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I was in the main part of my house with my laptop. Suddenly a lizard pee and shit on my laptop. Uh oh...

I took a tissue to wipe it off from my keyboard laptop but suddenly the keyboard melt like being pour with acid. I just watch as my beloved laptop slowly destroy and I saw fire under it.

I felt despair and remorse. Then for the first time in my life I allow escape from reality in my dream. I said,

"how about if this is a dream? This is a dream, right? I confident that this is a dream. My laptop isn't destroy. It exist and well in my real life. I will wake up and saw that my laptop is still in good conditions."

As I said that, I was between confident and doubt.

I guess everything fade after that and I almost lost this dream.

I was walking with my sister. We wanted to take the road that directed to our old grandparents house. Suddenly we past a house and my sister said it's her friends house and she enter the yard to see if her friend was there. She was indeed there and they talk happily.

Then I also inside the house. There were a lot of people and I assume them as the whole families. I greet them all by shaking their hands including the males. Something I usually didn't do in real life. Then they want me to eat with them. Although, the dinning table was full I just accept their offer.

Next I was in my current home. I was sorting my clothes and separate them from my sis clothes. We in real life sharing our working clothes. So, I separate them to put them inside a bag. As I did that I feel a huge remorse like we would be separate forever. It just a change in life: marriage. Then I saw someone came to pick the bag.

Next I saw one of my friend was marrying someone. In fact she still in marriage lock with her husband. I said to my sister

"What the hell? She wants to marry a second husband? She and her husband were still in marriage, right?"

"Yes." My sister said.

"So, why? We didn't allow to marry two male, why this happened?"

My sister didn't said anything as she look at the couple. I saw her husband was there and the husband brought a girl beside him.

"Who's that?" I ask.

"His girlfriend." Answer my sister.

Then I assume the husband also want to marry a second wife and he was about to tell that to his wife. I saw they argue then she walk to the closet and pull out all her clothes. She want divorce and get out from the house.





My Comment:

The couple that I dream about was the husband and wife Zuli and Sali. I feel sorry that I dream about them all in such manner. They are such a happy family and what the hell I'm dreaming like that?

When I ask something was wrong to any dream character, they always keep quiet then look at the questions source. If you all just want me to realise that I was dreaming, how about just smack me in the head and say "Because you are dreaming. When will you realise that?"

Ahh~ such a stupid sadist dream. I didn't like it!

As I write my waking journal aka my day diary, I notice I didn't record one more dream that I have this morning and I search in my dream book to find the dream record. And I found none of the said dream.

But I swear I record it in my book. It turn out I actually record them in my dream? As I woke up in the dream I also think how I want to translate it in English. Am I capable of doing something like that? And I'm not mastering Lucid Dream yet. Also my subconscious already messing around with my reality without me notice?

And the dream went like this:

I'm in a car arrive at a road toll where we pay to get through. And I took out my card to pay and it suddenly turn into ATM. As I want to work the panel I was being push forward. Wha...? I was being push into another ATM machine and I assume my card at the back would be transfer forward too but again I was being push forward to the next ATM. Only at the third ATM I finish my money withdrawal.

And I assume I woke up after that and record the dream above and I didn't notice that I actually inside a dream too.

In my dream book I only note that I have a dream before the tunnel dream. I wrote; I was at home but doing what? I guess that's when I dream it.

Someone lead me to a beautiful palace. What stunned me there was the colourful and beautiful tile pattern. It have roses pattern with white smoke.

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I encounter a king by accident. My friends and I were having conversation with him and suddenly he talk to one of my friends. As they talk we realise that she was a princess which country was destroy.

Then the sultan retreat with her sending him away.

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Next I was at the top of a building. It was night and I look below where neon and car lamp were beautifully visible from above.

I was at home thinking about how I was being offer to act in a love story movie. The offer was for me to be the lead heroin.

But I refuse the offer.

Someone take me to a city. As I recall, he want to manage something important that involve politics.

The city have a lot of skyscrapers' buildings. So the person who brought me to the city and I want to enter a building. There's a lot of people there and I was being separate from him. I saw him enter an elevator and I wait for another elevator. I guess there was someone else who walk with me behind.

So, when an elevator was available I was ready to enter it but I can't. Because, to enter the elevator I need to through a small device that look like an engine cylinder. I need to imagine myself to become small so I can enter into the cylinder. That way only could I enter the elevator. I fail to imagine myself to become small and enter the cylinder. I could feel an engine oil in my mouth when I fail (ha ha ha...). Then I return back to the one who walk behind me earlier as want a comfort.

He and I wait for another try but can't do that because a lot of people flood in and everyone want to use the elevators (there's a lot). So, I went to another alternative - the stairs. I don't really mind to use stairs because I only want to go to the fifth floor.

As I walk to the stair, it turn out that the stairs didn't have wall on it right side. So I could see people below and I saw two people that looked like a Mafia. They wear a black suite and a fedora, smocking cigarette. They look up and saw me and I turn back to find another route.

As I walk I arrive inside someone's hotel room (It's a suite room) and I saw a women praying in front of a wide window. Her back toward me. I pay no attention to her and I continue walking as the stairs lead me. The stairs I walk turn wide in size and suddenly I encounter someone praying in the middle of the stairs. Again her back toward me. I stop as I thought her direction of praying was wrong. It should face toward the window as I saw the earlier women before.

The women then stood up and turn her face toward me. I saw a small moustache on the face. It's a male in women's attire! Then he bow and apologize in Japanese language "sumimasen" he said. I seems in a rush and I abandon him. But I'm not sure what make me thinking like this; "It's a\the Mafia boss!!"

(Oh I remember why. I thought the Mafia want to caught me and the boss was horribly disguise as a women to trap me.)

Then I arrive at a place that full with glass containers. They are glasses which being made into beautiful accessories but the inside was not something beautiful. I thought they were raw meat.

Then suddenly I saw my dream as a third person. There I saw a women and a group behind her talking with another group of people that I assume a group of Mafia. They were upset because someone tress passing their secret room. The women was speaking Chinese and I understand what she say. She said she was sorry because she arrive here by accident.

One of the Mafia said "Chiu!" and all his people took out their small gun from their pocket and point it toward the women's group. But the women's said "We have guns too." And they took out their said weapon gun.

The Mafia group said "fake!" and I quickly understand that the women's group's weapons were fake guns. They freak out (Sawada Tsunayoushi style) and dropped their gun and everyone make "Hiiiee!!" sounds as they lurch to their side.

Then after that the scene revolve to a new event.

I was going home from somewhere and was driving toward a tunnel. There was a voice saying that I will enter a dark and long tunnel. As I drive there was someone riding a bicycle in front of me. Although, the rider was slow I just follow behind him because the tunnel passage was too narrow.

As we move deeper, we arrive at the tunnel most darkest passage. It was pitch black and we can't possibly see anything. So, I switch on my lamp and I get closer to the rider and I ask him;

"Hey, want a ride?" I mean it for him to latch on my back.

Then we through the dark passage together and I suddenly riding a bicycle like him. I can't speed up because I saw my bicycle was a three tyre bicycle with the paddle was at the front tyre. It was a toddler bicycle. In the dark I saw the passage was made by wood. There were close windows. Then we arrive at a block passage. It was a bathroom and beyond the bathroom was a close door we need to through.

"A barrier?" I said.

At first I hesitate to go further but I didn't back down. Then I look at my own bicycle and I easily upgrade it. When it upgrading, the front tyre change and become bigger and have the paddle in the proper adult bicycle. A proper sport bicycle to be exact.

Ready to ride and I paddle the bicycle. It went really fast and I didn't aware when I through over the barrier. Like I care, so I rode until I arrive at the destination. It was in a new scene. Because I rode the bicycle really fast, I felt like my body was buzzing. So, I kneel on my knee to let the buzz stop and at the same time I stare at my left hand. I saw it was de-solve like an unclear image in television but I took it in the dream as my body molecule didn't arrive yet. I was move super fast so of course my body molecule took a little second to catch up!

The man who following me was unconscious. 'It was too fast, huh?' I thought.

The destination was in a room. The wall was paint with peach colour and there was a single bed. I place the unconscious man in that single bed and I said to him; "Sleep tight, ok?"

Site note:

I think I saw me in this dream wearing a green sweat shirt that have horizontal stripes.

I was in front of my desktop computer. It was on and my sister was there.

So I on my laptop and leave it for something I didn't remember why. As I return to it, I harbour a thought if my big brother was using it. He might make fun of me if he know what I'm doing in my laptop.

As I reach my guest room (I actually leave it there?) I saw him indeed using it. I thought about it, he might use it to update his Blog and Facebook and I feel I didn't like it. But I didn't took it back from him.

As I walk to ma bedroom, he ask; "want to use it?" and I said yes.

Then I went into my bedroom. I think there was some talk about what I do in my laptop.

I was in my home and through my school collection. A Dragon Ball pencil case (which I own when I was at the last year of my high school. Now was gone) was in my hand. As I look at it, there were four school emblems attach to it.

The emblems were not as I remember in my real life so I ask my sister 'if this is our new school emblem?' and she answer "no."

I just stare at one of them. It was made with cloth and it was embroidery emblem. Then I thought at myself that it was the first generation embroidery emblem that was made since it didn't done nicely (how could I?).

Comment:

Actually there was no embroidery school emblem that I ever own. And my dream character speak the truth. My high school emblem was never change but I didn't believe her.

I was enrol in a new high school. It was a hostel school too.

A school setting that I always dream about. I went in the hall for entrance ceremony. Seems like there was dinner or is it lunch? But I missed it.

I'm in a room. Not sure what I'm doing there.

Someone came in and someone beside me told me to hide behind a door. He was wearing a suite and a hat (as a detective should be) As I follow him there's another one who follow behind me. So we cramped behind the door that we hide.

I was worried that our third company would be seen by whoever was in the room. There was someone talking and I can hear them quite clearly but can't remember it.

I drive on road before in front of my high school and I saw there was event there. The school was broadcasting a theme song that I assume as the event theme song.

I didn't remember what the event for but later I was involve in the event too. Inside I stare at a backdrop, made by a white cloth. There were some writing there. I read them once then when I want to read them again they seems not there.


Dream signs.

Action related sign: 0

Form changing related sign: 1

Odd context related sign: 1

Inner awareness related sign: 0

It's been six days since I practise to have Lucid dream. As day goes on my dream recall dropped to nothing. I was disappointed and I thought today I can't recall anything too. Yesterday before bed I read others motivation to have lucid dream and I harness my self affirmation to calm down. I could do it too. Gratefully, I recall one that I have before my actual wake up time. To my excitement it was a lucid one although I can't control it yet. The dream went like this:

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I was in a guest room in my own house. The scenery was gloom. I didn't really recall what I was doing there.

Next I went to the bathroom to prepare for the day. When I was brushing my teeth my gum bleed. I bleeding profusely. I was a little worried because it bleed abnormally.

In my logic, I have a friend who had her gum bleed as she use a certain tooth paste. So I just accept the logic that I was in the same situation as her. It's tooth paste's fault.

"Is it true? I never bleed like this when I brush my teeth before." I said as I ask myself in my heart.

"Indeed. Never but today you have." I answer myself. Not really pay serious attention to why.

After I rinse my mouth and and wash my face I notice the bathroom door was open a little. I took it as I forgot to lock the door. As I reach to the lock I notice the lock was made by a piece of wood that being nail in the middle to the door frame. It was an old lock that we use before. I also notice the wood lock was so small and can't be use to block the door shut.

"Why is this lock is so small like this?" Again I ask with my heart.

"It's usually like this."

"What a bother, isn't it usually big? It isn't small like this..... dream?.... isn't this a dream?"

As I said that I look at my left, see the sky through gapes that we have in the bathroom.

"Is this for real? No way!"

I quickly made reality check. Pluck my nose and I can breath.

"It's a dream. Oh my I'm dreaming!"

As I said that I thought my dream is so gloom. So I want to make it bright. I intended to teleport to somewhere. I made spinning technique and as I spin I feel my surrounding became dark and the bathroom begun to shrink. My dream was fading.

I was so lucky that I made the spinning technique. I stay lucid after that. I was forgot that spinning technique is for to stay lucid too.

I fail to change the surrounding. So, I said to myself, it's ok. It's your first time so take a look and feel the dream world for now. Then I get out from my bathroom.

Quite happy I repeat "I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming" As I smile and running up the stairs that connect my kitchen to my main house. I feel like floating.

As I reach to the guest room, I once again make the spinning technique to see if I can change my surrounding. I fail because I can't actually picture anything. So I pinch my nose. Again I can breath, mean I'm still dreaming.

"It's ok." I said

Then I sat in the guest room and once again look around me to make myself accustomed what it feels like in the dream world.

I stare at my ceiling and I saw two lizards doing something inappropriate. As I stare at them, the lizards' form change into something a little bigger like squirrel and they float down to floor.

Not long after that I lost control and just let the dream took over again.

I once again in the stairs. I hear someone at my door. Then I saw my mother and sister doing something. Then nothing.....