the shit out of them. Me, on the other hand, I was able to see through their invisibility. I kicked one of my classmates who was invisible, and he was just like WTF.. how do you see me? I just laughed and walked away.

Dream Journal #15 May 17th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in some weird house, trying out for something.

Actually scratch that. First thing I remember was having a fake tattoo on my arm and I had to go to court for it rofl because it was against the law or something. So I go to court, but literally nobody shows up but me and the judge. The judge lets me go. I then go to some weird place to train for something and I have to put on this thing on my head. I then have to wash my entire head with shampoo for some reason.

Then, I’m at ralphs house with alvin and ian. I also remember something about AK’s and pistols lol… and that like a dog was trying to get the AK to shoot another dog.. idk weird ass part of the dream. We had like piles of weird stuff in the room. Then DJ calls me and hes like whatupp blah blah and i think hes at paolos so im like ok we’ll go to paolos (even though i didnt even know he wasnt there). When i get to paolos he not there, but my mom is. My mom said were sleeping over there lol. Apparently we were going to play beer pong, but we were still waiting for DJ. Then my alarm woke me up.

edit: here’s after WBTB.

I could feel myself going lucid. I felt all the vibrations- everything that I felt whenever I knew I would be going lucid. Then it just stopped.

I had an FA. Ellean apparently just appeared out of nowhere and started sleeping on my bed (he was never in my house in the first place) and I thought that THAT is what caused me to lose my lucidity. sigh im so dumb. I even did the nose plug reality check and it failed! I breathed through my nose but for some stupid ass reason I made up some reason in my head for why I was able to.

lol. then the dream continued from me giving up to go lucid to me and ellean watching tv and eating snacks (cookies to be exact). sigh.

also quick note: i watched a subliminal messages video right before i went back to sleep.. i think it helped, but im not sure.

Dream Journal #14 May 16th, 2011

blah i fell asleep after my wbtb… sigh

anyways first dream i remember was my brother coming back home and like he came home rich or something from the cruise. basically my room was renovated like crazy lol. then he asked me to sell marvel vs capcom and everything. i can remember elleean my dad and alvin with me. we went to some place right near knotts to sell them. i got mad at alvin for not listening to me. ellean and alvin had weird personalities… they weren't acting “themselves” in my dream. weird. I also remember looking at some WII games, and the store only had like 2 games, and me and ellean were like, wtf? so we sold marvel vs capcom and left to go to a new store. also... the place that was right by knotts for some reason is very familiar, like i've been there before. i KNOW i was there at some point, either in one of my old dreams or in real life. that’s all i remember.

next dream was that i was in ms. Kitts class lol. she became much stricter… as soon as i went into the room with my hat she told me that i would get suspended if i went in with it again. then, i started listening to my beats in class (sigh i should have went lucid from this). it eventually started to make a lot of noise because the class was quiet. Also, quick detail... the song was sleep all day (party all night) by sean kingston, as I actually heard the lyrics coming from the headphones. She then confiscated my items,and I asked if I could take it after class ended and she said yeah. Lol.

I had several false awakenings where i was already writing in my dream journal! i think im just way too tired to even try to lucid right now, but for some reason im remembering a lot of my dreams.

third dream i remember was ellean jumping through my window with heros leash and he jumped off the roof. my impression was that he was going to hang himself but was joking about it. i took heros leash which was actually right next to me (should have became lucid..) and went downstairs to bike hero. i eventually concluded that biking was not necessary, ill just drive him around the neighborhood to practice my driving. so i did lol, and i kinda “stole” my moms car to drive hero around. when i got back i was surprised nobody even cared.

fourth dream i remember was kind of a fragment. i was in physics class with lukas and mckenna. i remember having the biggest headache of my life. mckenna kept asking me for jesus’ number lol. and i saw lukas phone on the chair next to me for some reason with his older brother on the front screen. that’s when i woke up.

well, i didn’t get lucid, but i remembered four dreams tonight. proud

Only remember 1 dream, and they’re mostly fragments, I didn’t really understand the plot lol.

First, it was me in the computer room and it was like really dark, and I was playing on my computer. Ian comes over to pick up something and then leaves. Idk lol.

Second it was me in the APUSH room.. thats all i remember

I also remember that I was looking into my bathroom mirror to see how I looked like. I then noticed that I had a red g-shock which was my brothers. I inspected it, and I think I may have questioned it because my brother took this watch with him to the cruise. But I think I let it pass... lol. SIGH.

edit: About 3 hours after I wake up, I suddenly remember the biggest dream plot I had last night.. lol i went on an adventure

I'm sure there was a beginning to this dream.. but I don't remember the beginning. My memory starts off with me in a moonwell-like place, it was a giant lake that was glowing and the surroundings were beautiful, there were clouds and blue skies. I was with 2 other people, I think my friends and some cousins but I don't remember who. The first thing I remember doing was putting my feet into the pond/lake whatever. And then I was like, hey guys... let's go inside! So we all went inside, and then the details go vague from there. I may have been sucked in, or some river monster may have sucked me in.. but the point was, I was sucked in. I then found myself in a different point of time! We all ended up in my garage.. but everything seemed so different. Either we were in the future or the past, or we may have been in the same time period but things were different. Immediately everybody in my group knew there was something wrong. Then one of my friends finds this thing behind the wall... a recorder type thing, that you talk into and it records your voice. For some reason, we all knew whatever was in this tape had something to do with how we got here and why. We started listening to the tape- I don't remember anything it said but it was very quiet and it contained all kinds of secrets. My mom then came into the garage and we hid it, and she told me to go do something. So we all went inside. When I went into my room, everything was completely different and weird. It was like, future-like lol. But at the same time it also seemed medieval-like. When I went to go to the bathroom, it ended up being outside. Like an outdoor bathroom. Just like a regular bathroom except theirs no walls lol. And all the bathrooms in the house were interconnected. Weird. So I go back into my room and I sit on my bed I think. And I start listening to the tape... but as soon as I press the play button (these parts are vague, i may be wrong) nothing came out. I then found out that there was no tape in the recorder. Someone stole it. And they were in some weird ass room that I didn't even know I had in my house. So I wanted to get this tape back because i felt it was important to finding out how I got here and what the hell happened, what that pool of water was all about, etc. I secretly watch the guy who has my tape, and so do 2 of my other friends. He then gets into some kind of argument with some other guys... who were probably like security guards lol. I then hear gunshots, and all of a sudden all I see are dead bodies on the ground in that weird room. So me and my friends were like wow, WTF is going on. I then see my parents running towards me, and they give me a polearm (LOL) and they tell me to run 20 miles from here or something like that. So without even thinking, me and my 2 friends run as fast as we can away from the house without the tape sadly. We pass by this huge castle, very beautiful. I then suggest we go hide in there, but my friends were skeptical and were like, "your parents gave us specific instructions... we should follow them" We ended up resting in some grass-like area or something. Then I think the dream skipped forward, because we were in a town. Like an old town, medieval-like. I then find a pair of rock and republic shorts on the ground, and I was like hey... these are nice. I take them. I think my alarm woke me up at this time.. and when I woke up, I did not remember a single thing that just happened in my dream. I found that reallllly weird. I wished I had remembered this dream so I could somewhat DEILD back into it, but whatever.

Non-Dreaming:

After about 3 hours of not remembering shit, I get home and I put on shorts! They weren't rock and republic shorts, but for some reason... I felt like there was something memorable about me putting these shorts on. And then it hit me... everything about the dream came back to me. I suddenly remembered everything that happened