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I have a nice typical dream where I chat with a friend. A very talkative dream character who never exist in real life. She suddenly pop of nowhere when I browse the internet on Indonesian forum community. Then I thought she was the forum founder and she gave me a blue and black member shirt which I gladly accept.

As the dream goes on I back to read Yahoo! news and I saw yesterday's head line. Then out of nowhere I was being remind that I was dreaming. I was like "really? What if it's not?". The same trick use over me again and again as the 'dream' word enter my dream mind. The mind set I had that Dream and Reality may look alike and I might not differ between both always challenge me to have one.

Then I thought "What harm would I have to test it?"

I read the news head line again. My mind do it's trick again as I thought the line would look the same as I read before if I wanted it to be. Indeed it look the same as I look again twice.

Then I held out my hand and it vanish as I slap it away with my other hand. As I confirm that I'm dreaming I felt very sleepy and tired. My vision began to darken as I wanted to faint. I try to hold on. The place that I lounge in the dream was in my guest room and there have a clock on the wall. The clock show differently as I saw it for the second time but I fail to notice that the clock was the old clock and the wall was the old paint color. Both were different from the current material I use. I was busy to fight the sleepiness.

I was like "Ow, ow, hold it!" Then all turn to black as I seem to see the back of my eyelids.

"Aww, it's gone...." I said.

I stay in the darkness for several second for I doubt it might be my subconscious doing to shut the conscious part of my mind. Heh, my sub win.

Don't know how the dream was on again where I remember I cooked in the dark. Then my brother in law talking to me in a very social way. Very talkative and joking around easily. I fail to notice the contrast here; my brother in law is actually a rock dead mute person in front of me in reality to the point he frequently got on my nerve whenever I saw him.

The dream goes on with a lot of dream sign. Although I fail to notice them all, I had fun. That's what I want.

I was at a mountain at building on 3rd floor. I seem on a trip and the building I was on looked like a temple. When I saw inside it was dark. So I was standing alone in the outside and it was so cold. (It's cold because I on a fan before slept but I didn't realise it )

When it's time to get down, people on the ground told me to just jump.

At first I want to climb down the rusty pillar on my left but didn't confidence that I could do it. Again people on the ground encourage me to jump. They even prepare something like mattress below. So I jump. Eyes close.

Only to open them again when I could gently and gracefully landing.

'Wow, I'm not hurt. My legs not hurt.' I thought to myself.

Then I join my group waiting for the bus to arrive.

"Thanks, I was freezing above." I said

We talk about something and I look at my fingers. I saw there was a long and huge ring on one of my finger.

I forgot the rest.

Sleeping time: 6.30 am - 8.00 am

I was at the school where I currently working. I forgot what am I doing in the earlier part of this dream.

I walk to my car and took something inside then my friend (Kak Dila), who parked her car beside me said.

"Ros, look at that. Why are those birds hovering around above the roof top? I'm afraid to go inside." She said.

I thought, what so weird about birds flying around? And I brought my eyes to look at the sky. At first I saw a name. I thought; this is the first time I saw that name clearly in the sky. Then I saw the birds that Kak Dila mention. It was two birds. Flying around in circles like a hawk. It's figure looked like swallow bird. The birds' eyes were shine with orange colour. The sky was quite dark like it was dusk. So, the orange eyes of those birds were clearly visible.

Then, there was a teenager appear in front of us with school uniform. His eyes shine with orange light just like the swallow birds. For unknown reason he stare dagger at me. I lower my eyes. Between him and me along with people beside me there was a fence divided us.

Then, he demand something; "Who............, turn left. Who........., turn right!" I seriously don't remember what's in the blank.

Then I turn left. I saw 2 people beside me turn right. 'Eh, why are they turn right? Am I hear it wrong?' I thought to myself. I look back at him. This time the boy turn to be a women. The women seem to scold us who inside the fence and then she said.

"Wait, don't go anywhere. I would be right back!" Then she left.

When she left, I talk to my friend. "What with her? Why should we hear whatever she said?"

"No clue." Answer my friend.

"Tell her we didn't want to hear her. Ask her to leave!" I make a demand.

My friend move forward and I bang a metal pillar in front of me to stole her attention. The scenery outside the fence change to a green field and there was a lot of women over there. My friend shout what I told her and confidence surge inside me and I did shout beside her. Tell them to leave. I heard people beside me do the same and I begun to rise my voice even louder.

Then I heard my real body made a whistle sound as want to catch up what I'm doing in the dream. I stop and think.

'Ops, this is a dream. Don't shout with all your might or my real body would shout too. My sister next door would hear me talking in my sleep.'

So I shout in moderate. Suddenly I'm being jerk awake by a loud bang because someone throw a rock on my roof.

Sleep time: 4.15 am - 5.59 am.

I was in my house inside my kitchen before it was being rejuvenate. Maybe I was with someone because I forgot the earlier part of this dream.

I think someone was saying something like this:

"Something is about to happen."

So I walk to the door and look at the sky. It was night and it seem above me there was a layer of dough wrapped over the house. But it was torn to shred and the remaining look like dimsum (chinese pork bun) top. Because of its torn condition, I could look at the starry sky.

Outside my back yard, there were several people. I ignore them and Look over my bell fruit tree. Then I walk off from the door and lean on the right side wall beside it.

The conversation went on over the group in front of me and I look at them. I saw two anime characters sat too close to each other. One was Tsuna and the other was Kyoko. Kyoko sat too close to Tsuna and she stick her face on the left side of Tsuna's face. Tsuna was complaining to her that he's embarrassed and people saw them. Then I saw Kyoko was looking at me.

I divert my eyes from them and look in front of me at the forest of coconut trees and the horizon in the background. Over there I saw several of white light that look like a star one by one rising and they move toward the west. They accumulate until it become a star parade and I notice the parade would move and circle above me. So I wait.

Not long after that the star parade indeed move and rounded above my house. As I stare at it, the stars slowly forming into an angel silhouette. After that the stars change and become pink butterflies. I notice the sky was bright and it's not dark anymore. The butterflies parade hover around some more and then it move toward the west. As I saw all that there was music play in the background.

I was in my house before it was being renovate. My main activity was in the kitchen to my second guest room. Seems like I sleep in the kitchen room too. There, I remember I fall from the bed as I thought "earth quack?"

I saw the ceiling was wet from the water tank leakage above it and about to collapse.

When I enter the guest room there were guest inside and I need to attend to them too.

Next thing I know I need to manage raw livestock too.

I get frustrated and I snap. "Why is it always me who do all that?" I said as I make a tantrum.

Then I wake up.

I was at a traditional market gathering where salesman sale their provision and livestock. As I mix with a group, there's a guy who I assume as an internet provider worker show me a timetable which full of numbers.

"Do you know what is this?" He ask me.

When I saw an earlier chart of numbers on the timetable, I quickly remember a deviant act I did on internet in my waking world. I stare at him then I close my mouth to his ear as don't want others who present there heard what I said.

"I only did it once!" I said. (If you are curious, it was nothing inappropriate but if people around me found out, I'm screw!)

He only keep quiet then stand and leave me. I quickly follow him and curious at what he really want.

Then I encounter another group of people. This time there were two people following me. We were being treated with drinks and we listen to their complain. As I listen, I saw my two companion lied down and their eyes were close. Sleeping drug? I assume and one companion of mine collapse to the ground.

As the commotions continue there's a group of female came to our way to rescue us. I assume it's the earlier group which I associate just now. But they are so slow and they were being threaten with our life.

"Come and I would slash his throat!" Said our kidnapper as she point a knife at one of my unconscious companions.

The next thing I know, we were being caught for good but I'm alone this time in a room that full with compact green glasses cells. In the cell I saw unnatural being were trapped inside the glasses cell. They look like ancient ghost in the old China or Japanese drawings. As I drift in the air, I stare at those glasses one by one. There were ghost which trapped inside the glass and there were ghost which being trapped only at their foot and hands. At that time I assume that I was a ghost too.

Then I try to prove my innocent. I once was a good ghost! I said. But this time I was viewing the dream as the third person like I was reading a comic.

I was in place like palace. As I vaguely remember the tile was shining as I walk on them.

Then I was running and I have a spray bottle in my hand. As I running I have a wide white ribbon in my hand too but I think it was not long enough. Then I press the spray and it sprout out another white ribbon that long enough as I wanted.

I ran with all my might so the end of the ribbon didn't touch the ground. Then I saw the end route and I was the first to reach it. I was first!

After the race end I crowding with my friends and I heard one of them complaining about the race.

I was in a house that I didn't know about. There were someone else there. I'm not really sure what we were doing but it seems to involve washing and car?

As we follow someone reliable to do what we want to do, the reliable someone turn to us and said something like we didn't fit to be together with him or is it them.

It's like the one said that was own a reality TV and we were from a wealthy family rent them for us to have fun with them.

So it's like he says poor people work hard and wealthy people just drift away in cosy. They kick us out from their reality TV. Seems like that.

Then I went to a room that have a kid in her earlier teen as I report to her what happened. The teen had a bear in her arm and she was laying in her bed. I join her and we lay together.

As I thought in the dream, the teen was our guardian who flood us with wealthy. She was wearing blue dress when I came to see her.

I seems in a traditional bus terminal and there were a lot of bus. I'm not sure whether I want to ride one or just drop from one. But I was walking and searching one bus after another.

As I walk, I make sure I walk in the front bus and not at their back for safety reason. Because the bus driver would see me if they want to move the bus.

I was in a bus. As I sat inside I look at the back of the bus and saw there were a lot of high school students girls. Those students wear a white Kurung and green long skirt.

As they sat there, they put their legs out the bus window. I thought that kids these day like to do extreme things.

When I'm home, my mom and I discuss the issue. My mom said kids these days are not well behave and rude. Then she told the story when she was a high school teenager, she only ride a plough (!)

And I counter it with; that's same. Once in her time, girl in plough was being regard as rude but not now. And now girls in a bus with their legs out of it's window is rude and I thought that issue would not being regard rude in the future. Older people like to complain their younger generation this and that but actually when they were young they were also brash!

I was in the main part of my house with my laptop. Suddenly a lizard pee and shit on my laptop. Uh oh...

I took a tissue to wipe it off from my keyboard laptop but suddenly the keyboard melt like being pour with acid. I just watch as my beloved laptop slowly destroy and I saw fire under it.

I felt despair and remorse. Then for the first time in my life I allow escape from reality in my dream. I said,

"how about if this is a dream? This is a dream, right? I confident that this is a dream. My laptop isn't destroy. It exist and well in my real life. I will wake up and saw that my laptop is still in good conditions."

As I said that, I was between confident and doubt.

I guess everything fade after that and I almost lost this dream.

I was walking with my sister. We wanted to take the road that directed to our old grandparents house. Suddenly we past a house and my sister said it's her friends house and she enter the yard to see if her friend was there. She was indeed there and they talk happily.

Then I also inside the house. There were a lot of people and I assume them as the whole families. I greet them all by shaking their hands including the males. Something I usually didn't do in real life. Then they want me to eat with them. Although, the dinning table was full I just accept their offer.

Next I was in my current home. I was sorting my clothes and separate them from my sis clothes. We in real life sharing our working clothes. So, I separate them to put them inside a bag. As I did that I feel a huge remorse like we would be separate forever. It just a change in life: marriage. Then I saw someone came to pick the bag.

Next I saw one of my friend was marrying someone. In fact she still in marriage lock with her husband. I said to my sister

"What the hell? She wants to marry a second husband? She and her husband were still in marriage, right?"

"Yes." My sister said.

"So, why? We didn't allow to marry two male, why this happened?"

My sister didn't said anything as she look at the couple. I saw her husband was there and the husband brought a girl beside him.

"Who's that?" I ask.

"His girlfriend." Answer my sister.

Then I assume the husband also want to marry a second wife and he was about to tell that to his wife. I saw they argue then she walk to the closet and pull out all her clothes. She want divorce and get out from the house.





My Comment:

The couple that I dream about was the husband and wife Zuli and Sali. I feel sorry that I dream about them all in such manner. They are such a happy family and what the hell I'm dreaming like that?

When I ask something was wrong to any dream character, they always keep quiet then look at the questions source. If you all just want me to realise that I was dreaming, how about just smack me in the head and say "Because you are dreaming. When will you realise that?"

Ahh~ such a stupid sadist dream. I didn't like it!

As I write my waking journal aka my day diary, I notice I didn't record one more dream that I have this morning and I search in my dream book to find the dream record. And I found none of the said dream.

But I swear I record it in my book. It turn out I actually record them in my dream? As I woke up in the dream I also think how I want to translate it in English. Am I capable of doing something like that? And I'm not mastering Lucid Dream yet. Also my subconscious already messing around with my reality without me notice?

And the dream went like this:

I'm in a car arrive at a road toll where we pay to get through. And I took out my card to pay and it suddenly turn into ATM. As I want to work the panel I was being push forward. Wha...? I was being push into another ATM machine and I assume my card at the back would be transfer forward too but again I was being push forward to the next ATM. Only at the third ATM I finish my money withdrawal.

And I assume I woke up after that and record the dream above and I didn't notice that I actually inside a dream too.

In my dream book I only note that I have a dream before the tunnel dream. I wrote; I was at home but doing what? I guess that's when I dream it.

Someone lead me to a beautiful palace. What stunned me there was the colourful and beautiful tile pattern. It have roses pattern with white smoke.

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I encounter a king by accident. My friends and I were having conversation with him and suddenly he talk to one of my friends. As they talk we realise that she was a princess which country was destroy.

Then the sultan retreat with her sending him away.

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Next I was at the top of a building. It was night and I look below where neon and car lamp were beautifully visible from above.

I was at home thinking about how I was being offer to act in a love story movie. The offer was for me to be the lead heroin.

But I refuse the offer.