Golden Tales From The Dream World

Dream
Lucid
Semi-Lucid

This was something I wasn't originally going to post because of the sort of "content" that was in it.
However it has an example of something that kind of bothers me in dreams.
That is Semi-Lucidity.
You see, sometimes I have dreams where my desires and will are so strong that they manifest themselves as dream control, either active or passive.
However, though I may have powerful dream control, and though I know there are no consequences to my actions,
in the end, I have no idea that I'm dreaming.
This happens to me a lot more then full fledged lucidity does, actually knowing that I'm dreaming and knowing what that means, in a sense.
However here's my predicament.
When I'm semi-lucid, I have much more dream control than I do when I'm actually lucid.
This leads to a lot of frustration in my lucid dreams.
The reason for this, I think, is that because I don't know that I'm dreaming in semi-lucid dreams, I think everything around me is actually happening,
which means my expectations are really strong.
I don't think that I'm having a lucid dream, I think that I have miraculously developed super powers in the waking world.
Where as when I'm lucid, things are a bit different.
I think it's because that I'm so aware that diminishes my abilities.
Or maybe it's because of the laws of the specific dream realm, or maybe it's because I don't expect to succeed enough, or maybe, hell I don't know.
Well enough rambling, on to the actual dream.

February 3rd 2013

I'm in the living room of my grandma's apartment.
I'm with someone else though.
I'm not entirely sure how she got there, or who she is, but frankly I don't even care.
Details and questions aren't buzzing around in my head, I'm being completely driven by will.
Without even thinking about it, I use my telekinesis to grab onto her.
I kind of feel like a puppeteer, using by powers to manipulate her movements.
Though I'm doing this all with physical force, not through any means of actual mind control.
I try and make her perform certain actions, testing just how powerful I am.
I can tell I'm not exerting that much of my strength, I don't want to injure her or anything.
Though through me flow malicious intent.
I feel like a super villain, making the damsel in distress dance against her will.
(It's kind of scary in hindsight, in this dream I really was evil)
Finally my amusement of the situation begins to fade and I grow bored.
Suddenly a thought crosses my mind.

"Wait, why is this woman here? Am I holding her against her will?"

I take a look into her eyes.
They're fearful, and they resent me.

"Hmm, how did things get to this?" I wonder.

Now I feel disgusted with myself. Have I really fallen to stoop this low.
I let go of the woman and forget about her, she then disappears.
I decide to go play some video games to get my mind off the situation.