lucid

I wake up in my bed (false awakening) and see someone walking down my hallway. I'm cautious, but I get up and pursue this person. He has already walked out the front door. I go out too. The yard is not my yard. And houses are being torn down. A few yards over I see a creek, the one by the house I grew up in. The sight of the creek makes me believe I am dreaming. I keep checking my hands and I can't get them to distort like usual. Finally a couple of them look stuck together, so I shout to everyone don't worry this is just a dream. They don't believe me so I start flying and admiring this incredible architecture that I created out of my subconscious.

False Awakening in my bedroom - I noticed this deep blue wall paper with a small print. It was beautiful, but not really in my bedroom so I did reality checks and realized I was still dreaming. I immediately fly through the windows and it was daylight outside. I looked over to the left I saw the Hollywood Bowl, but I didn't really want to explore that. Tried to conjure Jules. Walked into a bar and characters said he was at a place called Barstool (I forget the address). On my way over there I hop in a new corvette with Jimmy Fallon. I asked him if anyone has ever told him that he looks like Damone in Fast Times. We're driving around but never find Jules. Woke up. False awakening, reality check and fly out the windows. I appear to be flying over my grandfather's house and there were some runners coming across the swinging bridge. One was my subconscious but he wasn't cooperative and wouldn't answer my questions. Wonder why? Next time I'm going to try for a massage.

I have a meet up on Sunday with a group I am part of. We have yet to decide the meeting place. Time was closing in, so I was trying to give my phone number to one of the others, so we could meet up. I would write my number, then check it and the numbers were jumbled - that triggered lucidity. I was kind of a slacker with this one. I flew like Superman and actually ran into Superman and we flew. I didn't attempt to conjure anyone or my subconscious. Just tried to enjoy the dream landscape - which was mostly dark. I guess I like to fly at night.

Kept having dreams with lots of clues that I was dreaming - back in school, living in a dorm, etc. The dorm was like a giant basement/loft with 4 showers. Roommates were old school mates. Jeremy was working very hard to organize the place. It was an amazing place. I would awake and wonder why I couldn't recognize the dream clues. Got up for a little bit, fed cats, and went back to bed with intention. As soon as I hit the dream world I did a reality check (looked at my hands) and bingo! Dreaming! Flying in the night sky and felt so free. The moon kept getting larger so I wanted to slow down and come back down to earth. I'm still afraid of the moon. I start to conjure JC. I land in an old theatre and one of the tech guys says he is out by the purple loading dock. I run down the stairs toward the loading dock and there he is standing in a doorway. He smiles and walks over to me. He looks 10 years younger. We hug and I just look at him. He comes to help with setting up the basement/loft/dorm. Then I think there was a wedding of some sort - no one I know of.

I've gotten good at getting JC to show up (took about a year). I need to come up with some intentions once he gets here (and stick to them).

Very Brief lucidity triggered by big cats. I flew away and lost lucidity. Oh well.

Lucid. Kept waking up in frustration of not being lucid. Finally I went lucid. I was at an Estate Sale with my mother. It was in a camper that somehow transforms into a VW beetle. Anyway, there wasn't much worth taking. Maybe a couple of vinyl records, but they had scratches. Then I see someone I know running away - wearing a different jacket than he was wearing 2 minutes before - so that triggered lucidity. Immediately I took flight and then had a close call with a helicopter. Back to ground. Ask for J. Don't see him anywhere. Suddenly I noticed 2 guys wrestling around on the ground and there he was. He looked up and laughed and said hello. Got up gave me a hug and we had some fun. There were moments where a flash would happen and for a moment he would look differently. Made me nervous but he was close enough.

Lucid. Found a kitten in my basement. I asked it how he got in our house. Said that the door was left unlocked a few nights ago. The kitten then turned into a boy and that triggered lucidity. Usually when I turn lucid, I have tasks I want to do (conjure someone or talk to my subconscious) but this time I just wanted to see where the dream would take me, so I just went with it. He was a boy, but I still regarded him as a kitten and wanted to show him something fun, so we went flying. He kept turning older. We flew through an unknown urban neighborhood and was looking for a place to stop. I tried to "draw" a house in existence but that didn't work. We found one and it was dark and dirty. I found a mirror and kept willing my reflection to change on command - that was fun. I then saw myself aging - from now to 30 years in future. It looked incredibly accurate. The boy/kitten ended up rejecting me. Somehow I get the sense that maybe it is representative of desires that I don't allow myself, while my life is slipping away.

kind of trippy, somewhere there are lots of buildings and mechanical objects. Once again realize I'm topless and I recognize I'm dreaming. Lucid immediately. Flying around these urban landscapes, wondering what I want to do. Called for J but nowhere to be found and I was ok with that so I conjured my subconscious. It took the shape of my older male cousin. I asked how come I can write beautiful music in the dream state but I can't remember it once I've awakened. I'm stuck when writing music in real life but it is amazingly easy to do while dreaming. My subconscious said that I need do "real' work on myself, both inside and out. Marry the creative with the physical life. Stop living in my head. I also asked what should I be doing with my life - the answer was I'm a long ways off to getting the answer to that question. Do more work.

I asked about J not showing up. Subconscious said I'll have to wait another week or so.

Then there were storms brewing off in the distance - looked like tornadoes - I felt like I was going to wake so I rubbed my hands together to stay grounded. Went to the basement of some monstrous building to wait it out.

Stressed about a triginomotry class when I havne't been to class. Couldn't finish the exam because I started with lengthy essays. Feel as if I will not graduate with a passing grade. Somehow went lucid and got the heck outta there. Flew through the window and was flying up in a larger room doing somersaults in the air. While flying I decided to conjure my subconscious. When I land from flying there was a girl sitting at a desk. I know she is my subconscious but she doesn't want to admit it and she didn't want to talk to me.

That is the first time I've had my subconscious be uncooperative . Frustrating. It usually works wonderfully - they take the shape of a random person and answer any questions about myself. Pretty amazing stuff. Though one time I made out with my subconscious.

This one was short and not too memorable. Frustrating really.

Started with houses with basements. Our house was having a show in the basement with wild animals - big cats. Didn't want to watch the show. Scared and went upstairs with worry what was happening below.

Walked outside - snow up a hollow road - started driving. Became Lucid. Conjured J - came on a motorcycle. He got off, took the helmet off and nodded to me, but went inside a kitchen dismissively. My friend Dutch was there. They conversed briefly and he told me he wasn't in the mood right now to talk. Later. I kept waiting. I went in the bedroom and J had gone to bed. Looked up and said, "Just get in". Hair.

No longer lucid - in a high rise. My family is visiting. Airplanes are flying by too closely and crashing into one of the buildings. I could no longer watch and was experiencing anxiety. Saw my old friend, Britta riding a motorcycle and dropping someone off. There are viking boats flying in the air up to the clouds. Valhalla. At closer inspection they are flying on cables. I don't think I could take a ride in one.

See my former best friend Erika - she looks at me and walks away. I keep calling her name and she won't turn around. Suddenly we are talking as if nothing happened. She can't come out with us this evening. KT wanted her to. Driving around looking for DH and my brother and family trying to find where they are. I think they went to dinner without me. I went to the library and checked out a handbag - my favorite travel one I got 5 years ago.

Themes - wild animals being threatening, plane crashes. Getting better and conjuring during LD.