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first dream i remember, playing diablo fighting like a champ pack or something,and thre were these salt packs on the ground? ad they were supposed to help me kill them lol. meme popped up right after about hulk, saying that when he was truly mad he was a doctor but when he was calm he became hilk.

next dream was with kevin yun, telling me natalie had denied him to prom even though she said yes.

last two totally slipped my mind

edit: remembered a dream.

not sure if this was last night or two nights ago. i was smoking weed with kalvin and two other guys in my car, and i think someone saw us lol so we started running and left the car there with the doors open… also remember being in shenel’s house but it looked completely different.

this dream i know for sure was last night— i was at costco, had my backpack on for some reason and my wallet and iphone was in it. i feel someone “push” me a little, and i’m like oh shit. i check my backpack and my iphone is gone— i catch a glimpse of the guy who stole it. didnt see his face but he had a gray sweater. so then i (we) start checking everybody who had grey sweaters and it seemed like the entire store had grey sweaters on lol, but we couldnt find it. i was so bummed. then i remember receiving some sort of note/letter from the guy who stole it, saying “Thanks for the free inferno” lol.

Took a little break from weed, so my dreams are much more clear. Woke up around 5 a.m. this morning and decided I would write this dream down because it felt very real.

First thing I remember was hanging out with Kenny a lot. We were almost like best friends I guess. My heart was kind of confused though, like it thought I was gay and I was starting to like him. I knew that wasn't right, so my unconscious mind set out to figure what was wrong as the dream kept going. I realized that it wasn't Kenny that I was crushing on (lol) but Trang! Suddenly I remembered and had made the connection, because Kenny and Trang were pretty close at one point (probably still are). I remember telling Steven in person I think, and he just laughs.

Dream switches into LoL mode. It's 5v5 and all I remember playing with was Trang lol. She's on the other team with a bunch of her friends (Shannon too I believe), vs. me and all my friends. Not really going into details of the game, but it was pretty fun and it was a good way to "bond," even though it's not realistic, it made me feel closer to her in the dream. I think I end up actually going AFK the last game because my dad needed me and I totally forgot I was playing.

Dream switches and suddenly I see this little kid (not me) opening a Christmas present that was wrapped in scotch tape lol. It turns out to be a paint ball handgun. Then, the little kid becomes me all of a sudden. I load the handgun and start shooting everywhere. There's paint all over the walls and I feel like my parents are going to kill me, but I'll just repaint it before they see. As weird as the dream already is (I've never touched a paintball gun or shot one), my parents see and they say nothing. I decide, eh, time to clean up, so I go into the garage to get the paint, but then I think to myself, "Dude... there's not really paint on the walls, your just in a dream." and decide to go shower. (No lucidity wtfff blah) I remember one tiny little detail where my mom gets mad at me for wiping paint off my face with a dirty cloth, and I respond saying "I'm gonna shower anyway."

Dream switches, and I'm now in bed naked because it was blazing ass hot. I remember feeling like I was Nam, and Dan saying like "Oh I respect that." Weird. All my friends were dressing up for Nikki's 2nd birthday party which was more formal. I wasn't going I think. I was chatting on wc3 it seemed like, and Michelle Han was talking to her friends in /all. I was confused and asked if she was talking to me, she said nah, and she said she was going to a kickback (she referred it to something else, but I forgot). Suddenly she's in my bed with her phone in her hand, on facetime, but on a blackberry. She's literally "showing off" me to her friends when she decided not to go to the kickback I guess lol. I catch a glimpse of what I'm seeing-- people partying, and her best friend Tracy on the other phone. Then I see us, and she's all up on me! Like straight up like she was my girlfriend. As soon as I saw that, she climbed up onto me, kind of stroked my penis up to my chest, and started to look at me. I grabbed her face and I kissed her, but I didn't do anything else because I felt like my friends were around me lol. This is where I woke up and was likeee "damn."

Had a really weird but real dream, and i deilded on accident. my teacher was mr. roy, but it was like a ceramics class instead. i was making a pipe to smoke my weed out of lol. mr. roy see's it, and he makes gets angry at me and makes a fool out of me in front of the whole class because i smoke weed. i grab my other pipes and smash them into the trash can cause im so mad/sad/angry. at this point i know my mom is going to find out and im in deep shit. i ask mr. roy its not what you think, may i please speak to you after class one day. and he says, sure, we can talk about how u can get over your addiction to weed. i'm like... -.- whatever.

then i wake up and its like a nightmare. i was like wew... it was just a dream. so i go back to sleep and i end up waking back in the same "reality" dream (as in the same dream world, but a different day or time period). at this point i totally forgot that i actually woke up before and now i think im in reality. so i'm like "yeaaah it was just a dream!" but then i realize.. i can't remember anything the night before (in this case i can't remember the dream before, because it was a dream... lol). so i ask my friend, "so umm.. what happened last night?" and she's like. "ohh hohoho.. you dont remember? u got caught making a pipe" and at this point my heart dropped. i was like... omg, it wasnt a dream, it was real. the rest of the dream isnt that important. the dream switches.

i'm now in ms. sievers class (ceramics teacher), but its supposedly a different type of class now. she's acting weird, and she asks for a girl volunteer. she then proceeds to dance in some way with her, and then she grabs her boobs and flashes them to me and all the class (treant is one of them), and im thinking to myself... "sweet" lol. she does this to like 2 girls in the class, to which i catch being embarrased as hell.

i wake up, and im like ugh this dream shit is too real. i go back to sleep. now it's like some weird splice thing going on. this dream is in third person though, as it doesnt even seem like im in the dream world itself, just observing it. theres this splice guy (not girl) trying to run from some people. he catches refuge, and its like some mutant school or something (not xmen, far from it). Lala was there, and some other people. they all had like tails from avatar that u could connect with other peoples tails. It was weird.. i dont remember much of the dialogue but i know there was some going on. That's the end of it

its surprising how much i remember dreams when i take a tolerance break... lol

i miss being lucid! brings back so many memories... i might start up again, but my schedule is really busy and i have no time to practice/meditate etc.

anyways, i remember the past 3 dreams i've had in the past 3 nights.

first dream: i was part of some kind of rich family of assassins, or something like that. the dream started off with me driving to a hotel and i was supposed to meet my brother and some other dude there. i got in, checked into the hotel. when i got in, i got this "aura" or feeling like someone was outside my door, and he was not friendly. i look at my door and sure enough there's these two feet that's trying to seep its way in from the top of the door (dream imagination ftw?). as soon as i notice, he barges in and trys to kill me. i react by throwing these weird sharp stick things, dodging his attacks at the same time. i end up killing him, and a lil later my brother shows up. dream switches to a really rich mansion. i'm inside, and there's this meeting thing going on about finding our "father". supposedly everybody there was my brother and sister or something. then i go outside to the backyard, and there's these giant pools, like 4 of them. it must have been like a park in our backyard, because it was huge. that's all i remember.

second dream: i'm "auditioning" to be a rapper for eminem or something? i have to go through these tests, some weird ass tests, like eating a container full of noodles in under 2 minutes or something. there's another test that has something to do with a dog or something. i pass, and i see dr. dre congratulating me or something. TIME-OUT.. sudden dream recall: i remember something about these tons of envelopes that belonged to my uncle tito darwin. inside these envelopes held tons of free stuff, some really really valuable, like gems and gold and such, others like casual items like clothes or money or something. i stole a whole box full of those envelopes... and i dont remember much after that. anyway, back to main dream story: suddenly im in the "house" of eminem lol. i don't really see eminem at all in my dream, but i know its "his" house. i see a bunch of people, including amelia which i wave to and she waves back. i go to her to hug her but she ignores me so i kinda play it off and act like i wasnt going to hug her LOL. then... i THINK someone trys to break in and steal something from the house, and he gets away. i turn to tryndamere and i whirl out of the wall to chase him down... and the dream ends from there.

third dream: i dont remember much from this night... but all i remember is dreaming about my ex nikki. this dream made me really sad for some reason lol, i guess i was just feeling lonely in that dream (if u can even feel emotions in a dream, which im pretty sure you can.) i ended up waking up and being somewhat sad that the dream wasnt real and that i just woke up to reality. that's not really me, although i have had a lot of dreams where i wake up sad because the dream is over. unconscious emotions?

had my first lucid in like almost 2 months, finally broke my dryspell lol. i overslept, and i was dreaming that i woke up and looked at the clock. the clock said "7:18" and i was like "WTF! 7:18 in the evening" but then i noticed there was no am or pm sign next to it, and automatically boom, i become lucid. for some reason the light also went on lol as soon as i hit lucid, kinda like a lightbulb over my head. i looked at my hands and they were fairly normal. i was about to "secure" the dream and make it more vivid, but i felt like that wouldnt work as well so i tried to fly out my window asap. that didn't work very well because the dream faded lol. i became lucid again in the next dream (i forgot how), and this time, i made sure the dream was stable. i started smelling the dust on my cabinets (eh) and sneezed, touched everything blah blah. then, as i was about to jump out my window to fly, i was like, "how do i know this isn't reality right now?" lol. the dream felt so real i had to make sure that it wasn't reality and it was really a dream, so what i did was i made the dream fade out on purpose, and then came back to my original position. crazy stuff. i then jumped out of my window, where i saw people on my front lawn, so i landed there. they started talking to me about stuff and i got lost into the dream and all the action, where i also lost my lucidity. oh well

worked at starbucks, saw a bunch of friends there. felt really real.
was driving with my dad who was drunk and i was scared he was going to crash.
was waiting for my dad to pick me up at starbucks.

been a loooong time since i last wrote in my dream journal, but i've been remembering my dreams a lot lately, so here it goes

first dream i remember was that i was still in school. kevin yun came over to my house with someone else and they were in my room. i remember kevin being super annoying, jumping on my bed and crap and blasting hella loud music, making me embarrassed to have them over. i then had to go to school but kevin was ditching and was staying at my house. i was just like ugh. then i remember facebooking it LOL saying "never letting kevin stay at my house again" and i got like thousands of likes and comments saying they never will either. i then woke up like it was a nightmare for some reason.

second dream, i was in bed with my supposed girlfriend. i went over to kiss her on the forehead, and then that turned into making out and foreplay. felt super real... lol. then all of a sudden i hear like police outside, and then im on the run trying to get away from the police as i take my girlfriend with me. we did twists and turns and went through secret doorways until we lost them. we eventually stopped at some crowd to blend in. i think we met some friends there. this felt like a recurring dream, because all of a sudden the police started lining up all the people they arrested and ordered them to go to this place to get shots. they said if you know your on the list you better go with them, so i went. but i never got the shot lol. i felt like i had had this dream before for some reason, but im not sure.

third dream i remember, was being in this weird enclosed hallway. whoah wait a sec, major dream recall just happened. there was this guy, who was very sad i think i remember.. he was at the cemetery. something like that, trying to solve the answer to how someone died. a girl sees him there and falls in love with him. then dream switches to me and him and alvin in the hallway. the guy accuses alvin of killing his friend. then as he's in the middle, and alvins at the end and im at the other end, i raise my gun at him and say "confess, you killed him." alvin raises his gun as well. he starts walking towards me and i shoot, he backs away, i say "don't move... CONFESS!" he starts moving towards me, i shoot again, he backs away. then, he starts moving again, i shoot, but he keeps walking like he doesnt die. eventually i run and he tries to stab me with a knife. i counter it and take the knife from him and stab him but he still doesnt die. the dream then switches from being dark and suspenseful to something like a video game. i then decide i just want to leave so i do. turns out we were in some park. i went inside their mall thing cause i was hungry, and then i remembered that i had a disneyland gift card for $20 that i left at home so i cursed myself. i was around looking for something to drink, but i realized i already had a jumbo dr.pepper in my hand. i met ian on the way. i remember seeing my brother complain to someone on the phone about what they wanted him to buy (strawberry pizza o_O). i passed chipotle and went into the tostito store or something like that, where they had a whole bunch of i forgot what it's called.. mexican eggroll things lol. all different kinds of flavors. i met ate there, and she said hans loved meatballs lol. then the dream switches to me back at home saying bye to alvin and shenel and kalvin.

Dream Journal #30, June 6th 2011

Wow, had my first WILD today. I’m not so sure that it was the traditional WILD though, but I was conscious through SP and through the dream transition, which were both seriously crazy.

I remember hearing footsteps while I was trying to fall asleep, I knew it was my mom. She went in my room, stepped in, stopped, went back down the stairs. I’m not sure if this was just a hallucination or if it was real, but I was conscious enough to hear it but not conscious enough to open my eyes and see. Next thing I know (I don’t know how much time passed between the gap), I’m conscious just a tiny tad bit and I feel like there’s someone in the room or something. I open my eyes just a little bit, I see like a shadowy black figure right above my head (I thought it was my moms head trying to listen to me at the time), and then BAM. Vibrations and sleep paralysis. This is my first SP experience, and it wasn’t even that scary. I saw the black shadowy figure and then my arms and neck felt like they were pushed down super hard so that I couldn’t move, and I really couldn’t. I also felt the vibrations and tingly feelings. I closed my eyes and was like, “oh.. sleep paralysis. let’s see what this dream transition feels like.” No excitement at all or anything I’m always relaxed when I’m in deep sleep. After a few moments of what seemed like 30 seconds to a minute of vibrations, I feel this sudden surge of my body moving forward and the blackness turning into some sort of scene. I surge and surge and then do a front flip, and then I’m sitting on my bed. I look at my hands and they’re all crooked, but I’m having a hard time trying to focus on them and stabilizing my dream. It’s night time and it’s dark in my room so I try to bring some light… but the damn light switch doesn’t work. I use my finger to drag the sun up (it’s sundown but its still super dark), and it works, but the light from the sun doesn’t get brighter. Frustrated, I turn around, imagine there being light behind me, and turn back around. No light. Arghh. I then start to think, “What if I wake up?” The dream scene just suddenly blurs and goes into chaos and I go into an FA which I don’t seem to catch. FA isn’t that important except that I was eating some french fries that tasted really real lol. Oh well, not a very vivid WILD, but the transition from SP to dream was really cool :p

Dream Journal #29, June 6th 2011

Well, took a break from lucid dreams/dream journaling for a while.. and just had the most vividest dream yet.

I remember chunks of parts but somehow they don’t connect, the dream scene just seems to change kind of and so does the plot, but this is all in one REM period.

It starts off with me tying my shoelaces to get ready for a basketball game, and it’s like a big game, not just a regular street game. Its in an indoor court. Then all of a sudden I’m in a car with ellean, with me driving like crazy to try to lose this guy who’s trying to chase me. I do twists and turns and eventually park in a store parking lot and go inside, thinking I lost this guy. I end up seeing his car right in the same parking lot, and the guy inside the store. We both freak out, but it turns out he doesn’t know who was driving the car, he just knows that he had to take that car down. So as soon as he isn’t looking, we get back into the car and take off. We lose him. Then, seeking shelter, we go to norm’s place, his old house in Garden Grove. We see a bunch of people there working like it’s a refuge place.. and we go inside his garage to see piles of marijuana everywhere. Turns out norm is a drug dealer lol. We just stare at amazement, and we talk about stuff, but I forgot what we talked about. I then see him run out of the backyard, and burn all his marijuana, we were like WTF and we run to the smoke to inhale it all lol. Then we realize that these cop-like people (similar to the one chasing us) had discovered the house and was arresting people. These cops are bad guys, as in dictator-controlled bad guys who were trying to take over the world. I believe ellean is caught. I walk casually away like I wasn’t hiding anything, seeing if they would just ignore me. As soon as I thought I got away, some girl grabs my arm and says something like, “Do you have anything to hide?” or something like that, I forgot. I look at her face, and it’s Lauren! I was so glad to see that it was her. We talk a bit and turns out she’s a rebel, so she gives me directions to some place or something. I then wake up in some weird room, and I see a ninja like figure in the corner trying to hide his presence. I immediately know he’s up to no good, and I slash him into pieces. He has my phone, and he was tethering information to some database lol. I cancel it, but some info has already gone through. Tito Darwin then comes in the door, sees what happens, and invites me to dinner. He complains to me about something like why did I have to attack that guy, he took your phone and relayed information, now were all doomed. I had no idea what he was talking about, but I told him that I canceled most of it. Dream haziness from there,

Sigh. I don’t remember any dreams. All i remember is that I was playing Annie in League of Legends. I think most of my dreams were in League of Legends lol.

After WBTB:

aw yeah baby… finally became lucid, and this time for a pretty good length. first, let’s talk about my unlucid dream.

my unlucid dream was like, me driving this giant giant giant giant ship, through this narrow narrow hallway. it was almost like a game.. one of those games where your trying not to hit anything while steering something. I managed to hit the boxes like 10 times lol and had to start over. Then it switched to like.. me at a party. and I was married lol. And my wife was complaining about a fake dress, and I told her she looked beautiful and that we just couldnt afford to buy her a brand new one. So she said okay, and then she’s like go pick flowers for our kids. lol wut. So I did. Then comes the infamous chain FA’s…

First FA. I knew I was dreaming, because my closet was open and I always close it before I go to sleep. but as soon as I found out I awoke.. into another FA.
Went unlucid, got up, and I was like wait… how do I know I’m not dreaming. I look at the clock and it’s some weird ass time. Like 41:.039. In my mind it looked like 04:39 pm. So I was like, hell no, it is not 4:39.. did I really sleep that long? I look away, and back at the clock, and it’s still the same time. But then, the clock and everything around the clock started moving in a wave like circle. I did not find any of this weird at all.. sigh. I was still having a hard time determining if I was dreaming or not.. but by the time I tried to do another reality check, I woke up, for reals this time. I was frusturated at myself for not going lucid from that FA and was wondering whether I should keep sleeping and trying or get up. I ended up sleeping, and had another FA. This time, I made sure I became lucid. I didn’t even check the clock or look at my fingers or plug my nose. I think I just knew, because it was dark in my room and I knew that it was sunny outside. So I was like OK, I’m dreaming. I open my door expecting to go somewhere magical, nope. Although my bathroom was on the opposite side of the wall this time… clear indicator that I am dreaming. So I was like, alright, for sure I know I’m dreaming now.. let’s not lose this. I go downstairs and I almost fall because my hand goes right through the wall when I try to use it as support lol. Keep in mind I’m only in my boxers for some reason. I get to the game room, and it’s pretty foggy/hazy dreamlike. The dream starts going black, but I don’t really panic. I try rubbing my hands and spinning… but it doesn’t work. It seems like I was still in the dream, but I was like blind. I could feel myself rubbing my hands still. Eventually the dream came back, and I shouted “INCREASE CLARITY! INCREASE LUCIDITY!” “MAKE IT BRIGHTER IN HERE!” and eventually, the sun came up in a matter of 2 seconds lol and the dream became VERY vivid. I say okay, let’s go outside. I go to open the door outside, when I see Ian and some other guy about to open it too (wall hacks ftw). I was like oh shit.. im naked, and I lock it. But then I’m like wait, I’m dreaming.. they don’t care. So they open it, and they look at me noticing I’m naked, and shrug it off. They go inside and I go outside. WOW, everything was so real and so vivid.. I touched the walls (which were a different texture than what I really have), everything felt so real. My dream goal was simply to have a long and vivid lucid dream, so that’s what I simply did. I stared at the wall, looking at every detail and texture, trying to make the dream more vivid and vivid.

After satisfying myself, this is where I start to become unlucid and kind of let the dream take over me. I think of MH (a person), and I expect her to be in my backyard. I’ve never met her in person yet, so.. lol. So as I head toward my backyard, of course, she’s there. But there’s this other random guy. He eventually disappears, and MH is like, “whoah? where’d he go” and I was like “Oh, he left.” I believe I forget anything about my lucidity here.. and I go unlucid unfortunately. :/ I think it was the loneliness inside of me lol. Even though she didn’t look anything like MH, she was supposedly my girlfriend. We were hugging and kissing, and we layed down on the grass in my backyard, and it became night. The moon was huge, and we were cuddling under the night sky, talking about random things to each other. I remember the cheesy lines we said, but eh. The dream fades from there. I go into another FA.

I know I’m dreaming, I forgot how though. I do the same exact thing. I open my door, I see that my bathroom is on the opposite wall again lol. I go downstairs.. but the dream fades. I wake into another FA. SIGH these are so annoying. I’m not going to explain this FA, basically I knew I was dreaming again, but I wanted to wake up. I eventually wake up, and the time is 11:30 am, so I know I’m not dreaming anymore. All in all, good day for dreaming

Dream Journal #22, May 26th, 2011.

Don’t remember much.. only remember fragments. I was.. trying not to dream inside a dream? I’m not even sure. It may of had something to do with lucid dreams, but I woke up at 2:30 am again, marking the end of my REM. I know Dan was definitely in my dream. I remembered the dream when I woke up at 2:30 but now I forgot it lol. It may have had something to do with cars also. I remember having an FA and trying to take all my blanket and push it into something near my desk right next to me.. I forgot why. It failed and I was like damn, so I put it back. I KNOW i was trying to sell something.. but I just forgot what it was.

edit: just remembered a dream! wow this was vivid, and it seemed like i was lucid but i don’t really think i was.

so.. it started out with me in like, this dancing place? kind of like the dancing place in sucker punch, with the same teacher. the teacher was surprised to see a guy wanting to learn to dance lol. she taught me some basic moves, blah blah. then some girl asks me if she wants to go get a banana with me, and i’m like sure. at this point im thinking, wait, am i allowed to do this? will i get in trouble? but i do it anyway. then these 2 guys come out during lunch break, kevin kim, and some random ass black guy. the black guy starts to give me and alvin shit. alvin just appeared out of nowhere.. lol. i then proceed to beat the living shit out of them. like, literally, the living shit. im pretty sure the black guy died, but kevin kim survived. he was unconscious however on the floor. they’re bodies looked really weird lol. they looked liked corpses except with spaghetti noodles coming out of thier body and instead of blood it was spaghetti sauce. so now i find myself in my house, with the 2 bodies on the floor and alvin next to me. then i’m like, alright alvin lets go back. but then i’m like wait, should we hide the bodies? and alvins like umm, idk. so i decide to hide the bodies using dream control (lol wut wasn’t even lucid). so i tell alvin, “hey dude, go in like another room or something! i’m gonna make the bodies disappear with dream control”, so alvin goes to another room. i close my eyes, focus on erasing the bodies from my mind, and when i open them, they’re gone! but the time significantly changed… like i forwarded 2 hours into the future lol. alvin comes out, and i tell him, “DUDE did you see that? I did it!” and he looks at me weird and he’s like “huh? did what?” I then concluded my dream control also erased his memory lol. So we go into the living room and play this wii game.

fragment: I remember going in front of my house, it’s somewhat sunny, and theirs piles and piles and piles of beer and other drinks. I remember thinking damn, this is gonna ruin my dream recall.

Second dream I remember is playing this wii game with my brother lol. It was very similar to marvel vs capcom 3, except the characters you could play also included people from my school and other hot girls rofl. i’m not sure how they played in the gamge, but i remember owning my brother the first 6 games and then he proceeded to own me after that. i also remember texting ralph “bring weed” lol. supposedly there was supposed to be a party at my house, because i also remember my brother asking me “do you want anything” and i’m like “uhh.. nah”. sarandy comes home and he brings my brother some weird recorder tape thing that you put in your shoebox… imking to be exact. lol idk. i don’t remember anything after that.

Dream Journal #21, May 24th 2011

My dream recall is real shit right now.. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m not trying as hard? Blah. Well I only remember dream fragments at the moment.

First fragment I remember was that I dreamt that hero had died already, and he was replaced by a bird. That bird lived in the same cage as hero. The bird loved alcoholic drinks and we would give him like whiskey to get him to go into the cage lol. There was this one part where I gave him alcohol but I forgot to tell him to go to the cage and he went outside. I was like ah shit, so I gave him more alcohol to go into the cage. I then woke up? It may have been an FA or a real awakening, I don’t remember, but I woke up and I was like… man, I miss Hero. Then I was like, wait, wtf? When did Hero die? I was very confused and I thought I was dreaming so I did a reality check (noseplug/clock) and it failed. I then concluded Hero was definitely still alive and that bird was a dream.

Second sort of fragment I remember, was me being on a fucking mission. Like CIA stuff lol, except it was with my family I believe. I’m still not sure what it was about… but I remember me and my dad flying in the air with parachutes trying to land at a “recovery” point. When we landed, it goes weird from there. There were “openable gates” and we opened them and there were like regular civilians there, and I think we were showing something off? (Maybe the bird… ) That’s all I rememeber. Oh and the weather was very stormy and windy. Oh.. and I also think I remember dreaming about spongebob squarepants? wtf. He was surfing like 50 ft tides and 200ft tides or something. Or maybe that was me. Anyways, I’m definitely not trying to remember my dreams.. I clearly could remember a whole plot if I wanted to (Look up). Time to WBTB

Third fragment was me watching a movie with some random friends? I went into some random house in my random neighborhood, I was waiting for someone for some reason. I forgot what I did, but I ended up on a couch watching a movie. I didn’t even pay attention to who sat next to me. Then, someone puts their arm over my shoulder, and he’s like “Oh, sorry my bad. What’s up?” I look over and it’s Frankie lol wtf? I’m not sure if Katrina was on the other side, but it was just odd that Frankie was next to me. We then talked about some stuff I don’t remember, and I think the dream ended there.

After WBTB:

Nothing -.-

Dream Journal #20, May 23rd, 2011

I don’t remember much of my dreams.. all I know is that they were very vivid. Also took 100mg of Vitamin B6. I remember me and alvin playing some type of weird game… don’t remember what. My brother also had kdd’s phone for some reason. I come outside and I hear kdd say “make some ribs!” to my mom, and ask if it’s her birthday. She says no it already passed and kdd says “oh happy belated birthday!” I go into the bathroom and I pee, then i wake up (thank God i didn’t pee my bed).

After WBTB:

don’t remember any dreams it was a long weekend, so i’m not that disappointed.

Dream Journal #19, May 21st 2011.

Well, slept like at 3 am last night so of course I don’t really remember any dreams. Just one dream fragment though. I remember dreaming about lucid dreaming lol I was at a party, steven was there. They were doing some other thing, and then they saw me looking at lucid dream stuff. That’s all I remember. Going to WBTB now, I shall become lucid

edit: after WBTB

had a lucid, but the dream was very unstable, because there was just too much external noise coming from outside my house and inside my house, sigh.

the lucid started out as me walking in my school towards my friends. the environment and surroundings were very vivid, and they were also very familiar. i dream about school often. it didn’t take anything for me to become lucid- i knew i was lucid as soon as i saw everything. the dream faded as i became lucid, i let it fade. the dreamscape changed, but i was still lucid. i started to see the ceiling of my room, with the fan. first thing i did was rub my hands to stabilize the dream. it didn’t work… the dream started to fade again. it’s like the more i rubbed the more it faded. i awoke to little girls screaming like hell outside playing and a lawn mower. ugh. i tried to deild but it didnt work, so i got up and closed the window.

what was odd however was that i remembered a nonlucid dream in a lucid dream! something i did in the lucid dream (i forgot) triggered a memory, from before the WBTB same night. here’s the nonlucid:

I was living in my current house and i took my bike. I rode and i rode until i got to my neighbors house (this neighbor should have lived right next to me… but for some reason he was a block away now). I see that they trust me and my family a lot, but I go into their garage and steal a bunch of drinks. I bring them back to my house and tell my parents I got free drinks lol. After a while of doing this (like 3 times), John, my neighbor, comes over. He knows about me stealing the drinks and he tells my dad, I hear all this from the backyard eavesdropping. I get nervous, but I eventually just go up to John and say I’m sorry… I’ve had a history of stealing things in my past and its hard to overcome. lol. The dream ends there I believe.

Dream Journal #18, May 20th, 2011.

First and only vivid dream I remember is playing some weird game on 2 giant blown up jumpers. Like these jumpers were HUGE. lol. Actually before that, me ralph and paolo were playing poker on a jumper as well I think.. and paolo kept saying “Dang justin stop trippin out!” because I was high or something, not sure. Felt more like sleepy lol. After poker, it was like 2v2 dodgeball kind of, on these two giant jumpers. I’m not sure how the game worked lol. Then Mr.Ma kicked us out because it wasn’t lunch and we couldnt play on the jumpers (had to go on basketball court). When we got off, everybody who was playing dodgeball had a dog for some reason… and they were all aggressive af. Not aggressive aggressive, but like they always nipped on you and they were all slobbery and eww. So I washed up and went home. Then my dad offered to take me driving before we went to adys birthday. So we had to walk like a few distance to our car because he said he had to pump it? Idk. Then my alarm woke me up.

After WBTB:

I became lucid, but it was really short I blame it on myself mostly.

It starts out with me pushing a shopping cart in a parking lot. I found the whole experience to just be really weird and unordinary. I stopped, asked myself, …wait, am I dreaming? How did I get here? I then became lucid. I froze and took in my surroundings a bit, just to clear up the dream. But I got distracted by a really hot lady. I walked over and grabbed her and slowly started to make out with her because I couldn’t just let her pass by without doing anything. This was my big mistake lol. The dream faded right before my eyes before I could even think about stabilizing the dream. I found myself awoken in my bed, apathetic, and I tried to DEILD back. It didn’t really work… I think. That, or I just fell asleep.

Also something to consider… my alarm woke me up in the middle of a very vivid dream. Most likely REM. So maybe my REM cycle had something to do with it, because I knew that the dream I was having before I woke up was already pretty long (at least in dream sense). Maybe the REM cycle just ended and I went back into stage 2.

Either way, I’m kind of disappointed. Happy I got lucid, but disappointed it didn’t last long