non-lucid

Dark. Up CC on the roads. J shows up sees my Dad and says he wants to go to Kansas City. I'm looking at the moon and realize that I have a memory of having been there. I ask J if he told Aubry that I went to space.

Dad says not to go but I do anyway. We rent a truck and drive. I guess we get there and all seems familiar to me. I'm trying to find a store to buy toiletries and clothes. Not sure why we are here. Not a lot of talking. Then suddenly we are back at CC and it is still dark. He leaves and I keep thinking about the moon.

1st dream - I was somewhere with people from my past -Terra, Angie, and Erin. All from very different parts of my life but all deeply religious even though they don't share the same religion. I was very happy to see and spend time with all of them. (What does this mean? Am I lost spiritually?)

2nd dream morphed from the first one with Erin doing my makeup. It was too much and I wiped some of it off then I was nervous I wouldn't be "ready in time" (clue for something?). Going to see The Answer and the concert was on a cruise. I get there and meet up with Kathy. Turns out my ticket is for the wrong day - her's is Friday and mine is Saturday. Maybe I could exchange but I can't find my Driver's License. So I jump off the boat and I'm on some kind of inflatable horse to get to my place and find my ID. Somehow I am suddenly back on the ship and the ticket seems to be no longer a problem. O'Donnell is there to see the show. I'm nervous of getting sea sick. Anyway I see Yolandi and she is the most beautiful creature I've laid eyes on. She seems butterfly-like with sparkly purple makeup and a shiny gray draped dress. She spoke to me and I was enthralled.

I lived in this fabulous haunted house. Ant was there - should have been a clue that I was dreaming. He was mad at me but was setting up my drum kit. We were going to a concert, but was going to be very late. We were hungry and went to a drive through - I ordered Birthday Cake number 2. Loved the house with secret rooms.

I could lie down, count to 3 and levitate. My brother was there. Strange house.

My house is massive. Julian built a new kitchen with tall, exposed beams, dark wood floors, and red stools. There are random people there. Julian is on a lower level and someone is asking for his autograph. He looks up at me and then signs for her. She tries to kiss him and he kind of pulls away and gestures my way. I just laughed. I entered the stairwell (like in my junior high school) and all the entrances keep changing and I can't find my way back (House of Leaves). I finally find a floor that will let me out - and I'm on the opposite side of the kitchen than where I entered. That was nightmarish and should have triggered lucidity. At one point I'm having a conversation with others about the Id, Ego, and Super Ego. I admitted to talking to my subconscious while lucid dreaming (trigger - hello??!!!!!). Nice Kitchen, though.

Playing a show with The Vacation and I'm filling in for drums. I didn't know the songs, but got through the show somehow. It was a disaster - but not sure anyone else thought that way.

I show up in the wrong dress. and then I can't find my shoes that I just took off. It is easy to get to the East Coast from the West Coast - you just go through the kitchen. There is a boy I don't recognize, but I know him. I think he is sort of my boyfriend. He is trying to help me find my clothes and came to the show to support me. Very sweet boy. Something about hot dogs and hanging out later watching some games. Some of the old theatre regulars are there. Stevie Jo is all in white. What show is this? Supposed to be 80's.

Well, there you have it - Bi-Coastal theatre through a kitchen.

When I lost my shoes that should have been a trigger to recognize I'm dreaming. I've really been slacking lately.

It was my last day in LA. Very sad day. Realized there were so many things I hadn't yet done. It was dark. I had memories of my arrival in LA (that was another dream several years prior). I was attempting to run last minute errands. I was driving down LaBrea but I had no car and it was very dark. Somehow my brother was there and I was crying. Ended up at a night club in Chicago. My friend's sister was there and I realized we were both vampires. She was very happy to be so - said it was a lot of fun. However, I didn't want to be. I excused myself to the restroom. It was an obstacle course to get to the bathroom - like ice climbing, maze, etc. Made it to the top and there was Julian getting ready to play pool. He caused me to wake up. I woke up with tears in my eyes.

Our houses were different and no one went outside. We shared a kitchen with our next door neighbors. Turns out their 9 year old boy was a vampire. No one talked about it though. He could go outside though, so he must have been half vampire. My brother was one too. They were just trying to get by - my bro would feed on me and it was scary. There were much more sinister vampires out there I had to run from or fly by with weapon in hand. Perhaps I was a slayer of some sort. All the while being food for my brother.

Non-lucid visit with a ghost (B. Stewart). Somewhere where there are many people milling about. I see the ghost and we start talking. I tell him that I know he is dead. He smiles at me and says he is always here, watching over the guys. He gives me a lot of advice about life and says that he will just be "over there" sitting in the orange chair (like a stadium seat - sitting out in the open of this courtyard type setting), whether I can see him or not - he will be there. Such a friendly, loving, smile and hug. We talk about his son and his wife.

Later on in the dream - a different day perhaps - I return to the busy courtyard and I don't see him. I turn to the empty orange chair (about 15 ft away) and wave hello. A plastic hand that was on the arm rest waves back to me and I know it is him. Comforting.

Dream switches to being on a plane with my brother on our way to South Africa. There is no roof on the plane and I had to keep my hands on my headphones to keep them from flying off of my head. We end up at someone's house - there are pillars around the pool.

Themes: We Will Never Leave You - Leave No Doubt

non lucid. My house in the city is now in the country. A long winding country road to get there. There is a path that goes out beyond a pond/lake and there appears to be a second part to our house. I thought "cool, more bedrooms". But the kitchen was dark. To get back and forth I ride some kind of motorized saucer shaped sled. The second part turned into some kind of hotel for young singles. Don't know how that happened. Then I guess it wasn't mine anymore.

Fragments. Non Lucid. Somewhere in a high rise and I'm supposed to marry this older distinguished man. He is very into me, but there is something funny about his eyes. He kisses me passionately. I suddenly remember that I am already married.

Non Lucid. Walking after dark with DH and some friends to get to a venue. We parked in the wrong place, so the walk is going to be long. Oh, there are cars falling out of the sky and we're dodging them. A Car pulls up and I know the driver - Chris H. Kind of the one that got away. Says we can ride with him. I notice that he is huffing nitrous oxide while driving. That causes me discomfort and I had to take the wheel at some times. Ended in a collision. Chris gets out and yells at me for what I did to him 12 years ago. Whatever. We never made the destination.

Kind of vague and the scene kept changing. I was living with my brother in a loft. JC moved in with us and asked me why I'm not singing or performing. I didn't have an answer. Also pointed out my thighs. The cat litter boxes kept getting over full.

At first everything is random and nonsensical. Then I realize I'm pregnant - at the doctor with a blood test with confirmation. Yet, I've been pregnant for some while. DH is happy and I am happy, yet reticent. Not sure when this happened or how - no memory of that. The rest of the dream is making preps for baby to come and the psychological transition to becoming a mother.

Next appointment at the doctor - I learn that I am pregnant with a little boy and he is dead.