Grischkaja's world of dreams and mysteries

Hours of sleep: 7
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 1/5

I'm in a supermarket. I don't rememeber what I'm doing there, but it seems that I know the people working there. Only thing I clearly remember is this:

On the walls, there are posters saying:
If you meet Micheal, call the office.
Strange. I ask someone who's working there, what these poster mean. He says:
There is a guy called Micheal, who pretends to be a cashier. He goes through the supermarket and offers help to our customers to find what they want. But in reality he isn't a help at all, even worse: by doing the wrong things on purpose, he scares our customers off.
Only problem is,that nobody knows how he looks like. :/

It has been a while since I wrote something in my DJ.
Unfortunately, I didn't have the time to post something and in addition, I had not enough sleep during the last month.

But this is changing again. Next week, the courses are free thank God (or better: thank the government). So I will have enough sleep to practice again the whole lucid thing.

Well last night:

I was really exhausted because I studied all the evening long until 11p.m. I went to bed and I want to relax a bit. I instantly felt how heavy my body was. It remembered me instantly of the very beginning of sleep paralyses.
Exactly in this moment, I hear strange noises witch remind me of the sound of a fridge. It came to me in waves. I relaxed even more and I had the feeling that I was floating in the air, raising and sinking through my room. It felt very cool and didn't scared me at all, because I knew it was only in my head.
After 5 minutes or so, I tried to move in thoughts my body. I managed to move my fingers and my hands a bit. I wondered if I was already in some dream or if the sleep paralyses had already gone away.
I want to open my eyes, but I realize that my eyes are already open. It's bright in my room, but I see things blurry. My vision clears up and I realize that I'm lying in my bed. I know that I'm dreaming. I want to get up to leave my bed and to explore my dreamworld. But for some reason, I wasn't able to move. I thought:
- Damn! I feel that my real bod. I have to try moving a bit and not to think about my real body.
I slowly moved my fingers but suddenly, out of no-where ......

..... A DC appears in front of me! He's sitting on my chest! That's why I'm not able to move!

I shouted:
- Go out!
HIs answer:
- No, your chest is comfortable!

I awake. I'm pissed turn to the left side of my bed and fall back to sleep again.

Today I was so tired that I started to Rem with opened eyes while sitting in course. OMG, my eyes just kept closing all the time. I was never so exhausted

Something weird happened tonight.
It's 11:00 pm and I go to sleep. I lay at my back, my hands on my stomach and I look at the ceiling. I get sleepy and close my eyes. After 5 minutes or so, I start feeling dizzy. I get a buzzing sensation. I realize that this might be sleep paralysis. I try move my hands. I can feel that I'm able to lift my hands. I stretch my arms out. I still have this buzzing sensation. I think about it and than I realize that it is impossible to stretch my arms out, because the bedsheets were lying on me! I open my eyes. I feel that my arms are still lying on my stomach. The buzzing sensation goes away.
I think about it a few moments, I'm confused. I turn to one bedside. And again after a few moments I get this buzzing sensation. It drifts away and comes back. It repeats itself a few times. I try to take advantage of this and imagine that I was moving my dream body.
My eyes are closed, everything is dark I start to see a dimmed light. I see that I'm in a cinema. There are a lot of people. A DC suddenly vomits on his neighbour. I feel very dizzy and the dream fades away.
I do a RC and I realize that I'm awake. I turn to the other side and sleep this time without any buzzing or so, but also with no dreams

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 4/5
Recall:4/5

1. I'm in a kinder garden. I'm the teacher, or at least I'm in a practical training. There are some kids. There is another teacher. He is very rude to one boy. He pulls him out of the class and locks the door. I'm kind of confused. In front of me is another boy. He has a bottle of water in his hand and he drops it. The water lands on my feet. I feel the water, my socks are already wet. So I don't question reality. First, I thought that he dropped it by accident. I tell him, that it doesn't matter. He replies that he did it on purpose. I'm even more confused and I want to punish his act, but I have no clue what to do.
The scene changes and I'm in a park. There are a few teens. They fight each other. As I approach, they run away. What the ...? I don't know what happened there exactly. I keep on walking. I leave the place and I'm in front of a big house. It's hot outsides. In front of the door there are stairs. A DC sits on it. He's crying. I ask him what happened. He said that his son was involved in a robbery. And that he now sits in a jail for teenagers. I'm shocked, but somehow embarrassed, because I don't know what to do next. So I leave him alone and go to a different place.
I now go up a hill. There are a lot of trees. I see a big stone on the side of the road. I stop there, because I see that there is a box. I open it and I see that in it there is my novel I wrote and sent to a publisher. The pages look weird, there a few words which are deleted and some brown random words were filled in. I get angry: I realize that someone has stolen the script, and that's why the publisher never wrote me back. But I don't take it, because I want to catch this bastard.
I run down the hill to the house. The DC isn't there any more, but my car is there. I jump in it and drive up the hill. I see the same previous group of teens. They are looking at the pages and start to rip them apart. I drive towards them, they run away through the wood, so that I don't get them.

2. I'm in my favourite club. A friend is there. I remember that the last time I saw him, he was completely drunk. I take a look at him and see, and he's still drunk. He goes to the bar and orders something more to drink. I go towards him and say to him he had better to stop drinking. He asks why and drinks his beer. I answer him that he is drunk.
- Drunk? No I'm fine!
He goes away, but he walks normally. I look again at him and he doesn't seem to be drunk any more.

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 4/5
Recall: 3/5

I'm at my busstaion. And I'm sitting in a wheelchair.I try to go forward but my wheelchair is hard to move. After some moments I finally get rolling my wheelchair. It moves slowly. I cross the road. The cars stop and wait until I get on the other side. But it takes so long to cross the road. On the other side, I realize that a man in a wheelchair too follows me. I ignore him and roll to my house. I see the stairs, the door is opened.
Suddenly I'm inside with my wheelchair and I roll to the kitchen. Ma parents are there. They ask me why I let in a stranger?
- A stranger? About whom are you talking about?
They point in my direction and this wheelchair DC is insides. He is smiling but than he realizes that he's wrong here and rolls back to the entrance.
- Why did you take the wheelchair? ask my parents.
I answer that I don't know. I look at my foot and see that my left foot is plastered. My parents give me crutches. I take them and go outsides.

Suddenly I'm in a building. There is a tall man. I say to him that I have to go upstairs, but I can't because of the crutches. I jump on his shoulders and he carries me The building looks like a mall, but there is a river and a enormous hole with one narrow bridge. The DC wants to go over the bridge. I say him that's to dangerous. I jump of his back and jump on one foot to the river. I try to cross the river by swimming, but my foot is to heavy and I begin to drown. I soon have any breath. I panic

I awake!!!! O Gosh! I missed an opportunity to get lucid. Why didn't I start to breath under water?

Hello. I had a series of dreams. They were at some places a bit scary. I'm surprised that I didn't realize that I was dreaming, because they were a it weird. Only good thing is, that girl n. didn't show up lol

Hours of sleep: 8h
Vividness: 4/5
Recall: 4/5

1. I'm in a mallI wonder if this is a new dream sign lol. There are a lot of people. Something isn't right, the people are nervous. I'm afraid and don't know what is going on. I want to leave and walk towards a door. But it's closed. I get more afraid and start to panic a bit. I'm nervous and go to a DC. He tells me that we are trapped in this mall and something odd is going on: although the mall is closed and no one gets outsides, some people disappear. I realize this and I get nervous. There is a security guy. He's nervous too. He wants that we go on a different floor. He tells us that we have to hide us somewhere. Most of the people go somewhere else. I go upstairs in the second floor. I go in a broom cupboard. There is also someone else in it: there is a guy, who is really nervous. I ask him if he knew what was going on. He tells me, that some kind of creature is going around in the mall. It catches the people and looked them up in a room too eat them afterwards I panic. I ask him if we are safe in this cupboard. He tells me that this creature was sighted in the first floor. I ask him where the police is. He tells me that most of them are already trapped and few of them run away. They locked up the mall, that this creatures doesn't escape. I get angry about that and I leave the cupboard, although it's dangerous. I go back to the stairs and look down. There is this creature. It looks like a big-foot or something like that. I panic and run away.
I awake. I have my eyes closed. I'm still scared. I don't want to open my eyes because I remembered immediately the last time when I had an nightmare: I awoke and had some weird hallucinations, had the feeling that there was someone who started to pull my legs. So I decided to let my eyes closed, because I already started to get some weird feelings. I tried to calm down and fell asleep immediately
I have still this paranoid feeling. But this time I'm in falling down the sky I'm not alone, there are a few other guys. We are skydiving. A second after, I'm already at the ground. I talk with a DC and say him that it's the second time I did this. I've never skydived before lol. We look a the sky and I see that there are others skydivers. They are dressed in blue. I start running towards the place they are landing. I ask them who they are and they said:
- We don't know, but we are no aliens
What the heck? I want to say something but something terrible happens. We see a burning plane in the sky. It crashes in the ground. I'm scared to death.
My view changes and I see that this crash isn't real, but that I'm watching TV. I start laughing. A family DC shows up and he's angry about the film. He says that this film is shitty and he doesn't want to watch it.
Note: This doesn't make sense at all.
3. I'm in a bus. A university professor enters. In real life, she is really talkative. I hope that she doesn't sits down next to me, because I don't want to speak. BUt she sits down next to me. I say hello, but she doesn't replies. She doesn't start a conversation and doesn't talk at all. I'm surprised. After a few minutes she leaves and get out of the bus.
A second after, I'm standing in front of my home. There are a few friends. They want to talk with me. But I have a really depressing feeling. I'm apathetic and don't show any kind of feeling, although I'm crying in my thoughts.
4. I'm sitting in a bar. In front of me is a table. There is an empty glass a bottle with something alcoholic and a bottle of pineapple juice. I have to mix my drink at my own. I don't have a clue what I'm doing there nor, what drink I ordered.

I finally awake.
PS: Something is wrong with me. These dreams (and the previous ones) reflect this. Unfortunately.

Hours of sleep: 8 h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall:2/5

I'm in my childhood house. I want to go to the attic to have a better view on the garden. I'm in the staircase to our appartement. I'm between the ground and the first floor. I look outside the window. I see my dad watering flowers. I start going upstairs. While I walk, I see that there lay a few stones, I pick them up and put them in my pocket. I keep on going upstairs.
I'm now on the last floor (It's floor N. 4). I loo outside the window. I still see my father watering flowers, but it seems that I'm still on the ground floor. I think: WTF is going on?!?
I look at my right. There is my brother: he says that he loves garlic. I realize that this is a dream. I want to confirm it with a RC.

I awake, because someone knocks at my door!!

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 4/5

It's dark outsides and I'm standing on a bus-station. I know that the bus is late. Next to me is a friend. She looks bored and stares in the sky. I'm not in a mood to get involved in a conversation, so i keep looking to my right and look at the driving cars. Suddenly I hear a voice through a microphone. It sounds like those lines which are repeated at train stations. It says:
- To all passenger, please look at your right, because the bus 7.3 finally comes a few minutes late. We apology for any inconvenience, but it was impossible for the bus to come in time, because it was involved in a terrible accident. Thank you for your attention!
I'm confused and look to my right. A bus drives at the street. It has no top, it still burns a bit. the driver isn't hurt and drives happily on the road. I think that this might be a dream. I'm really confused, because all this doesn't makes sense at all. I realize that this is so impossible and I'm convinced that this is a dream. BUT for some reason I loose lucidity and I walk away from the station.
I meet my brother. Next to him is a weird guy. We walk to our old childhood house. We enter it and go to the 2nd floor, where our apartement used to be. It's still there, but it's really dark inside. We enter. I run towards my old room. I know that I've forgot something. I search in the dark and find finally, what I'm looking for.... It's a box with cornflakes I go downstairs and open the door.
Suddenly I'm in my old school. It's biology class. Our teacher is angry. We asks who has not forgot his box with the cornflakes. I answer and show him the box. He gets more angry, because it's not the right brand. He shouts at me and he makes now a surprise test. I look t the floor for a second and than look in front of me. The surroundings have changed again and i'm in the cafeteria of my university. I see tons of people.

I awake.
Note: WTF?!

Hello : / My dreams get weirder and weirder. I realize that something bothers me deep inside me. I don't know... I'm afraid what I may find deep inside me...

Hours of sleep: 7h
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:3/5

I'm standing outsides in a street. I have to wheels and on one a seat is fixed. I sit on the seat and I make movements with my hands if I'm driving a bike. I suddenly start driving and it reminds me of a motorbike. But the handlebars are invisible. I don't see the engine either.
I somehow realise that this is a dream. But it doesn't bothers really. I keep on driving and suddenly, I'm in a mall. I drive around and I get of my bike. I want to go to the cashiers, But I circle through the mall. Every time I'm near the cashiers, the open ones are full, so I keep circling. A few times while making a new turn, I meet girl N. . Every time she sits on a barstool. Next to her is a guy. She always says when she sees me: "That's my new boyfriend" and kisses him as long as I can see her. While kissing him she looks at me. Her eyes are saying, that she just wants to tease me.
I repeat this scenario at least 10 times and I finish in the moment that I see that all cashiers are full. I don't know what happens next. I end up in a blank room,sitting in a corner, face to the wall and I cry.

O Gosh... What do I want in Reality... CRAP!

Hours of sleep: 9.0 (Yeah! )
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 1/5 (O no! )

I'm walking through a snowy street. Next to me is a girl: it's an ex-classmate. We are talking about something, I don't really know about what. Only thing I remember is, that I tried to develop our superficial relationship, which is limited to "Hello! I'm ok! And you? How was your week" , to something more deep. I tried to make some jokes as I use to do. But she doesn't even smiles....
I get a bit disappointed and I feel that I'm loosing her attention. So I think about doing something weird.
While walking, I let fall myself at the ground and pretend that I slipped out on the ice.
Note: Where the hell does the snow comes from? No snow has been falling since February.
I'm lying on the ground and I'm spinning around. I stretch my arm out, that she can help me to get up. But I wanted to make her fall by pulling her hand.
Note: What was I thinking? That makes no sense!
Only problem is this: She doesn't gives a damn! She looks at me as I'm spinning stupidly around on the ground.
This keeps on going a few seconds, a lot of people come around and watch my performance. She simply goes away.
I try to get up on my own and let fall my purse. I see that an hobo picks it up. He gives it me back. I thank him and he goes away. I look in it and I see that my credit card is missing. I start shouting to catch the people's attention on the hobo, but they didn't move and just look at me stupidly

The End.
PS: When I see this hobo again, I'm going to kick his ass!

Hello. Man my subconscious is really though
Hours of sleep: 6.5
Vividness: 2/5
Recall:2/5

I'm standing in front of my old school. I enter it with someone (a friend). She says that we could use this chance to see our ex-biology-teacher.
I don't want to see him. I know that he's against to the fact that I'm studying education. I try to avoid the cafeteria, because I know he's there. I start arguing with her, try to find some excuse to not go there. She gets angry and says:
"You cannot run away your hole life! You are too afraid to see him face to face, that he says that you are making a mistake by choosing education and not chemistry or biology. And you know that he might be right. You know that you have got potential to became a good researcher. And you will never know if he's right! Screw you!"

... Well ... No comment

No dreams
Hours of sleep: 6.8h

Good morning
Well, I just remember a few fragments. I definitely need more sleep. My recall is getting worse and worse.

Hours of sleep: 6.5
Vividness: 2/5
Recall: 2/5

1. I'm on a beach. I want to go to the other side of the beach. I go towards the sea. I see that there is a river who leads to the sea. I want to cross the place, where the river enters to the sea, but the stream is to strong. I try to cross it twice, but I don't manage to get over it. So go back to my towel. There are a few DC and I start some conversation.
2. I'm on a busstation. My parents are there and a few friends. I ask my dad what we are doing here. He says that we have to the city D. I tell him that this is not the right station, because the bus leads to the town E. I tell him exactly the right way we had to pass to get the right bus and how long it will take. I don't know why, but he gets angry.
I realize that my friends are here and want to talk to them. But I don't manage to start a conversation with them.
3. We are in bus. It drives through a mall. It drives over stairs, the people look a bit awkward. I wonder what I'm doing here. The bus finally drives in an elevator. I look out the window and see a DC. He looks at me really awkward. As response to his look, I start waving and say Hello.

That's it.
PS: I want epic dreams!

Hello :/ It's a bit late but I was too busy to write my dream down. And this dream just reflects the evening I had in my favourite club.... in some way. lol

Hours of sleep: 6h
Vividness: 3/5
Recall 1/5

I'm in my favourite club. There are a few friends hanging around. It's already late, a friend, who was the diver, said to me that it was time to go. We walked out, I had some kind of strange feeling. I had the feeling that something terrible is going to happen. But i don't care and we walk out.
Outsides, there is a street. In front of us is a pub or club.

This place doesn't exist in reality. I remember that this place was already a few times in my dreams. One time it was an hotel, an other time a pub.

I know that something is different, but I don't question reality. I say to my friend we should go in, because it's an awesome place. But he is a bit angry: he wants to go home, because he's tired.
I don't know what happened next. We ended up in a club. This strange feeling doesn't disappear. I know something horrible will happen.

...

Well, something strange happened. Suddenly girl N. shows up. She wears an awful t-shirt, which is too short and reveals her belly. AND... it's a beer-belly!!!!!! I just think WTF!?!?!? She starts speaking and says that:
- I don't care any more about my appearance. When no-one wants my body, I have the right to eat what I want and as much as I want. F*ck you guys!!!!!

Note: I first remember the part of the pub. But the part with girl N. came into my mind as I was sitting in the kitchen drinking my coffee for breakfast. AND it gave me a strange feeling.OMG, what is my brain thinking subconsciously??? It's kind of disturbing