false awakening

had my first lucid in like almost 2 months, finally broke my dryspell lol. i overslept, and i was dreaming that i woke up and looked at the clock. the clock said "7:18" and i was like "WTF! 7:18 in the evening" but then i noticed there was no am or pm sign next to it, and automatically boom, i become lucid. for some reason the light also went on lol as soon as i hit lucid, kinda like a lightbulb over my head. i looked at my hands and they were fairly normal. i was about to "secure" the dream and make it more vivid, but i felt like that wouldnt work as well so i tried to fly out my window asap. that didn't work very well because the dream faded lol. i became lucid again in the next dream (i forgot how), and this time, i made sure the dream was stable. i started smelling the dust on my cabinets (eh) and sneezed, touched everything blah blah. then, as i was about to jump out my window to fly, i was like, "how do i know this isn't reality right now?" lol. the dream felt so real i had to make sure that it wasn't reality and it was really a dream, so what i did was i made the dream fade out on purpose, and then came back to my original position. crazy stuff. i then jumped out of my window, where i saw people on my front lawn, so i landed there. they started talking to me about stuff and i got lost into the dream and all the action, where i also lost my lucidity. oh well

Dream Journal #30, June 6th 2011

Wow, had my first WILD today. I’m not so sure that it was the traditional WILD though, but I was conscious through SP and through the dream transition, which were both seriously crazy.

I remember hearing footsteps while I was trying to fall asleep, I knew it was my mom. She went in my room, stepped in, stopped, went back down the stairs. I’m not sure if this was just a hallucination or if it was real, but I was conscious enough to hear it but not conscious enough to open my eyes and see. Next thing I know (I don’t know how much time passed between the gap), I’m conscious just a tiny tad bit and I feel like there’s someone in the room or something. I open my eyes just a little bit, I see like a shadowy black figure right above my head (I thought it was my moms head trying to listen to me at the time), and then BAM. Vibrations and sleep paralysis. This is my first SP experience, and it wasn’t even that scary. I saw the black shadowy figure and then my arms and neck felt like they were pushed down super hard so that I couldn’t move, and I really couldn’t. I also felt the vibrations and tingly feelings. I closed my eyes and was like, “oh.. sleep paralysis. let’s see what this dream transition feels like.” No excitement at all or anything I’m always relaxed when I’m in deep sleep. After a few moments of what seemed like 30 seconds to a minute of vibrations, I feel this sudden surge of my body moving forward and the blackness turning into some sort of scene. I surge and surge and then do a front flip, and then I’m sitting on my bed. I look at my hands and they’re all crooked, but I’m having a hard time trying to focus on them and stabilizing my dream. It’s night time and it’s dark in my room so I try to bring some light… but the damn light switch doesn’t work. I use my finger to drag the sun up (it’s sundown but its still super dark), and it works, but the light from the sun doesn’t get brighter. Frustrated, I turn around, imagine there being light behind me, and turn back around. No light. Arghh. I then start to think, “What if I wake up?” The dream scene just suddenly blurs and goes into chaos and I go into an FA which I don’t seem to catch. FA isn’t that important except that I was eating some french fries that tasted really real lol. Oh well, not a very vivid WILD, but the transition from SP to dream was really cool :p

Sigh. I don’t remember any dreams. All i remember is that I was playing Annie in League of Legends. I think most of my dreams were in League of Legends lol.

After WBTB:

aw yeah baby… finally became lucid, and this time for a pretty good length. first, let’s talk about my unlucid dream.

my unlucid dream was like, me driving this giant giant giant giant ship, through this narrow narrow hallway. it was almost like a game.. one of those games where your trying not to hit anything while steering something. I managed to hit the boxes like 10 times lol and had to start over. Then it switched to like.. me at a party. and I was married lol. And my wife was complaining about a fake dress, and I told her she looked beautiful and that we just couldnt afford to buy her a brand new one. So she said okay, and then she’s like go pick flowers for our kids. lol wut. So I did. Then comes the infamous chain FA’s…

First FA. I knew I was dreaming, because my closet was open and I always close it before I go to sleep. but as soon as I found out I awoke.. into another FA.
Went unlucid, got up, and I was like wait… how do I know I’m not dreaming. I look at the clock and it’s some weird ass time. Like 41:.039. In my mind it looked like 04:39 pm. So I was like, hell no, it is not 4:39.. did I really sleep that long? I look away, and back at the clock, and it’s still the same time. But then, the clock and everything around the clock started moving in a wave like circle. I did not find any of this weird at all.. sigh. I was still having a hard time determining if I was dreaming or not.. but by the time I tried to do another reality check, I woke up, for reals this time. I was frusturated at myself for not going lucid from that FA and was wondering whether I should keep sleeping and trying or get up. I ended up sleeping, and had another FA. This time, I made sure I became lucid. I didn’t even check the clock or look at my fingers or plug my nose. I think I just knew, because it was dark in my room and I knew that it was sunny outside. So I was like OK, I’m dreaming. I open my door expecting to go somewhere magical, nope. Although my bathroom was on the opposite side of the wall this time… clear indicator that I am dreaming. So I was like, alright, for sure I know I’m dreaming now.. let’s not lose this. I go downstairs and I almost fall because my hand goes right through the wall when I try to use it as support lol. Keep in mind I’m only in my boxers for some reason. I get to the game room, and it’s pretty foggy/hazy dreamlike. The dream starts going black, but I don’t really panic. I try rubbing my hands and spinning… but it doesn’t work. It seems like I was still in the dream, but I was like blind. I could feel myself rubbing my hands still. Eventually the dream came back, and I shouted “INCREASE CLARITY! INCREASE LUCIDITY!” “MAKE IT BRIGHTER IN HERE!” and eventually, the sun came up in a matter of 2 seconds lol and the dream became VERY vivid. I say okay, let’s go outside. I go to open the door outside, when I see Ian and some other guy about to open it too (wall hacks ftw). I was like oh shit.. im naked, and I lock it. But then I’m like wait, I’m dreaming.. they don’t care. So they open it, and they look at me noticing I’m naked, and shrug it off. They go inside and I go outside. WOW, everything was so real and so vivid.. I touched the walls (which were a different texture than what I really have), everything felt so real. My dream goal was simply to have a long and vivid lucid dream, so that’s what I simply did. I stared at the wall, looking at every detail and texture, trying to make the dream more vivid and vivid.

After satisfying myself, this is where I start to become unlucid and kind of let the dream take over me. I think of MH (a person), and I expect her to be in my backyard. I’ve never met her in person yet, so.. lol. So as I head toward my backyard, of course, she’s there. But there’s this other random guy. He eventually disappears, and MH is like, “whoah? where’d he go” and I was like “Oh, he left.” I believe I forget anything about my lucidity here.. and I go unlucid unfortunately. :/ I think it was the loneliness inside of me lol. Even though she didn’t look anything like MH, she was supposedly my girlfriend. We were hugging and kissing, and we layed down on the grass in my backyard, and it became night. The moon was huge, and we were cuddling under the night sky, talking about random things to each other. I remember the cheesy lines we said, but eh. The dream fades from there. I go into another FA.

I know I’m dreaming, I forgot how though. I do the same exact thing. I open my door, I see that my bathroom is on the opposite wall again lol. I go downstairs.. but the dream fades. I wake into another FA. SIGH these are so annoying. I’m not going to explain this FA, basically I knew I was dreaming again, but I wanted to wake up. I eventually wake up, and the time is 11:30 am, so I know I’m not dreaming anymore. All in all, good day for dreaming

Going to sleep now, it's 10:35 am. I will become lucid.

First dream I remember was having Sherry come to me and be like, "i think Dan might ask me to prom because vlahblahblah" and she asked me if I knew anything, I said no. So she asked me to tell her if anything came up cause she wants to know beforehand. Soo then it goes to just me alvin and ian playing basketball. I do remember we find out that Ian has a crush, and kuya don don was like dude she's in the philippines? forget about it! but Ian was like no and he said he's waiting till he's 18. So were like whatever lol. Then we go play basketball.

edit: remembered a couple more things (2 things that i had to stop and think about because of it's weirdness.. almost became lucid i think)

first thing was me seeing katrina in 5th period with a motorcycle. i was like, hmm.. that's weird.. she got a motorcycle instead of a car? then my mind goes.. OK, THAT SOUNDS TOTALLY FINE. NOTHING WEIRD ABOUT THAT. then i continue whatever i was doing.. which i forgot.

second was in a FA. I woke up, and I still had my boxers on (i put back my shorts after WBTB cause it was cold, but i didn't question that). Then I look at my thighs and I see cuts, almost like I cut myself on purpose. There were quite a few, and I think I remember seeing cuts on my arm too. I was just like.. WTF? when did I get these cuts?? then again, my mind goes, HMM WHATEVER I JUST DONT REMEMBER. IT'S FINE. and I go into the bathroom and wash my face and everything, and I wake up for real and I'm late to school

It seems like I'm getting closer to become more aware in my dreams, as I'm actually questioning these weird things that are happening in my dreams. I've never done that before, so hopefully my awareness will boost up over time and I can finally have a DILD in fantasy land.

Dream Journal #15 May 17th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in some weird house, trying out for something.

Actually scratch that. First thing I remember was having a fake tattoo on my arm and I had to go to court for it rofl because it was against the law or something. So I go to court, but literally nobody shows up but me and the judge. The judge lets me go. I then go to some weird place to train for something and I have to put on this thing on my head. I then have to wash my entire head with shampoo for some reason.

Then, I’m at ralphs house with alvin and ian. I also remember something about AK’s and pistols lol… and that like a dog was trying to get the AK to shoot another dog.. idk weird ass part of the dream. We had like piles of weird stuff in the room. Then DJ calls me and hes like whatupp blah blah and i think hes at paolos so im like ok we’ll go to paolos (even though i didnt even know he wasnt there). When i get to paolos he not there, but my mom is. My mom said were sleeping over there lol. Apparently we were going to play beer pong, but we were still waiting for DJ. Then my alarm woke me up.

edit: here’s after WBTB.

I could feel myself going lucid. I felt all the vibrations- everything that I felt whenever I knew I would be going lucid. Then it just stopped.

I had an FA. Ellean apparently just appeared out of nowhere and started sleeping on my bed (he was never in my house in the first place) and I thought that THAT is what caused me to lose my lucidity. sigh im so dumb. I even did the nose plug reality check and it failed! I breathed through my nose but for some stupid ass reason I made up some reason in my head for why I was able to.

lol. then the dream continued from me giving up to go lucid to me and ellean watching tv and eating snacks (cookies to be exact). sigh.

also quick note: i watched a subliminal messages video right before i went back to sleep.. i think it helped, but im not sure.

Dream Journal #12 May 13th, 2011

First dream I remember was being in a car with my mom and we were taking Ian home. We took a shortcut and she did not trust me with the way to go, and we were going like 1 mph so that made me really frusturated and angry lol.

edit: afterWBTB

Had my 2nd lucid yet! Followed by another FA lol.

this one was awesome, and I had a LOTTT more dream control and stabability this time!!! omg lucid dreaming is fucking great. hahaha.

so it started off with me looking at the clock once again. This was a DILD- I’m sure of it. I was in a FA, and I looked at the clock. There was NO time whatsoever, it was just blank. At first, I was going to let this slide.. I was about to say, oh shit my clock died. But then it hit me- I realized I was dreaming. All of a sudden I felt this rush all over my body! The same feeling from my first lucid dream. Everything became way more clear this time, and vivid. I tried to put my “dream glasses” on but nothing really ever came out when i pretended to put glasses on lol. It started out dark in my room again. I went to the bathroom and I almost lost lucidity… but I tried to turn on the switch for the light. No light. Gained my lucidity again. Went back into my room and for some reason the light was on this time lol. My mind was just blown at how everything seemed so real. I looked at the mirror and my face was all weiird and out of proportion lol. Normally this would scare me but I knew I was dreaming so it really didn’t scare me at all. I looked at my hands too! My hands like fucking 10,000 fingers LOL. I was absolutely sure I was dreaming this time. At this point the dream started to fade.. I saw it fading right before my eyes. I rubbed my hands. Wasn’t working. So I found the new solution to stabilizing my dream: Rub my hands AND spin at the same time. I found that this worked absolutely well, the dreamscape did not change and I was back in the dream.

My phone was on my bed, and someone was calling me. It was some weird contact… the words didnt make sense and there was no number. I answered it. All I heard was static I think- again, this sounds scary, but I knew I was dreaming, so none of it frightened me at all. I was like “whatever” and hung up lol. I then tried to summon a pretty girl in my room. That failed. So I was like whatever again.

Then, I wanted to fly. So i opened my window, and I thought “man.. what if this doesnt work, I start to fall, and I wake up?” But again, my mentality was like “whatever” (thats just the kind of person i am). So I stepped on my window frame, jumped like super high rofl, grabbed the roof of my house, and jumped off of it. I started to fall a little bit- but then I remembered I have to believe. So I started to flap my arms, and I started flying! Fucking best feeling of my life lol. The view was so awesome outside my house as well. I was mountains from the far distance and the moon and stars were shining. It was kind of hard to control though, because I would flap my arms once and sometimes I would go a bit too far up or forward really fast. I fixed this somewhat. I then realized that my neighbor was a hot lesbian. I flew on their roof (actually they had no roof, I flew right through it). She was making out with this other hot lesbian, and they took their clothes off. My dream started to fade again LOL so I started spinning and rubbing my hands at the same time. It stabilized again. The two girls started to go outside to their backyard, where there was snow… somehow it became winter and there was snow everywhere now. They started to begin making out there again fully naked. This is where I eventually woke up into my false awakening.

My false awakening wasnt as bad. I was not lucid however. I was typing out my dream on my dream journal and talking to my cousin that I just had a lucid dream. That’s all I really remember. Oh, and my dad walked in the door to wake me up to go to school. Then I really woke up- kind of confused. I almost forgot that I had a lucid dream when I woke up from my FA lol. Turns out I was only asleep for around 40 minutes- I’m not sure when the dream started though.

Yay for 2nd lucid

I FINALLY GOT LUCID!!!

hahaha. Alright. So I used the WBTB method, didn’t think it would work, but it did! And wow it is like an experience of no other. I also think I had an OBE because I felt as if I was trying to escape my realistic body.

So here’s how it started. Woke up around 5 am, peed. Went to dreamviews.com, browsed a little bit for 20 minutes and went back to bed. I tried to WILD, but at that point I was already too awake because I had splashed my face with cold water, so I just told myself “I’m going to lucid tonight” and let my concious fade away so that I could fall asleep.

I had mini-dreams, ALL about lucid dreaming. The most vivid one I remember was me being at school in the quad, and ALL my friends were talking about lucid dreaming. What technique they were using, how they did it, if they ever had a lucid, etc. Then one of my friends comes to me and tells me, “Did you know you’re dreaming right now?” And as soon as he said that, I tried to recollect my thoughts. How did I get to school? That was all it took for me to become lucid. As soon as I became lucid though, I had a false awakening! I went non-lucid.

Although I had a false awakening, I didn’t open my eyes. I just knew that the dream had ended. Actually, now that I think about it- I don’t think this is where the FA started. I might have DEILD’ed accidentally, but as soon as the dream ended it went black. After a while of blackness (I was very unconcious, I think SP was happening here), I felt as if I was trying to rip myself off my body. Makes no sense, but that’s what it felt like. I was trying to tear away from my sleeping body. And as soon I was doing this, I immediately knew I was dreaming. No RC, nothing. I sat up on my bed, and I was like… holy shit, I’m dreaming. I look at the clock, 3:!5 am? HELL YES, I am truly dreaming. The time switched before my eyes also. I went from 3:15 am to 2:00 am to 4:00 am all in like 10 seconds. I woke up in the dark so I found the dream to be a little unclear and unvivid- but my senses were 100% REAL. At the back of my head I was like, if I move, I know that I’ll feel my real body moving too- but that wasn’t the case. I decided to move my hand, and I didn’t wake up! It was if I had 10 senses, 2 of each. I felt my real hand staying still and not moving, and I felt my dream hand moving around. At this point I wanted to clear the dream up and stabilize it, and maybe change the dreamscape. I tried rubbing my hands together, and focused on the feeling. Rubbing my hands definitely felt as real as waking life- although I couldn’t really even see my hands clearly. It was like a motion blur as I was doing it. It didn’t work though, because I was closing my eyes trying really hard to stabilize the dream lol, which was a big mistake. I have no idea why I even tried to close my eyes because I knew that if I did I might wake up.

I woke up twice, both into the false awakenings. I remember music playing and my laptop wide open right next to me (the laptop was actually the sun shining down on me and the music.. i have no idea.) I barely opened my eyes and tried to go back lucid. It worked. I had gone back to the same exact dreamscape as before, except this time, it was a nightmare. I felt as if there were going to be demons spawned around me and I’d die. As soon as I felt this, however, I was like “Oh this is just a dream” and it stopped. Again, I tried to stabilize the dream but I failed. This was my biggest failure- I was like, I wonder how real it would feel if I took off all my clothes and touched my penis. Dumb, I know, but hey, I was dreaming. The dream soon faded as soon as I took my clothes off, and I awoke in my real body because this bright light was just annoying the hell out of me, which I thought was coming from my laptop. As I opened my eyes, I realized it was the sun, which made me conclude that I was also in a FA (I had seen the laptop with my FA eyes).

All in all, I’m proud of myself for becoming lucid. The next step is dream control baby

So I had my first false awakening today.. crazy because it seemed really real in my dream! I had fallen asleep normally, hoping that my subconcious would be aware that I was dreaming. In fact, the opposite happened. Fell asleep, and awoke around 2-3 am in the morning, I was like ughh and went back to sleep. This is where I had my false awakening. I woke up again, this time in my dream. I swear it felt real. I had also taken 300% vitamin b6 before bed. When I woke up in my bed, it was dark and everything so I couldn’t really see anything, but the feeling I got was pretty realistic. I looked at the time, and this time, it said 12:00 am! I was like WTF? Last time I woke up it was around 2-3 am. I’m so mad at myself for not relooking at the clock, because I only glanced at it once. I eventually concluded that when I woke up around 2-3 am, THAT was a false awakening, so I was like “hmm, whatever.” I then got up for some odd reason and went to the bathroom to take a piss. As I was peeing, no pee would come out. I kept trying and trying, but still none. This is when I woke up. I PROBABLY would have gone lucid had I not woken up, and I probably was being more and more suspicious of me being in a dream- which is probably the reason why I woke up. I don’t remember my thought process at all when I was in the bathroom, but I sure know that I was getting pretty close. When I woke up, I looked at the time: 4 am. At this point I was majorly confused, and did multiple reality checks. They all passed. This was when I concluded that I had a false awakening, and I was pretty astonished lol.

Unfortunately I remembered a few more dreams but I have now forgotten them, because I had some busy work to do as soon as I got up in the morning and had no time to write them down right away.