HeSpeaks7

Dreams

-Field Trip

A group of teens my age and I were on the side of a hill, off of a road. I forgot why. I was more outgoing and wise than my normal self. A guy was acting out because he wasnt accepted. He put on sun glasses, I could tell he put them on to become more acceptable, not because he liked them. I told him he doesnt have to wear them, to just be himself. Since he thought of himself lowly, he thought I was makng fun of him. I assured him that I wasnt and told him a couple other things. He said that he was starting to trust me, to be his friend; I was probably his best friend there, cuz everyone made fun of him.

We all went back up the hill, onto the road, and into our school bus. We rode in the bus for a while. During which, I socialized with other people. There was a pretty, brown-skinned girl sitting in the seat next to me. As we neared our destination she asked me to be her boyfriend. We had a thing going on for a while now, and I accepted. As we got off of the bus she said,' I love you,' in a kind of joking tone. I replied,' I love you too,' in a more serious tone. 'Wow, thank you!' she replied astonished. I dont think she really gets loved by people.

We get off the bus, the class and us are walking into what looks like a science facility of some type. My new girlfriend and I stay behind the crowd. The teachers are leading the pack, not checking the people in the back. When we get into the building, we see a restricted area door. We wait for our group to trail off a while. Then she just opens the door and runs in, I take a last check, and run in. There's an operating machine and nothing else in the room. We climb over it and go down a vertical shoot. I went first. From the bottem of the shout, we can see a hallway and a man in scrubs pushing a cartwheel. We make sure that we dont move at all so that we dont get spotted. Then a couple other people walked past. When the coast was clear we decided to leave, since we couldn't go in any further. I jump and pull myself up and out of the shout. I look back down to see how she was doing. Apperantely, she didnt think she could get herself up, and was holding a hand up to me. I reached down to grab her hand, and pulled her out of the shout.

We snuck out of the restricted area door and walked down a hallway into a lunch room. Our class had already left by this time. So we leave the facility and see our bus still outside. We walk in it, knowing everyone else has already left. Our teacher, who resembled Julius Caesar, waited for us the entire time. As we walked in I said,' I love the dedication of Milwaukie teachers that you would wait for us this entire time.' 'Ya thanks a lot,' my girlfriend said.

Fragment 1

I was in a place that resembled a mall. Yet only a few people were walking around. I was here to go into another dimension with some other people. I don't know if it was dream preminision or if I remembered having this dream before, but I saw that the other people and I would come out into a maze sort of place. Yet it was a difficult maze, more of a 'choose your path' kind of deal.

I go up to the help desk of this 'mall', and the guy pointed over in the direction of the 'shop'; that was really just there for jumping worthy people to the other dimensions. Worthy meaning, they know about spirituality and have reached the point in their personal and spiritual development to be ready to take the jump into the other dimension.

Anyways, the 'shop' was in a coldasack of other shops in the mall. I walked up to the 'shop'. I saw other people going into a different store, all the other shops were legit stores. The 'shop' was kept secret of its real purpose. I go in to meet an old man who looks to have been doing this for quite some time. Im not sure if I was in the back of his 'shop' or this was the whole thing, but I was in a house. It was small though, a bit cramped, and had old classy decorations. I talked with him for a bit and he went into his closet and traced his finger down one of the corners that had blue painting tape on it. He told me to stay in the closet while he performs the teleportation. I can't remember what happened after that. Im pretty sure I wasn't teleported with any other people, which would be uncommon. Maybe the memories of already going into another dimension was due to poor structure of the dream and was shown before it's time came.

Fragment 2

I completely forgot the trip into the other dimension. I remember walking along on a journey. A scavenger hunt of sorts, but aimed at learning wisdom from the world. That I was supposed to look at every situation and analyse it. To extract wisdom and meaning from it, to learn from it. For some reason my little brother George was with me. Actually he himself probably just jumped into my dream to see what I was doing.

Anyways, we're walking down a dark road next to a river when we see 4 guys with a big tube, chemicals, and some other items. I decided for George and I that we would nonchalantly watch them, because they looked as if they were going to blow something up. They went down onto a small dock on the river. So we went onto another small dock to watch them.

I had a string or something because I flung it into the water. I think it was a form of fishing. A fish began to tug it hard, so I tugged back, but with only minimal success. My intuition told me to let it pull me so I let the 3/4ft fish carry me away, I could barley set my feet on the ground as quick this thing was going. It lead me straight up to the 4 men. They were Caucasians with bald or had very short hair. I talked to them and found out that they weren't planning to blow anything up. I told them that I was watching them, because I thought they had a bomb. They were actually pretty cool guys. After that I set off further on my journey.

Fragment 3

I don't know at what point my little brother stopped following me, but I came up to a tree that had a Hawaiian hut hanging in the middle of the top. And a ladder built onto the tree. I remember going up there with my spiritual master and all our friends and him finding what his spiritual master left here for him. For my master, it was the conclusion and wrap up of his journey.

Alone, I climbed up the ladder and in the small hut. Getting into it was a bit of a challenge since it was highly unstable due to it being suspended by only a rope. But I got in. There was a circle cover, made of wood, on the floor of the hut. I removed it and found my phone, which my master had taken from me so that I could focus on my journey. On it was a video my master had recorded, a message to me.

He said that I can now teach myself and don't really need his guidance anymore. He also said that he would die. Im not sure if it was by suicide, ascension, or disease. I cried for a moment at that. Then remembered that he would be a spirit and still visit. Though it wouldn't be the same. Usually I try to keep a conservative, Catonian mindset, so when I cry, it's for a good fucking reason.

I didn't watch the entire video and climbed down the tree, pocketing my phone. I walked back down the road I came by.

Fragment 4

I remember passing by the river again, though in the daytime. I saw a group of people training for a swimming contest.

Afterthoughts

This dream leaves the feeling of the End of a great ride. I believe its possible that my spiritual master in real life concocted this dream for me. I feel like I learned a lot of things, had a great experience, and met a lot of great people. But I can't remember anymore of the dream.

Dream

I remember being in an auditorium at a pool function. The Marine recruiters gave a quick presentation to the other Marine poolies and I. Everyone began to exit the auditorium out the back right exit. I fumbled around in my duffle bag for about 30 seconds. I don't remember what I was doing.

Next thing I remember I exited the auditorium and I stood outside in a dead grass, forest area. I saw my fellow poolies at the beginning of an obstacle course, roughly, in a 6x15 formation, crouched in a ready position, at the beginning of the obstacle course. I toke my helmet off, to see what I was wearing on my head. My fellow poolies and I wore a desert camoflauge, I couldn't tell if it was the new experimental ones or the old ones. I think it was the new experimental ones though.

"Come on Patterson!" Ssgt. Gauge shouted.

They were all waiting for me to get in formation. The formation was sloppy, but it looked like an open spot was left for me in the formation. There was space for me to be with them. a part of them. I put my helmet back on and rushed over and got in formation, and crouched down.

"Go!" Ssgt. Gauge shouted.

The front of the formation climbed up a chain and climbed over the other side, and climbed down. then the middle, then it was my turn. I was one of the last guys to hit the obstacle. The other 2 guys pathetically tried to climb up the chains with not much success. I jumped up on the chain and gave it my all. That got me about 3/4s up, before I couldn't take anymore. I looked back up at it. It seemed easier than it looked. So based off of naive logic, I decided it was that easy and barely made it over the top. While the other poolies waited for us, crouched next to a hilly wall of mud at the tree line.

I don't really know why, but I felt inadiquet for some reason and I jumped in a ditch and crawle under the obstacle and out the other side. I guess I walked away from it.

Afterthoughts

Along with the feelings I've been getting, this dream is a call to change. A call to being a Marine. Soon I will not be sitting around home all day. I will be in bootcamp and on my path to being a Marine. My time for learning wisdom is closing for a while, so that I can focus on becoming a Marine. Though, in a couple years I will be back to exploring the nature of the universe and wisdom again, while being a Marine. Ooorah

Dream

I had a false awakening from a dream, but for practical purposes I want to get this writen out first while my memory is fresher.

I felt my consciousness starting to pull into the 'physical plane'. But I stopped it and stayed in that state of mind. I was between sleep and awakeness. There was a voice telling me things, teaching me to leave my body. At first, it felt like I was unintentionally holding my arm up. But it told me to not open my eyes to check. At that point I figured it was my spirit's arm that was up and that my focus was more on my spirit than physical reality.

Then I felt my upper body involeentarilly rise up a bit. I figured that was my spirit again. Then at some point my spirit leaves my body and stops 3ft in front of my physical body. Up until this point, I couldn't see anything, only the back of my eyelids. I projected my consciousness into my spirit, so that I could use the body and move around. Though my focus was unstable, and I saw my suroundings blurry for a second, until my consciousness went back into my physcial body, because I had the stray thought of my physical body.

I did that about 2 more times, until the voice told me to stay in my spirit, and it will be better. I did and my surroundings became more clear. I felt like I was floating, and I was. The voice told me to travel to the other side of the livingroom, so I did. Then to travel to the otherside, but walking on the ground. So I Willed my spirit to walk the floor, and I did. I could feel the floor on my feet. Then it told me to practice hovering, floating around the house. I floated over my inanimate physical body and felt a weird energy from it. Like negative energy with pure energy..

The voice didn't think I was ready, but I went outside anyways. There was a nicer, more aboundent energy outside. I slowly began to float up into the sky. But I willed myself to go down. I went down, but when I stopped willing myself to go down, I would just start slowly floating right back up.

The voice told me to walk on the ground and make a connection with it and my feet. I did. I thought of my feet being connected to the earth. And it worked. I didn't float upwards anymore. It felt like standing up, except there was no weight on me, no gravity.

I walked around and felt a bunch of energy, also felt the compacted energy that is dirt on my feet. I walked about 100ft, when I saw one of my old friend's apartments. I started to walk to her apartment, admittedly to see if I could see her naked. Though when I began to walk to her house I felt a sharp feeling in my neck. And I unvoleentarily was veering to the right. I could fight it a little at first, but it got stronger. Then I appeared in another false wakening.

Afterthoughts

What I was taught in my dream seems like a very plausible OBE technique. I plan to try it out in real life. It should be noted that I know it was a dream because I left my physical body at my old house. Also, I think a real master came to my dream to teach me. When I sense it, it almost senses like the teacher is a part of me that only resides and travels around in my dreamspace. Possibly a part of my deep-self that has things to teach me. Also when I sense back on it, the master sensed like a native American. Which I view as generically the best teachers for spiritual arts. Though, my master on the physical plane is native American, so that could've been one of his ancestors.

I don't like American Idol btw.

I was in a small auditorium, with my old classmates making up the audience. It was announced by the host that I had won American Idol and $1,000,000. I was pretty stoked about the mil. Didn't care about Idol. My classmates jumped up and cheered for me. Some famous black woman came up to hug me. Then I went back up stage and gave a quick victory speech. I found it hard to keep my balance on the stage.

Then I remember we all left the room to go to another room outside.

My fellow humans and I were enslaved by a reptilian humanoid race of extraterrestrials. We were scared and made to be unhygienic.

The other humans and I walked down a crowded steel bridge over a baron wasteland. We were being moved and everyone was dead silent. Then a group of humans somewhere behind me started joking and laughing. They were killed with swords by the reptilians. Then everyone was silent again.

Once I get to the end of the bridge, there is a highway leading from it. Other people jump to the ground on their stomachs and travel really fast on the ground. As if it were a giant slip-n-slide. It my turn and jump down. I go pretty fast. I pass under a bridge, and at that point there were humans traveling the same way as me all around me. Just like how close cars are on the highway. There would be an occasional reptilian passing by.

If I dedicated enough brain power to it, I could make myself go faster. I would switch lanes, according to how fast Im going in relation to how fast others are going. I also went on a few on-ramps. And soon, there was no-one on the same road as me.

Then these other guys start catching up to me. 4 of them behind me, 5 in the next lane. Apparently we were racing. Later on through the race, I figure out that we are racing for the reptilians and that if we don't win we will probably die.

After a while, the ground gains normal features, and we have to run the race, because it won't let us slide anymore. Our supervising reptilian is following behind us now. The other team's leading guy, our second guy, and I are way ahead of the pack.

There comes a dirt road that unofficially leads off of the highway, it had a lot of tree-cover. It's a part of the course we are running, so the other 2 guys and I turn onto it. There are two small, parallel ditches; shallowed enough to see over when crawling in them. Which we did. That was the crawling part of the race.

We army-crawled fast. And just as we were out of sight of the supervisor reptilian, my teammate stands up, bites the other guy's toe off, then dumps him into deep ditch right next to us. That didn't sit too well for me. I didn't like killing someone else just to win and especially since he could be easily found and we could be punished for cheating.

He said something like,' just keep going.' So we army crawled about 150ft more. At which point all of both teams were in the shallow ditches. The supervisor was still a good distance away from us. He hadn't made it off the highway. My teammates got up and slaughtered the other team; choking, punching, and kicking them until they were all dead. They made good time of that, surprisingly. They threw their bodies into the deep ditches and over the treeline. I watched all this from the prone position.

The 2nd guy of our team (the one who killed the first guy) run up in font of me. Everyone was shitting their pants now, because if we got caught, we would die. The 2nd guy, who is now 1st, whisper-yelled to the team to move back more, to make it look more convincing. So we moved 40ft back and got back into the prone position. most of us layed on our sides and looked behind us, waiting for the supervisor. The 1st guy continued saying that we would pretend that they got up and ran, attempting to run away. And that we were the one's staying loyal. We were all shitting bricks, but we tried to cover that up as best we could.

Way down at the highway, a bus stopped at the beginning of the dirt road. The supervisor. He stopped very close to where the first guy died. The other guy and I were shitting more bricks at that point, though he was shitting more that me.

I was in a restaurant and Katlynne was there too. I think it was a school field trip it stop. Katlynne was flirting, getting to know a guy. The guy had brown skin, was athletic, and generally a cool guy. I guess it was cuz I was jealous, but he made a joke that crossed the line and I told him to leave and never come back to our school or area. For some reason, he left and he picked up that I didn't want him around Katlynne. She was obviously upset that I made him leave.

We and the rest of the class got on the bus that was taking us home. We all lived in a rural area, apparently. On the bus Katlynne was still clearly upset, so I told her that I would tell the guy he can walk freely and be with her. Apparently, Katlynne liked to have this guy get off the bus with her and have sex with him right as they got home. She replied telling me something along the lines of 'you better get him back'. We were no longer on good terms with eachother. It seemed that if I could restore what I undid, then Katlynne and my friendship would begin to heal. I asked her if she wanted me to tell the guy to go to her house if I saw him.'yes,' she said, still upset with me.

We arrived at Katlynne's house. She got off, didn't say anything to me. The bus backed up a bit and the guy got on. As he passed me I told him that he was free to roam about our area and come back to school. He was cool with, though he looked like he was dealing some feelings of rejection. At this point, I felt legitly bad for him. I wanted him to feel comfortable in our area again. I also told him that Katlynne wanted him to go to her house. He said something like,' oh seriously?' I confirmed it, and he got off the bus and toke a short walk to Katlynne's house. On account that the bus hadn't left at the point.

I was in class in high school with all my old friends. I dont think a teacher was their. We all were just having fun, talking, and watching a movie.

Katlynne talked to me casually. Which was nice and odd, because usually she felt repulsed by me. So I joined her group of friends for the last 10 minutes of the movie and we talk and had fun.

The bell rang and we all left. On my way out I talked to Devin a little. It was nice to see her again, because we were always on good terms. I go to my locker and grab a couple things, then headed down for lunch. It was a lonely lunch since I had no one to sit with.

Katlynne

I thought I'd take some time to go in-depth about katlynne, just in case my future self forgot. She has blonde hair, a perfect body, and has relationship issues; on account that everyone wants to hit and quit her. We've always had a weird relationship, in the physical world and dreamworld.

Back in middle school, I put myself out there for her and she rejected me, pretty harshly. And I had never went for a girl before. She ignored me for a while. Then our friends hung out so we kinda got put in the same situation a lot. We'd say a few words to eachother then kinda ignore eachother. She was the most complicated girl I knew. I couldn't tell if she just wanted to be friends or was kinda being nice because of how hard she threw me down or because she felt sorry for me. No idea. Then for 3 years we are seperated, as in, we are not put in the same situation. Then we get history class together and she starts to laugh at jokes I say in front of the class. She even approached me one-on-one a few times and put casual conversations out there. As if she would like to be my friend. I would talk back to her, but also kinda brush off her conversations. I was still confused and hurt by how she acted before. I feel like she may have been interested in a romantic relationship with me, obviously if we hung out more and she confirmed that she liked me. But I wouldn't put that theory on record. And at this point I had undergone a lot of changes. Something had to have appealed to her to want to be my friend. I more or less brushed her off, dropped out of school and went on to do other things with my life (highschool is pointless and I didn't need to go to a good college for my career choice). Anyways, I've seen her 1 or 2 times since I dropped out. A part of me wishes I didn't drop out, I now realize that her friendship would've meant a lot to me.

Now the tie-in. Ever since I left her 1 and a 1/2 years ago, Ive had dreams of her. About every two weeks I'll have a dream about her. Im not exactly sure why, Im assuming its a mix of her having a big impact on my life and that we have a spiritual connection. Of course I wouldn't say that on record, but I kinda feel that connection with her. Take that however you want, but... whatever. Anyways, these dreams are always about being rejected by her or just kinda watching her. In my dreams, her form basically represents rejection (especially from the feminine), the love that wont be, and just sitting on the sidelines. Always she acts out those themes to me in my dreams, up until last night, when she accepted me.

Afterthoughts

Katlynne usually represents feminine rejection/disconnection for me. And I've probably have had 20 dreams over the course of the last 6 months of her consecutively representing those things. So her having a casual conversation, trying to repair our relationship, means something big. Now I couldn't really tell if she was looking for something romantic later on in our relationship. But one thing I do know is that her form now accepts me and were on good terms.

I can't say that I know exactly what this means. It felt really good to have her acceptance and be able to have a nice conversation with her. It could mean that I've conquered my fear of rejection. But it could also mean other things. Im also not sure if this was a shared dream or not. If it was then it could've been just as much of her getting over what I represent in her life as what she represents in mine.

The lonely lunch definitely puts a twist to things. Like, I'm accepted/not scared of rejection yet Im still lonely. Shiitt, that's right lol Though I'm still a bit scared of rejection. There must be more dimensions to what she represents than I'm realizing.

I can't help but feel that one day Katlynne and I are gonna meet again one day and have a great relationship (friendship, possibly romanctic relationship, whatever happens). I just get that feeling out of no where. It could just be the dreams and resentment of how I left things. I guess time will show if its true.