memorable

DATE: July 15, 2011
Key
Non-Dream Dream Lucid
Type
Non-Lucid
Technique
WILD

Well, I successfully counted and stayed conscious all the way into my sleep. I kept counting into the dream, all the way up to "100, I'm dreaming" and when my waking body got shaken, my dream body thought that I was still awake and gave up trying to WILD anymore. I kicked the sheets off, put on my PJs and walked to the kitchen. I stepped over the puppy barrier and found some blunts just sitting on the kitchen counter.

D followed me out and said "Oh, M left those. I think that might have spice in it and not weed, though," and then went back to bed. Curious, I took one to bed with me and smelled it. It smelled like freshly dried tobacco (which I enjoy the smell of) and, while I was bored, I split it open and took out three dried, burnt leaves. It looked like they were padded in with fiber-fill. D woke up and asked what I was doing and I said "I can't sleep." I laid down and tried to just fall asleep, having given up on WILDing and going Lucid.

Another dream was starting now and I was sitting at a bar. The bartender apologized for pissing in a glass and setting it on the counter. I asked for some water, sniffed it to make sure it was just water and took a sip. It was fine. I looked over at a nearby table and saw the split open blunt from the previous dream.

My waking eyes shot open as I realized that I missed a very long WILD opportunity. I was furious. It didn't help that Drew was behind me, breathing loudly and now I couldn't get back to sleep.

Afterwards, I popped in and out of sleep for a little while and gave up when Drew rolled over and started breathing on my ear.

DATE: July 6, 2011
Key
Non-Dream Dream Lucid
Type
DILD
Technique
Awareness

This dream starts with a storm. D, my dad and I were living in a beach house, each with our own bed. I was laying in mine, thinking we were safe when I remembered another nightmare. Just then, the storm worsened and the house started rumbling. The windows were splashed with the ocean's raging waves and the house was being dragged into the ocean. I was terrified at first but I realized that I didn't really live on the beach. I did the nose-pinch and the house stopped shuddering. Drew and my dad disappeared and the ceiling opened up. I took off flying, getting as much distance between me and the house as I could.

I flew over a city this time and it was night time. The sky was clear now. The whole scene changed on its own. Anyway, I landed from there and I started practicing my double jump. I tried 2 times but I only got 1 good jump in. Afterwards, I took off flying again and decided to try this month's easy task. I wanted to attempt the basic task at Dream Views. I heard violin music and played along, using an invisible air-violin. I tried to keep up with it and, eventually, it was actually producing its own sounds. I've never played a violin IRL. I was flying the entire time.

Then, I lost my lucidity.

At one point, though, Drew and I were talking with another person about how much it must suck to be a CoCo's delivery boy since they took canoes to deliver their curry.

Plus a fragment:

This was probably a different dream altogether. I was on a ship, below-deck and there were a lot of birds. Their feet were very brittle, sort of like hardened, stiffened paper and their toes and feet broke like chips. I got to handle one and its talons sank into my fingers. I remember the pain from this scene very clearly.

Later, in this same fragment, someone mishandled a bird (there was a peacock in a cage btw) and it sank its talons into my lower belly, leaving them behind. I pulled out a foot then many, many claws.

DATE: June 27, 2011
Key
Non-Dream Dream Lucid
Type
DILD
Technique
Awareness

I was trying to get a hold of P (who was in Spain?) with my cell. After that, I must've gotten lost on my way home, though. I remember driving a shopping cart around a track and telling a teacher that I would put the cart back after I got back. I knew I wouldn't, though and actually decided not to go back. I did find P at C's house (I don't actually know where she lives) and after we got to my house (the computer room and bedroom were fused together) I realized I was dreaming.

At first, I thought I'd woken up but it was a false awakening and I did a reality check, like I do every morning. This was before I'd even 'opened my eyes' and after I pinched my nose I was still dreaming. The dream tried to trick me into thinking I wasn't breathing. Truth is, I've had some congestion in the waking world. I did have trouble breathing in the game, yes, but the point is that I was still breathing. I had to reassure myself of this. The above was literally my thought process. Well, I forced myself up, reassuring myself that I could get up even though the dream tried to keep me down and, eventually, I was able to get up.

I opened my eyes and saw that P and I were still in the bedroom. So we had sex. I figured there were no consequences to this. Afterwards, we cuddled with him on top and I figured I wanted to cuddle with S instead since I didn't get to in my other dream. So, I glanced away, looked back and there he was, S instead of P. We only cuddled for a moment, though.

I got out of bed and thought "This is my dream. There are other things I could do right now." So I walked through my window, outside to the yard and said "I'm going to double jump." And I did. Twice! I also jumped pretty high. I didn't float down but I wasn't expecting to. Then I remembered the other task.

My friend L recommended I try summoning my Spirit Guide or Dream Guardian and I met them both this time. First, I summoned my guide. I stood by the side of my house, looked toward the driveway and said, when I look back, my Spirit Guide is going to be there." I looked towards the wall and back to the driveway. There was nothing there but through the bushes, I could see a white, long-haired figure walking up the hill with a train of ram's legs covered with brown leather sheet behind it. It shrank down to a bi-pedal ram with huge, bulking shoulders and, though it wasn't very defined, it seemed very wise.

So... it was a shape-shifting ram or goat. At first, I was disappointed. It could sense my disappointment and told me to meet my guardian. I walked down the hill, telling myself that I was going to meet it and there it was, a large black dragon with golden accents and yellow eyes, greeting me from its lot, surrounded by trees. It greeted me and this time, I was with my husband and two friends. We all bowed to the dragon, dropping our heads to the ground.

The dragon shrank to the size of a gecko and turned into a snail. I lost my lucidity. I don't remember much after this but I woke up soon after anyway. All I do remember is talking to someone, though I can't remember what about. The snail in my hand eventually turned into a pebble and I tossed it into the grass.

I didn't realize the significance of the animals in my dream until about an hour after I woke up. The ram (or goat, really) is representative of my Western astrological sign (I'm a Capricorn) and the dragon matches my Chinese sign, as I was born in the year of the dragon.

13.06.2011

First Lucid Experience - I got to fly! (DILD)

NON-DREAM DREAM LUCID

Since I realized that I was dreaming I guess this is a DILD.

I was going through my morning routine with Drew (the hubby) and a friend of mine, Gour, was sleeping on the couch. Apparently, he snuck into the house through the unlocked front door and crashed there for the night. After we’d “woken up” Drew headed off for work and Gour followed me around the house. At one point, I’d put on a top but had no pants to wear in the room. He sort of leered at me and followed me to the laundry room where I couldn’t close the door because the doorframe was too wide. I had to pull the door towards the lock to make it close and, when it wouldn’t close (it didn’t matter because the door was transparent anyway) Gour and two of his girlfriends appeared and they stared at me, one of the girls doing the evil villain make-out thing to his ear.
I had enough. I was so uncomfortable with the situation that I just wanted to make sure it wasn’t really happenening. So I did two reality checks. The first one, I pinched my cheek. I have no idea, either. The other, I pinched my nose, I kept breathing through my closed nostrils and I said aloud “I’m dreaming!”
I felt my mind shudder with disbelief. The dream flashed and I felt myself waking up. Suddenly, the dream came back only now, the laundry room was empty, there was no door, there was no Gour. I felt like I had a ‘false awakening’ but I did another check and I was still dreaming. Out of curiosity, mostly just to see that I was really in control of my dream, I tried something easy. Summoning a dryer in the corner of the laundry room. I covered my view of the corner with my hand said “I want there to be a dryer there” and when I moved my hand, there it was, thudding onto the ground. I had a pair of pants in my hand now with a wet spot in the middle. I remember finding them while Gour was watching and I touched them with my hand, right on the wet spot and said “dry.”
I put my newly dried pants on and walked to the bedroom. The trip was instantaneous. I looked around at the wood paneling and said “this is ugly.” I looked around at the rest of the room and saw how remarkably clean it was. It was at this point I was rubbing my hands together to keep the dream stable. It worked.
I wanted new colors in my room so I just started saying things like “I want the walls to be Forest Green, now Red. That’s too bright. What about.. rosewood?” And the colors stopped changing when I was happy. I changed the ceiling and molding apricot, too. I was very happy with the result.
It was at this point I remember thinking “I wonder how fast time is moving in real life” and “I don’t want this to end.”
I stood at my curtains and said aloud “planets, stars, dark orange” because I wanted to have a beautiful sky in my dream world.
I walked through the closed, glass window, with the glass stretching over me like saran wrap and letting go with no strain on my part. I looked up and saw no planets, no orange but I did see a beautiful sky. It was light blue, vivid, and the clouds were small and scarce. There was no wind. Through the blue sky I could see stars though and I commented on the beauty. Not what I wanted but it was at least a beautiful sky.
I teleported back into my computer room but I wasn’t sure I was still dreaming. The dream felt so real that I reached out and touched my fish tank and it actually felt like it was there. I pinched my nose again and continued breathing. I remembered that I was dreaming and walked outside through the window. This time, I wanted to fly. I rubbed my hands together to keep it stable, I ended up in the entranceway and put on my shoes, walked outside, took a deep breath and jumped. I kept thinking to myself “I won’t be able to do it.” But, as I soared higher and higher, I kept thinking to myself “I’m going to fly. For the first time, I’m going to fly.”
And I did. Flying over the lowest clouds, I saw my dream island. For some reason, I could just feel in my gut that it was mine. I flew down and on my way to the shore that came before the island (it was round and around it was a heart shape. I couldn’t tell whether it was reef or boats or other, smaller islands.)
I floated down, letting my feet touch the ground only once and I flew by Arnold Schwarzenegger who was repairing a car. I made an “I’ll be back” joke and we talked smack about Reb Brown. But I wanted to see what was up with the island so I flew down to the shore, rubbing my hands. I kept doing my reality checks and, on my way to one of the side islands, I felt the dream fading. I desperately kept rubbing my hands to keep it from fading but it was already nearly gone. I closed my eyes and focused on my hands. And when that didn’t work, I tried to open my eyes but couldn’t. I still recognized that I was in a dream and tried looking through my closed eyes (which is a recurring theme in my dreams, even since I was a child) and it worked! But the world around me was already beginning to turn a light grey. I saw the island I was trying to reach fade into the grey, I no longer had a body and I woke up.