lucid

I have a nice typical dream where I chat with a friend. A very talkative dream character who never exist in real life. She suddenly pop of nowhere when I browse the internet on Indonesian forum community. Then I thought she was the forum founder and she gave me a blue and black member shirt which I gladly accept.

As the dream goes on I back to read Yahoo! news and I saw yesterday's head line. Then out of nowhere I was being remind that I was dreaming. I was like "really? What if it's not?". The same trick use over me again and again as the 'dream' word enter my dream mind. The mind set I had that Dream and Reality may look alike and I might not differ between both always challenge me to have one.

Then I thought "What harm would I have to test it?"

I read the news head line again. My mind do it's trick again as I thought the line would look the same as I read before if I wanted it to be. Indeed it look the same as I look again twice.

Then I held out my hand and it vanish as I slap it away with my other hand. As I confirm that I'm dreaming I felt very sleepy and tired. My vision began to darken as I wanted to faint. I try to hold on. The place that I lounge in the dream was in my guest room and there have a clock on the wall. The clock show differently as I saw it for the second time but I fail to notice that the clock was the old clock and the wall was the old paint color. Both were different from the current material I use. I was busy to fight the sleepiness.

I was like "Ow, ow, hold it!" Then all turn to black as I seem to see the back of my eyelids.

"Aww, it's gone...." I said.

I stay in the darkness for several second for I doubt it might be my subconscious doing to shut the conscious part of my mind. Heh, my sub win.

Don't know how the dream was on again where I remember I cooked in the dark. Then my brother in law talking to me in a very social way. Very talkative and joking around easily. I fail to notice the contrast here; my brother in law is actually a rock dead mute person in front of me in reality to the point he frequently got on my nerve whenever I saw him.

The dream goes on with a lot of dream sign. Although I fail to notice them all, I had fun. That's what I want.

It's been six days since I practise to have Lucid dream. As day goes on my dream recall dropped to nothing. I was disappointed and I thought today I can't recall anything too. Yesterday before bed I read others motivation to have lucid dream and I harness my self affirmation to calm down. I could do it too. Gratefully, I recall one that I have before my actual wake up time. To my excitement it was a lucid one although I can't control it yet. The dream went like this:

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I was in a guest room in my own house. The scenery was gloom. I didn't really recall what I was doing there.

Next I went to the bathroom to prepare for the day. When I was brushing my teeth my gum bleed. I bleeding profusely. I was a little worried because it bleed abnormally.

In my logic, I have a friend who had her gum bleed as she use a certain tooth paste. So I just accept the logic that I was in the same situation as her. It's tooth paste's fault.

"Is it true? I never bleed like this when I brush my teeth before." I said as I ask myself in my heart.

"Indeed. Never but today you have." I answer myself. Not really pay serious attention to why.

After I rinse my mouth and and wash my face I notice the bathroom door was open a little. I took it as I forgot to lock the door. As I reach to the lock I notice the lock was made by a piece of wood that being nail in the middle to the door frame. It was an old lock that we use before. I also notice the wood lock was so small and can't be use to block the door shut.

"Why is this lock is so small like this?" Again I ask with my heart.

"It's usually like this."

"What a bother, isn't it usually big? It isn't small like this..... dream?.... isn't this a dream?"

As I said that I look at my left, see the sky through gapes that we have in the bathroom.

"Is this for real? No way!"

I quickly made reality check. Pluck my nose and I can breath.

"It's a dream. Oh my I'm dreaming!"

As I said that I thought my dream is so gloom. So I want to make it bright. I intended to teleport to somewhere. I made spinning technique and as I spin I feel my surrounding became dark and the bathroom begun to shrink. My dream was fading.

I was so lucky that I made the spinning technique. I stay lucid after that. I was forgot that spinning technique is for to stay lucid too.

I fail to change the surrounding. So, I said to myself, it's ok. It's your first time so take a look and feel the dream world for now. Then I get out from my bathroom.

Quite happy I repeat "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming" As I smile and running up the stairs that connect my kitchen to my main house. I feel like floating.

As I reach to the guest room, I once again make the spinning technique to see if I can change my surrounding. I fail because I can't actually picture anything. So I pinch my nose. Again I can breath, mean I'm still dreaming.

"It's ok." I said

Then I sat in the guest room and once again look around me to make myself accustomed what it feels like in the dream world.

I stare at my ceiling and I saw two lizards doing something inappropriate. As I stare at them, the lizards' form change into something a little bigger like squirrel and they float down to floor.

Not long after that I lost control and just let the dream took over again.

I once again in the stairs. I hear someone at my door. Then I saw my mother and sister doing something. Then nothing.....